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this is just a rant account now lol my diary tbh

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #my cousin from india is living with us because ofc she is #and oh my god you guys she is absolutely insufferable like so insufferable shes every single trait that i cant stand in a person sorry if #rhis will get me cancelled i dont care #shes such a baby about everythibg you are a grown woman your frontal cortex is completely deceloped #3 years older than me and still shes about as mature as i was when i was 7 years old #she has a fever today #and oh my god #she is so fucking dramatic about it shes kn the verge of tears and my mom gave her medicine gave her easier to eat food she massaged her #head #so its not like we are beglectibg this 25 year old woman #but shes being such a baby about it like my mom was sitting in my room cuz my aunt is shopping for outfits so she was facetiming to get #me and my moms opinion #and my cousin knew this #and still she calls my mom like my head hurts so bad it hurts worse when i sleep #i said if it hurts we can go to the hospital she said no its just a headache but it hurtssssss #like girl shut the fuck up and go the fuck to sleep #this is not the headache olympics but i had a 3 day long headache and i didnt tell a single soul #my dad has had a chronic headache for 2 years now and he still gets up and goes to work everyday #its so fucking annoying shes a such a baby about literally everything i dont get it #one time i had excruciating stomach pain all night long and i couldnt sleep and im jjst not the type of person to take anythibg serious #so maybe thats my character flaw #but i just could not sleep at all this is when i was like grade 12 i rhink #my stomach hurt so bad and i only told my parents at 7 in the mornibg when i was sure i was gonna die #like i suffered through a whole night before i asked for help #so my parents actually took me seriously and took me to the hospital #but she gets sick every week even if she goes outside too fast like girl bye #its literally like the boy who cried wolf because now u say ur sick three times a week so nobody is gonna take u seriously #i hate needy people so much sorry if im the biggest bitch in the world u guys just dont know the lore of this like i do

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my mom just asked me to lend her 1000 dollars because her brother in India needs it but she doesn't wanna withdraw it from the bank because my dad will see and he'll get mad but tbh my moms brothers are literally deadbeats and my parents pay for their whole life and I hate that I'm giving my mom money and I have to hide it from my dad like that makes me feel so weird

#will delete as soon as im not mad about it #this is so icky to me also 1000 Canadian dollars is like 60k rupees what do you need all that money for I'm annoyed #and im going to work so im even more annoyed and then she just asked me for that so its even more annoying i woke up in a bad mood and im #gonna stay in a bad mood all day #they literally take advantage of my mom and now shes dragging me into it and she gives me the whole emotional blackmail speech like bye

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just dropped my grandparents off at the airport and even tho ive been driving for 6 years i will never ever get over how horrible it is to drive on the bridge i hate driving on the bridge so much

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #its not even like im scared of the bridge dropping or something like yes i think about that obvi but thats not my main concern #i just think people drive way too aggressively considering the fact we are literally suspended over the water in the air held together by #concrete and prayers #please guys can we chill a little thanks so much

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CHRIS EVANS as Andy Barber in DEFENDING JACOB (2020)

#why did the jaw clench do something to me #andy barber

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me when i start working again and immediately have a shopping addiction AGAIN

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #i spent like 100 bucks at the mall yesterday 70 of it was birthday cash but still #and just spent another 50 online like girl get a grip omg #and i got coffee this morning pleaseeee someone take my card away from me #i was doing so good when i was unemployed i didnt touch a dollar out of my account but the second that cheque hit #all of a sudden im spending like im a billionaire i need help my dad would be so mad if he saw my bank statement 😭😭😭

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waking up at 3:30am tomorrow for a flight to a place i dont even wanna go😞😞😞

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #all day tomorrow spent travelling just to get to america #how is it that i can drive 40 minutes and cross the american border but just to get to the east coast #all of a sudden its a 7 hour flight and a 3 hour time difference #12 hour travel day literallyyyy k word me nowwwww #i dont even wanna go ughhhh

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bucky barnes the man that you are

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #a man that i need inside of me thanks #my man #my mannnn

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about to walk into work and for some reason i am shitting my pants

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #i am so nervous i need to breathe

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first day of new job tomorrow and i should be more nervous but im really not

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #i didnt rven have. aproper interview it was genuinely just a convo and like a week later she called me and she said im okay with hiring you #like #okay girl im okay with being hired tf😂😂🤣🤣🤣 #too busy being sick to my stomach about other things🤣🤣🤣

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seeing my baby brother turn into every other violent misogynistic man is genuinely breaking my heart i tried so hard to instill empathy and kindness into him but he is just a man

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #he punched me twice in the stomach and not even in a playful fighting way like in a way to genuinely hurt me #and he always says things that he knows are low blows when we’re fighting and #to watcg my mom defend him and my dad stay quiet is just so #like he is just a man #he used to be my baby brother and i raised him and i drove him to school and got him lunch and picked him up and carried him around and #played with him #and now he uses his man strength against me i am actually sobbing in my room this is so heartbreaking

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currently thirst watching the falcon and the winter soldier because bucky barnes is the newfound love of my life

#jas’ jazz 🕺

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HENRY CAVILL as AUGUST WALKER Mission: Impossible - Fallout (2018) | dir. Christopher McQuarrie

#my man

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me sobbing

#my indian dad who shows no vulnerability telling me to drive carefully and who teared up when he hugged me and kissed my forehead at the #airport #oh my god im sick to my stomach i havent stopped sobbing literally what is wrong with me why is he so nice to me all of a sudden #me saying bye😊😂🙏 as if my screen isnt covered in tears omg how will i ever get married and move out

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my dads going to india tomorrow for a few weeks so hes gonna miss my bday and christmas and new years and stuff and im not a baby but idk im only sad because i genuinely love india so much like the way i feel about india is the way all those poets feel about their homeland except i was born in canada😭 like as soon as i get off the plane at the delhi airport and just that smell i swear nothing makes me feel more grounded (its the smell of extreme pollution) nothing connects me to my motherland more and im just ranting but im lowk jealous that hes gonna be there and we’re just gonna be in snowy rainy gloomy canada😞

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #i love india #sometimes i feel like sachi mitti vaaja mardi aa #literally translating to the dirt is calling me but fr indias dirt is calling me i cant lie i love it there i get so emotional thinking #about it #ughh have to wake up at 5 tomorrow morning and if i start crying ill kms cuz my parents will never let me live it down

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my friend insists on being the one to drive every time we go somewhere and it is genuinely a risk to my life every single time shes gotten into SIX car accidents (5 of which were undoubtedly her fault) and she cant park for shit and im not saying im a nascar perfect amazing driver but ive never gotten into an accident where i was the one driving

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #she scares me #and gets genuinely offended if i say i can drive us #GIRL IM SCARED

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kalank back on spotify i am healed

#jas’ jazz 🕺 #who was i without kalank title track in my life #i just felt such a surge of happiness i havent felt this in months omg this is what revives me fr

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