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Happy Birthday

You will always be one of my favorite chapters in my life because of who you are—but no matter how many times I read it again, I can’t hope for a different ending

#kittyp99 #happy birthday #love #I hope that you’re happy and thriving #I’ve seen how you’ve bloomed and blossomed #but in the past I wasn’t strong enough for you #and it’s why I’m leaving everyone that I once considered a friend of mine to be yours #I hope that no matter where you are or what you’re doing that you’ll always be safe #I could never have any reservations about you #I wish that I could hear your voice again #will he? #like you do #sanctuary #afterthought #I’m so proud of you #I wish that I could tell you the truth not the one that was made to appease sean and the rest of the toxic friend group #picture frames by rei brown

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I’m sorry that I was weak; weaker than, and to keep, someone who loved me and found reason to forgive me for all my mistakes and accepted my flaws—especially when they hurt you the most

#kittyp99 #you grew tired of shattering every time you looked at me #you grew tired of justifying my actions and weaknesses #you grew tired of holding on and hoping that I’d realize my mistakes #I’m so sorry for all the pain I caused you #you can have everyone that considered me a friend #I purposely destroyed those friendships #they are your friends and your friends only #when I think of autumn I think of you #11/09/2020

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#kittyp99 #I’ll always miss you #will we meet again? #did we actually happen? #you’re the only person that I want #I’m sorry #that I was afraid and felt that I needed to hide the truth from you #I’m sorry that I messed up so horribly #I’m sorry for all the hurt I’ve brought you #heavy with hoping you love me too #you were never an emotional bandage to me #I didn’t reach out because I felt lonely

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I love you, Christina, but I’m letting go.

I’m so sorry that it took so long for me to realize that holding on like this was only hurting you more. It was wrong for me to reach out to you after the truth had been told to you, because it made you feel as if I only thought of you as an emotional bandage. I wish that I had realized this sooner.

I’ll always miss you…

#kittyp99 #like you do #I’ll always wish that things could be different or that we could somehow start over #if you come back… #I wish that I could see you smile again #i forgive the world because it has you #the summer we never had together

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I wish that we could start over…

#kittyp99 #I’m so sorry

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Isabel Allende, The House of the Spirits (translated by Magda Bogin)

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I wish that time would pass by quickly, so that I could be at a time where I could hear from you again...

#kittyp99 #i miss you #i’m sorry

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I miss you...

#kittyp99 #heavy with hoping #will I ever hear from you again?

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...and it’s why whenever I look at the moon, I can’t help but to think of you

#kittyp99 #i miss you #was I ever able to live inside your heart? #do you remember when we first met? I thought that I had wandered into a dream

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Happy birthday!! 🥳🎉

Thank you for being born, the world is a softer place with you in it!!

#kittyp99 #happy birthday #something that I wish I could say to you

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farewell~

#Can we really be strangers after all that has happened?

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Smile more ~ ☀️

#You and only you were the reason why I was smiling that night

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And for a moment, it felt like we were more than just friends.

#Will there ever be another us on this planet?

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Til we meet again...

#Will we ever meet again? #Was it fate again that brought us together on that day when you walked inside? #Was that truly my last chance to break from my anxiety and to tell you my true feelings and to more importantly acknowledge yours

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if i hadn’t said i love you then, would we be happy now?

#If I had said that I love you then would we be happy now?

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Memories

Was he real? Were we real? Did we actually happen?These photographs tell me we were but... its hard to believe it when you’re not here by my side...

#I’ve been asking myself that a lot recently #Everything still feels unreal #Were we even real?

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“I want to see you bloom and blossom,” he says

#I do still want to see you bloom and blossom