leiyourheadonmyshoulder

[leiyourheadonmyshoulder]

**PLEASE read, trans woman needs help escaping domestic violence**

Hi, I’m Miriam. I’m a 22 year old trans woman and I’m in desperate need of help.

I am stuck in a physically abusive relationship. I was cut off by my family long ago for being a gay man, as that’s how I used to identify. My partner has effectively isolated me over the last 2 years of our relationship and I no longer have any close friendships IRL, and I’m not out to most people. My partner knows I am trans, but I’m being exclusively misgendered and deadnamed by him, as well as being generally demeaned and ridiculed for being trans on a near-daily basis.

The abuse has been escalating since quarantine started and even more so since I came out. I’m starting to fear for my life, even though I know that sounds a little dramatic. On my blog, I have pinned a post with proof of physical injuries, in case anyone would like to be sure.

All of this has been super debilitating to my mental and physical health to the point where I have become suicidal and I can’t sleep at night anymore out of fear and anxiety. I’m constantly on the verge of tears. The stress I’m under is causing my hair to fall out, which is causing me a ton of dysphoria. I have no college education and no savings whatsoever and I suffered a massive loss of income due to corona. I feel extremely helpless right now.

I hate to do this. I’m afraid to do this. I’m scared of posting this because I’m terrified of my partner finding it and recognizing me. But I don’t know what else to do anymore.

I’m trying to save up money so I can get out of here as soon and as safely as possible. Here’s what I’m aiming for:

Secure a safe place to live (deposit, first + last month’s rent)

Transport / preferably getting my car fixed or get a new one, whatever’s cheapest

Possible therapy/counseling to help me exit this relationship and/or deal with the aftermath

Pay for several ER/medical bills that have been piling up

Preferably start transitioning somewhere down the line, but this is lower on my list of priorities as I need to tend to my physical safety first :(

I’m honestly reaching my breaking point here. All I can do is humbly ask for donations. Anything would help, even just a dollar here and there. I NEED to start getting out of this situation.

tldr; I’m a young trans woman trapped in a severely abusive relationship with no resources and no means of getting out.

If you can donate, please donate to this pool I set up with a friend, as I can’t risk my deadname getting out and effectively doxxing myself.

You can do so anonymously and without having a Paypal account!

If you can’t, please reblog. I know these are rough times for a lot of people, so I’m not demanding anything. Every reblog has the potential to help. Thank you so much. ❤️

[leiyourheadonmyshoulder]

Get to know me

Hi, hello. Welcome to my blog, I'm a trans guy who is 17 turning 18 in less than a month (may 13, 2021 to be exact).

I am omnisexual with a strong lean towards feminine passing people (whether it be a girl, feminine nonbinary, or a feminine passing gay guy). Its the title I feel most comfy with, sense I dont know what you would actually call that.

I don't know my name yet, so for now you can call me Lei.

I have adhd and I dont know how to regulate emotions cause emotion scary.

I'm really awkward and I dont know how to talk to people and I have anxiety with talking to humans, so there's a Qu1rKY(🥴🙄) thing about me I guess.

Overall I have a shit ton of issues that I'm probably gonna be a little to open about on her, but it's fine because no one here actually knows who I am.

#get to know you #get to know the author #get to know tag #get to know the admin #get to know me

[leiyourheadonmyshoulder]

hey here’s a test; reblog if it’s ok for you to be uncomfortable with your parents still calling you by she/her pronouns because they need to ‘’adjust to the new situation’’, when you’ve already stated that you prefer he/him pronouns.

trying to prove a point to my parents who say ‘’we love you but it’s new to us therefor we will be using female pronouns so we can feel more comfortable even though you hate those pronouns’’.

[leiyourheadonmyshoulder]

it's high noon and I'm already tired as frick

[leiyourheadonmyshoulder]

How does one deal with dysphoria when their on their period?

#transmasc #transgender #ftm transman #ftm #dysphoria #dysphoric

[leiyourheadonmyshoulder]

since the old version of this post was flagged for 'adult content'...

reblog this post if your account is a trans safe space or owned by a trans person!

along with that, reblog if your account is a trans non-binary spectrum safe space or owned by someone on the trans enby spectrum!