lesbianprufrock

[lesbianprufrock]

genuinely felt like d and p were gonna start making out on the kitchen table in the middle of that video. whadda hell

#do they just get really h*rny in the kitchen or what i felt like i was intruding

[lesbianprufrock]

I'm not even doing anything half the time anyway bc there's no point lol, even if I fully finished everything on my to do list I'd still be stuck here doing overtime for someone else's work

#a little demotivating tbh! #maybe i just need to play hooky some time this month

[lesbianprufrock]

I think the worst part of current work grind is it's not for a specific project and there's no real end in sight so it's just like there's no escape lol

[lesbianprufrock]

this feels like a personal attack. why would you think this n*tflix

[lesbianprufrock]

tried valiantly to complete my m*rvel workout episode between my Bluetooth headphones fucking me while outside and the first treadmill I tried breaking when I restarted inside, but once workers showed up on the roof right outside the window I gave up. plus using one of my garbage sports bras that doesn't even work

#still did like 2.5 miles i think but Come On

[lesbianprufrock]

can we as a society move away from "ma'am" and "miss" like as a whole. not even for dysph*ria reasons for me, it just sounds condescending instead of deferential at this point 😭

#and also why are you being deferential to me in the first place i'm just some random asshole on the phone

[lesbianprufrock]

feel like I'm gonna be adding "as a man" to every single post, related or not, for a while and am already annoyed with myself for it. as a man, I'm glad I have a working microwave again so that, as a man, I can have leftover spaghetti for breakfast. like real men do.

[lesbianprufrock]

also brief pause to say I logged on later than usual today and was sure I was gonna be the last person on only to find everyone else had the same idea, so that's fun

[lesbianprufrock]

I'm talking glibly on here but I am really truly Having A Moment lmfao

#in a way it's not a surprise bc i've actively been trying to get to this point for like a month #but it's a bit like chasing a rabbit around for 15 years then when you finally catch the rabbit it's like well ok now what

[lesbianprufrock]

gonna speak my truth as a real man - the binder I got from a supposedly better company sucks way more ass than the one I got from g*2b. I've had it less than 2 months and already the stitching is falling apart and I've lost all tit compression while still compressing my ribs. whadda hell

#like it's way more uncomfortable and doesn’t even do its job lmao

[lesbianprufrock]

love that I had a massive identity revelation this morning and my reaction is like. lol lmao okay. anyway.

[lesbianprufrock]

me, having an averagely miserable Tuesday morning driving back from the office: ...

my brain: hey, you're a man. also, part of the reason you let yourself live with constant discomfort is bc you live with constant dysph*ria anyway and don't know any other way to be at this point. ok bye again.

me: excuse me

#what is it about that section of road that inspires g*nder introspection lmao #it's almost the exact same spot where i realized i'm Not A Woman bc i referred to myself as that in my head and physically recoiled

[lesbianprufrock]

love that I feel so shit and still worked an 8.5 hour day today. I'm sure this is so good for me

#and i have to teach class too 😭😭😭

[lesbianprufrock]

I'm gonna have to log off early today I think, I feel fucking horrible

#and i have class tonight too 😭😭 #hate when i get burned out like this for no damn reason it's so embarrassing

[lesbianprufrock]

good morning happy Monday I feel like shit, constantly vaguely anxious, and I want to jump out the fucking window. yes, this is my own fault for not running errands or doing enough chores over the weekend and being behind on some stuff at work, but still

#i literally had two days off less than a month ago why am i so burned out #i mean i'm familiar with how my brain works so i know why but i still think it sucks ass

[lesbianprufrock]

IT always yells at me to update my shit but then when they remote in to do it for me they always have to spend a full half hour or longer digging up the software with accesses I don't have, so like. yeah that's why I don't do it earlier guys lol

[lesbianprufrock]

wow, those dudes from that one really annoying network show may actually have a shot at being canon. congrats guys.

#truly a new era #only one of them is q for now but if the writers are actually willing to engage w that and the fans are seeing it #altho if they just left it at that it would be so funny