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I am in love with Clara 😭

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when I lost weight via calorie deficit, i.e. eating less, doing cardio, I lost about 60 pounds and was still 'overweight' , but while losing and maintaining that weight, I was lightheaded ,manic and had frequent mood swings, it was the worst place I had ever been mentally. I started eating regularly again and I felt better, because being fat and healthy is better than being skinnier and feeling like shit.

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you’re outside, the moon has just fully eclipsed the sun, and you hear me yell in anguish. you look over and watch, horrified, as the sleeves on my “sun’s out, guns out” shirt start to rematerialize

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#I chose pb&j but badger mushroom is equally stuck in here

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i need people do do me a favor and be absolutely normal about it

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jesse don't touch that that's the growth potion i've been synthesi-no jesse DON'T

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Apparently there was some kind of race scheduled at a local park or something so I've been trying to avoid the main trail but a little while ago when I had to cross near it I overheard the following shouted exchange

Higher feminine voice: woo, look at you go! You're jogging! Keep it up!

Lower masculine voice (panting): you know it! Last place is still a place, baby!

And goddamn if that didn't rewire my brain a little bit.

Last place is still a place, baby.

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Original illustration.

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God I love when advertising copywriters lose the plot. It's beautiful.

(Reminder: Provincial/regional law and municipal bylaws are ALSO in effect! Do your due diligence and file for any appropriate building permits before vandalizing your neighbours' houses!)

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be honest with me now, pard

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Bothering the beast

#me @ my brother 🤣🤣

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Schrift-Proben von Schriftgiesserei - Benjamin Krebs - via Paris bibliotheques

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There's this perception on here among neurodivergent people that neurotypical social behaviour is all fake and arbitrary. That it's a cruel, baseless game played to "weed out" ND people or to cause pain and complicate things on purpose.

This is wrong. All of those social rules and nuances ARE communication. Sorry if this is rude but it's not the NTs' fault if things don't gel- the gap goes both ways. Just because communication doesn't make sense to you, doesn't mean it's random or purposeless. Remember this post?

Every interaction in an NT conversation has purpose, and communicates something, and I don't understand why nobody ever explains this to ND people. There's information on basic stuff like facial expressions, but never what any of it actually means.

Small talk about the weather isn't about the weather. It's about how nice it is to be around the people you're talking to, or feeling out their understanding of the world, or just saying that you're both present and people and you're being people together. It's not literal. The words are, but the broad scope isn't.

A conversation is not just an exchange of words, it's an exchange of acknowledgement, attention, and emotional understanding. Of course it confuses people when their part in that exchange is met with flat affect or unembelished words. It's like looking in a mirror and not seeing your reflection.

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petition to bring back saying "huzzah!" when something goes your way and "alas." when it doesn't

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Asking yourself “would someone who loves and care about me do that to me” and being very honest with yourself will save you from going back into the wrong hands.

#also ‘would i ever do this to someone i loved’