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I do not know what is happening in the 911 fandom but do you need me to call 911 for y’all

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I stopped watching 911 towards the latter half of s6 but I might be jumping back in!! also hello tumblr it’s been uhhhh a long time 😅

#911 #911 abc

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THEY REALLY JUST DID THAT

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This is as complete as it will get, for now, no Ed tattoos, we die like Ned Low!

More art inspired by this post, now in motion and more horny dialogue 👀

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Potential 06x02 spoiler? Slightly suggestive content too

I know this season has ✨issues✨ but I still had a great time.

Had to get the Gentlebeard wormies out of my system before getting back to work 😭 I'm so soft

(Ed gets the twink treatment, sorry I don't make the rules)

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Let's go home, party guy 🥳🥳🥳

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Title ideas for this little comic were ‘stede loves his heavily tatted wife’ or just ‘the inn just becomes a tattoo studio in 1717 AU’ idk

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I've been thinking about this exchange between Izzy and Ed in "Discomfort in a Married State":

"For years I've followed your every whim, I've managed your increasingly erratic moods, I've massaged this crew when they were worried about your judgment—"

"Mm, sounds stressful, Izzy."

"It is."

Izzy has assigned himself the role of "managing" Blackbeard, but it's quite obvious, both in Ed's response and in the way he says it, that Ed has never wanted or expected him to. And he continues to try to manage Ed, even when Ed clearly tells him not to.

Both Ed and Stede have that word "whim" thrown at them by people who don't really understand them - Izzy and Mary - and both at first resist the word (Stede even says "I object to the word whim"), then internalize it. It seems what are being called whims by outsiders are actually expressions of deep desires that neither Ed nor Stede have the verbal or emotional language to describe.

It's not a whim that has Stede running off to a be a pirate - it's all the frustration and loneliness and repression - and it's not a whim to go back to Mary - it's a result of guilt and self-loathing. It's not a whim that has Ed following the Revenge to meet Stede - it's wanting to find someone who might be a kindred spirit. But neither of them can openly articulate those feelings, either to the people who are calling them whims or fully to themselves. Stede goes further than Ed does because so many of his desires are located in his repressed homosexuality, and once he's able to articulate that - with Mary's help - he understands his feelings. He still believes that he's "whim-prone" in other ways, but not when it comes to Ed.

Ed is especially leery about his own desires, which have been managed by other people for so long, and about Stede's. His idea to "run off to China" is a whim in a certain sense, but it's expressing a desire to leave behind their old identities and form something new together. His desire to "take it slow" is about his own healing independent of Stede, but it's also built on a fear that Stede is going to disappear again. After they have sex, Ed again falls into the fear that it was a whim, but it's not his whim - it's Stede's. He's scared that what meant so much to him doesn't mean as much to Stede, or not enough for Stede to be able to let go of piracy and fame. He's worried that piracy wasn't a whim, but he was.

Both of them have been managed most of their lives, in different ways and by people and structures that they never wanted to manage them in the first place. It was all about keeping them in settled, socially acceptable places where they can't escape, and casting doubt on the legitimacy of their desires. (I don't think Izzy, and certainly not Mary, consciously think of it in these terms, and Mary especially has had to subsume her own needs as much as Stede has.)

In the scene with Izzy, Ed's evidently pushing back at the management, and he probably has been for a while. But this is likely the first time where his desires are getting more articulated, after his conversation with Stede, and are the same moment when Izzy starts trying to exert even more control over him.

His finding the letter is a mirror to Stede's conversation with Mary - the realization of who he is and who the man he loves is, and that the feelings he's experienced not just for but from Stede are not whims but bone-deep love.

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“He’s so fragile” - man who made his break up the entire Caribbean’s problem

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he's literally all about loving and being loved

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I'm here. I'll never leave you. I'll never leave again.

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A few months after the S2 finale

Stede: (noticing Ed looking a little down) Something the matter?

Ed: (faux casual) I mean, it's nothing... not a big deal... just something I was thinking about.

Stede: (interrupting) It's a big deal to me.

Ed: (starting and stopping several times, blushing a little.) I mean... it's just... I must have fished out at least a dozen of your lovely letters and I was wondering... you know because they're really nice and all. No one's ever written me that kind of stuff before and... well, I mean, one of these days I'm gonna run out and I was thinking that that would be, well, sort of a shame...

Stede: (after pulling Ed into a kiss) I'm sure there's lots more you haven't found yet. In fact, if you were to go searching along the shoreline around, say, a prominent bit of rock or something tomorrow, you might happen across one. Maybe.

Ed: (perking up immediately, snuggling closer in bed) You think?

Stede: (already planning the next ridiculously sappy bit of poetry he's going to write for his Edward just as soon as he's asleep) I know.

Ed never does run out of those lovely little messages in a bottle and keeps every single one of them in a box beneath their bed to reread whenever Stede's been out for too long.

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There are so many ways to be moved by the written word.

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about zoomed in kisses and lil touches and lovely smiles #for love ✨💕

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imagine trying to make a complaint at ed and stede’s inn. like ‘oh you have a problem with the grumpy looking leather-clad co-owner who always has fish on the menu? yeah his innocent looking fop husband is actually insane and will kick you out if you so much as look at ed wrong so sit down and eat the damn fish’

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No because I’m GAGGED by Ed going on a full on massacre the moment he thinks Stede might genuinely be gone. Like. He just. started killing, it wasn’t simply injuring and maiming, dude broke necks

That man was on a mission to search for a potentially dead Stede through the whole Nassau and didnt even stop to think about what he was doing im like 80% sure he was actively trying not to think about how he possibly might have lost Stede for good and then the letter scene happens. That “you wrote me a lovely letter!” yell was half-terror, half-“you better be alive i swear to god”, like, he was about to cry for real

But still. I cant get over how he started killing. IT WAS A WHOLE RAMPAGE???? We didnt even get him hesitating and mulling over having to kill like Stede got to do in 2x06, Ed just immediately went im done playing. I cant even organize my thoughts properly to express how he probably couldnt have cared less about Any Of That when Stede could be dead

Man I need a moment to think about this

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well, here we are (ง ื▿ ื)ว

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