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coming out

so many poems, so many stories, so many minutes wasted looking it up on YouTube, so many dreams and nightmares, infinite prayers and lots of imagination all coming down to this. My body was shaking, the temperature went from cold to hot in a matter of seconds, I started sweating, my eyes where looking for the right words, my hands were reaching for support, my heart was raising and my world was coming to an end, I stopped thinking and opened my mouth. 

“I like boys” 

I wanted to die, I wanted to puke. Tears came falling from my eyes. I truly asked god to take me now. 

“Okay” 

I suddenly felt a little more life in me. 

“I mean, I like boys and girls. I’m bisexual” 

Shit did I really just said that out loud? 

“Okay, you will always be my best friend no matter who you like” 

I smiled, whipped my tears and thanked god for letting me live thru it. I came out to my best friend last week. It was the most awful yet the most exciting moment. I never thought in a million years I would do something like this, yet it happened. 

Stay positive, stay dreaming, stay hoping. Life will find a way. 

Love always 

Innntheclosettt

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the dash

the dates shown on a persons grave, represents the day they where born and the time they passed, and separating those two dates lies a dash. That dash symbolizes every moment that occurred in their lifetime, every first, every birthday, every holiday, every love, every laugh, every single moment. Everything they have achieved or lost is being represented by a single dash. That dash represents everything in between the beginning and the end. 

When I think about my dash, I can only think about the times I’ve liked a boy and was too scared to tell them, the times I’ve wanted to suck a dick but been to a shame to admit it or the times I’ve wanted to look at a boy and tell them how beautiful they are but never really been able to. I wonder how that dash will represent all those moments I’ve lost because I was too afraid to act and accept who I truly am. 

What will your dash hold? 

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“it’s okay if I never come out right?” I asked

he smiled and gave me the most amazing kiss

I never saw him again.

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© Letters From Alex / Instagram

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I missed you, not our valentines

I don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day, my parents from a young age taught me that love should be alive and present every day in the smallest of gestures. A morning text, a cup of coffee, breakfast in bed, a kiss in the forehead, holding hands, love doesn’t have to be big in order to be real. That being said, yesterday was my first Valentine’s alone in 6 years. I was lying if I said I didn’t missed our fights leading up to this day because Valentine’s was your favorite holiday, I missed you planning this day like your life depended on it, I missed our unnatural sex, I guess I missed you. 

So no, I don’t celebrate Valentine’s, I think it’s a waste of time and energy, but Valentine’s will always remind me of you. I never understood why you worked so hard to make this day perfect, I guess I wasn’t perfect to you the other 364 days, and truth be told there was never love between us, I guess you where the excuse I told myself at night in order to shut the voices that told me I liked guys, maybe I did like you but I was not in the right mental space to show it. 

Happy (late) Valentine’s to those who celebrate it, may you understand that love is the force that moves us and the force that keeps the world moving and should be celebrated every day, not just one day. 

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Liking men is a curse in disguise,

Fuck men.

but shit, they are good lovers.

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I told my friend about you,

about our date, about our passionate sex,

how I can’t stop thinking about you.

but I lied,

I told her you were a she instead of a he

I’m sorry I’m just not ready yet

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Craving a boy but limiting myself to girls is my favorite type of self-harm.

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sometimes sleeping is hard,

the night is quiet, and the thoughts

of coming out are too loud.

and I’m marked down by my own

discombobulated and broken words

that i use to keep a dead narrative

alive

my life is one false

lie after another, a poetic mess

of twisted fabricated moments

that I use to try and make sense of my

broken, useless wasted emotions

so yes, sometimes sleeping is hard

because the night is too quiet

and the mask is off

and all the shame and the pain of my twisted

life is out in the open and I

haven’t found a way to hide it yet

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Do not let my words fail you— I am far more of a pessimist than an optimist, yet I still hope.

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and at the end of the day you a weirdo, but you my weirdo. 

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forbidden fairytale

sometimes I wonder if I

let younger me down, the 

younger me that believed in love

like it was the only way to

happiness, and the younger me

who believed in a happily ever after,

but younger me was never 

ready for life to come along 

and leave only ripped pages 

and broken melodies in a world

that refused to accept the bits 

and pieces that it’d never understand.

and sometimes I really hate younger me,

the younger me that was so innocent

and optimistic about the future 

who had a startling faith in

the fairytale story books, but always

seemed to forget, that not all 

fairytales got a happily ever after.

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I’ve always thought of myself as an Oxymoron, I’m a bisexual men, who enjoys the company of both men and women.

-innntheclosettt

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