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[konstantya]

such a huge relief that hillary’s so ahead in the polls and trump has such a small chance of winning, right? WRONG. DO NOT GET APATHETIC OR COMFORTABLE. DO NOT DECIDE YOU DON’T NEED TO VOTE BECAUSE YOU’RE SURE HILLARY WILL WIN. the only way trump can win now is if so many people expected to vote for hillary don’t show up to the polls. because you BETTER believe ALL of his supporters will be at the polls.

brexit passed in the UK because young people grew apathetic because they were sure it wasn’t going to pass. and it did, because old racists and xenophobes showed up in DROVES to vote.

tl;dr: VOTE, PEOPLE. VOTE LIKE YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT. IT MIGHT.

#politics #this #i was so fucking pissed to learn that my BIL voted third party in 2016 because (in his own words) he ''was sure Hillary was going to win!'' #now granted he's a dipshit in a lot of ways and far from my favorite person in the world #but i still vividly remember the sheer blind rage i felt when i heard him say that and i don't think i'll ever forgive him for it tbh

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"Yeah, sorry, I moved and the item you bought got misplaced." Okay, but, like...you couldn't have told me that sooner??? You waited more than a week (and then waited until I initiated contact, asking about it) before you decided to drop that info??? WTF, guy?

#like i get it these things happen but also be fucking up-front about it ffs #super disappointed because not only was it a good deal but it was also LITERALLY THE ONLY COPY OF THIS BOOK ON THE ONLINE MARKET #like i can't just find another seller here #😤😤😤 #anyway i'll give him a day or so to issue a refund before i open up an ''item not received'' ticket #so frustrated #partly because i was REALLY looking forward to it (even though it was in totally dogshit condition pfft) #personal #the pulp saga continues

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Oh shit, check it out!

My (working) cover reveal (I may yet tweak the font sizes a little).

#the pulp saga continues #personal #release date up in the air #also that isn't my real name (in case you were wondering pfft)

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Whoops, made a font.

#only problem now is that i'm not actually sure it's the sort of style i want for this project? #ahahahahaha #anyway color me pleasantly surprised that my 14-year-old font-making software installed just fine #(granted the scaling is kind of weird but like i can deal) #personal

[konstantya]

making a collection

#shipping #this is #lore/ishara #in a nutshell along with why they appeal to me so much pfft

[konstantya]

Holy shit, holy shit, I WON! 😱

The thrill/anxiety of participating in an eBay auction was fun for, like, the first two times, but now I'm honestly so over it.

Stop beating so fast, heart! Stop getting excited! I don't like it! 😤

#was even a few dollars short of my max bid! #honestly can't believe it #UGH gotta calm down now pfft #personal #the pulp saga continues

[konstantya]

The thrill/anxiety of participating in an eBay auction was fun for, like, the first two times, but now I'm honestly so over it.

Stop beating so fast, heart! Stop getting excited! I don't like it! 😤

#less than two hours for this pulp magazine #trying not to get my hopes up #personal #the pulp saga continues #EDIT: AHAHAHAHA and i'm already almost outbid #god i just want this to be over

[konstantya]

Oh no, the villainous couple in this early romantic suspense novel is WAY hotter than the main, heroic couple. 👀

#romance novels #the pulp saga continues #? #(i mean technically it's a pulp? #a uk pulp from 1959 but still) #anyway yeah their vibe is way more complicated than that of the hero and heroine and y'all know i love a good complicated pairing so...

[konstantya]

i might have just done something great

#self-care david byrne might be my new favorite thing? #david byrne #talking heads #inspiration #❤️

[konstantya]

Oh, god, I'm finally going to get my hands on not just one, but two!—TWO Hortense McRaven stories! Because even if I lose this auction for the second issue, the seller very kindly agreed to take pictures of the story for me! ❤️

#again this is assuming they don't fuck up and miss pages like the other seller did pfft #but here's hoping #the other issue: i've been waiting more than a year for the price to come down to something reasonable and it finally did! #honestly feels a little surreal to finally be getting it after lusting after it for so long #was tempted to wait even longer but considering it only dropped $4 this past time #i really didn't want to wait two more months for probably only another measly $4 #i figure i've gotten enough discounts and deals on other items that i can afford to splurge a little for this #personal #the pulp saga continues

[konstantya]

Aww, fuck yeah, getting my virtual hands on another Hortense McRaven story, even if I can't get my physical hands on it. (⁠✿⁠☉‿☉⁠)

Never thought I'd get to the point where I'm lying about my genealogy in order to sound like less of a weirdo, but here we are. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

#assuming the seller doesn't fuck up and miss pages like that other one did back in the day ahahahahaha #but i got a hold of this one before the auction was over so here's hoping! #ideally i'd like to own it but there are currently six watchers so...things aren't looking good 😬 #but yeah the seller said they'd take pics of the story in the event i lose ❤️ #personal #the pulp saga continues

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Never thought I'd get to the point where I'm lying about my genealogy in order to sound like less of a weirdo, but here we are. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

#look i've said it before and i'll say it again: #doing genealogy research on someone you aren't actually related to just makes you feel a really big stalker? #(and like their ACTUAL living relations aren't putting in the work so why shouldn't i???) #but yeah it's a lot easier to just say ''hi i'm distantly related to this person and am trying to find out more info about them! 🙂'' #as opposed to ''hi i randomly stumbled across this person's totally forgotten work and fell in love/hyperfixation #and am DESPERATE to find out all i can please please take pity on me and help me out with this 😭'' #personal #the pulp saga continues

[konstantya]

This is something I'm seeing more and more on AO3 that I'd never seen when I first got into fandom stuff, so I wanted to find out how you all feel about it.

What are your thoughts about seeing posted fanfiction that isn't commissioned, where the creator says that they have never read/watched the source material? For example, someone putting out a fanfic for a show they've never watched that includes the tag Author Has Never Seen Suchandsuch.

#honestly i feel like i saw this all the time on ff.net back in the day #(okay so maybe not ALL the time but often enough that i remember it) #usually it was based on fanon and as a result would be prone to plain ooc-ness or else flanderization #like a copy of a copy where someone fell in love with this other author's fic but never actually read/saw the canon #so when they started writing their own their whole sense of these characters was based on popular fic portrayals and...yeah #and like do what you want; i'm not gonna tell you what you can and can't write #but also know that i am skipping your stuff #fanfiction #fandom #fandom woes

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Still can't get over this 1923 mystery story and the way it:

has a character named "Stoner" who is implied to use marijuana (lololol)

never even comes close to descending into Reefer Madness, despite this

could actually be inferred that the character in question uses it medicinally, as he's an older gent who's shown to be suffering from rheumatism

#he also receives a ruby as collateral for a loan so ''stoner'' has a double meaning here #but like ''stoned'' as a slang term for being drunk or high was definitely a thing at the time #so i do suspect it was deliberate on the author's part pfft #still it's really fascinating how casually it's mentioned and how it's very much Not A Plot Point in the story #the story (unrelated to the marijuana) also bucks some common racist stereotypes of the day which is pretty cool #the pulp saga continues

[konstantya]

March 11, 2024

April 5, 2063

#has this been done yet? #currymuttonpizza this is for you pfft #star trek #tng #star trek: first contact #politics

[konstantya]

you can recognize yourself through the fictional character. but watch out

#👀 #fandom woes #personal

[konstantya]

please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!

gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.

SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:

diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.

non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.

the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.

now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.

if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.

if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.

this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.

it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.

but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.

#literature #fanfiction #romance novels #? #honestly not sure how to tag this but i like it #also kind of related but i've known people who use the tag ''non-con'' to refer to non-consensual situations that are played for titillatio #and ''rape'' to refer to non-consensual situations that are played for drama/horror