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noah's fence but it really is shitty to have outsiders dictate control demand command and order waht MY supposed "empowerment" should be. like IM not allowed to choose or have the freedom to decide or even to have the right to go through with the one i decide. nope! i dont get that. even thoiugh thats what empowerment is to its core. no, i just get told "do this. do this thing. this is what you get to do. this isnt even a take it or leave it, this is a take it. this is how you will be empowered, this is what you will do. nothing else. you will only do as we say you are to do. you like drawing? ok, thats it then, thats all you'll get. use art to empower yourself. dont you dare even think for a second you get actual freedom and empowerment, we are just offering you an illusion of such. youre still very very very very much controlled and held back and commanded and dictated. but we just want you to THINK youre empowered. thats all that matters. we distinctly want to prevent your empowerment, so to do that, we just want to make you think youve achieved it when you havent." uuuuuuuugh -maxx

#i am not empowered by drawing. violence is what i seek. gore and viscera and corpses. #''you dont get that uwu just draw or something'' uuuugh ill kill you #maxx tag

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its a burden having opinions that nobody else on this planet has and im the only brave warrior fighting for the cause and its sucks and its hopeless and its lonely. but at least im god's bravest coolest specialest little warrior and at least im the main character gifted with such a unique uphill battle. (gripping a stress ball so hard it bursts and my grin looks like im trying to look fine but im holding back frm murder by only 0.01%) -maxx

#what aspd/npd and being an anarchist with weird takes does to a motherfucker #maxx tag

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i'm curious what the opinion of my followers and my followers' followers etc. are, so feel free to rb

#i mean i like it but the mid 2000s computer nostalgia doesnt lie in frutiger aero for me. it lies in MYSPACE EMO #so. im not nostalgic for frutiger aero but i do deeeply know of it due to being in that era #i dont yearn for the dentist offices with the fish in it or the #crisp grassy field with the bubbles in the sky showing a clean and optimized hopeful future #or a fish light machine that spins the design around the box #no... i yearn for the CONGRATULATIONS. YOUVE WON!!!!! #the [WAKA LAKA CARAMELLDANSEN AND IM NOT OK BY MCR BLARING ON MY MYSPACE AUTOPLAY] #the BLINGEE ANIME EMO GIRL GLITTER GRAPHICS #so. i do not yearn for the frutiger aero but i know deeply what it is and i do respect it. its just not my type of nostalgia #polls

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#scemo #people #fashion #adelmarcore #xanthecore

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I might just be extremely in my thirties now but I simply cannot take any sort of fandom discourse anymore. I barely could before but I am at maximum capacity. just... just watch the thing and enjoy it or whatever, be nice to each other, isn't life hard enough

#im fucking exhausteddd ive got my homicidal ideations to worry about. online arguements are useless and stupid and i am demeaning abt it

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#me :) #me rn #me #monster energy #scemo #2000score #adelmarcore

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#scenery #green #paths #trees #sky #rainbow #rainbows #saykocore

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#people #scemo #black and pink #black and white

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Business Names in the 1800s: Primary Flour, Just Cement, Worldwide Copper, The Only Gasoline You Should Be Allowed To Buy

Business Names in the 1900s: Axiom, Artemis Manufacturing, Pinnacle Hygienics, Olympian Glue, Divine Yogurt, The Coolest Car Manufacturer With The Largest Hog In Town

Business Names in the 2000s: Gubi, Turna, Clooper, Jumbli, Dongr, Shnet, Pungu, Pooble, Weeeu

#history

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hash tag NOT the societally ~useable~ trauma survivor who pushes forward the normie brainwashed propaganda that they use to excuse the existance of prison and rules and laws. and damn proud that im not -maxx

#maxx tag

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people act all weird and funny when i say "i would rather endure my entire abuse all over again a second time if it meant by the end i unlocked the ability to get to do my own violence without punishment, its literally a worse hell to not get to do violence than it is to endure all that abuse, its more traumatizing to be told i cant do what i want than to have [cult/csa/physical/sexual/emotional/mental abuse] happen to me. literally all of that latter deeply pales in comparison in pain level than just being not allowed to be violent." like... people do not like it when i say that!.... even though its my god damn truth!!.... they act like theyre just angry and upset a trauma survivor's relationship to their trauma isnt """correct""" and therye mad that they cant tell me im not allowed to do violence cuz ive had it happen to me and very clearly it only cemented it in to my brain that violence is not even that bad to go through and everyone else makes too big a deal out of it lol -maxx

#people's faces they make irl when i say this... its sooooo funny. they look so funny and weird. its funny lol #maxx tag #abuse/ #abuse

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cluster b culture is having pretty much all the local therapists too scared to deal with anyone who has your diagnosis, like sorry i need more than just being put on ssris and told im a good person, but you went to school to be a professional and cant spend an hour with me? thats cute. i live with this shit every day with none of the knowledge or medication to help me out

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#REAL. #I DONT EVEN GET THE MEDS THEYRE JUST LIKE UM?? NO I REFUSE TO EVEN TREAT YOU AT ALL #aspd #npd

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#NSFW/ #ME #REAL.

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Hello hello I have joined forces with some other artists to help out a family in Gaza! Please share this and if you can, donate and/or commision us! :)

Server link:

GoFundMe link:

#i dont use discord but would like to participate... how can i do so? (buy the commissions - not offer them) #world events

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it’s okay to need space. it’s also okay for the other person to need the opposite. both are valid needs.

#recovery

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the Enablerrrrrrrrrrrrrr and his son who can do no wrong ^_^... -maxx

#self reblog/ #queue

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happy fnaftober ! 🧟‍♂️🕸️🎃

#fnaf #queue