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imalmost30 9 months
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My god, I have to admit, living with my gfs parents has been difficult but such a difficult situation. I've had so much going on, surgery, inbetween jobs due to no fault of my own, mental health and I can imagine it's been hard having me around too. But.. There's just things they do that bother me.
1. If I'm not in the bedroom, either of them will find an excuse to be in the same room as me to see what I'm up to.
2. They move things, I have ADHD and they're well aware of it.
3. Her dad turned my computer off by the wall while I was waiting for it to render a video. He didn't even ask.
4. Her mum loves to have my gfs attention all of the time, even when she's working from home. She'll find a reason to go into the room, talk to her while she's trying to work and sometimes leaves the room without carrying out the reason she went in.
5. Her dad comments on everything, I mean, everything. "ah, getting the old hands wet." when doing dishes, "that'll be for breakfast." when I have leftovers on my plate, honestly the list goes on though.
6. Her mum talks to me through my gf, I'll literally be in the room like "does imalmost30 like ham?". she'll say she doesn't know forcing her mum to ask me directly, but still.
7. They pay for alot. And this one is about me, I've been struggling a while and they've helped out so much. But it's to the point where they know it and make passive aggressive comments. I've got a good job now and soon I'll be able to start paying them back. I just wish I could do it feeling good about it rather than resenting myself more for having to need the help in the first place.
Anyway, it'll be all good soon, hopefully I can redeem myself and this'll all just be something of the past. But, it has been fooking hard.
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imalmost30 3 years
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Okay, so I usually post in here giving a short or brief discription of what I'm doing because I thought nobody wants to read about my story..? But then I've realised if I don't tell you then nobody will at all so why not?
I'm Eamonn 馃憢 and when I was 11 I fell and cut my left knee, a tiny scratch, nothing dramatic that you'd rush to the hospital for. Nope, just a little scratch that got cleaned and a plaster put on.
4 weeks later I'm seeing things, high temperature, I have black spots appearing on my skin and just couldn't stand on my left leg.
Doctors were able to work quick enough to discover I was infected with osteomyelitis in my femur bone and some of this infection had also managed to get into my blood. That was the reason for the high temperature, pain and hallucinations.
Next was a series of 30+ operations to drain the bone of infection. Always being the last into the operating room due to risk of infection, I fasted for a long 16 hours each time. In between operations I was in a private room on Knox Ward, Royal children's hospital.
The nurses were amazing, always checking in, chatting, showing me card tricks but they couldn't entertain me all day to keep me distracted but I probably abused that call nurse button anyway... Lol
So I've decided to try to give back as much as I can. I've started and contributed towards my fundraiser named Hospital Gamers and what I'm doing is raising money to purchase Nintendo switch lite consoles and donate them to children's wards. I wish this was an option when I was in hospital, would helped me so much.
We have just secured a Nintendo Switch Lite for the Knox ward which is a great achievement. N ext I'm asking for suggestions on which childrens wards to donate to? Has anyone experienced being on a children's ward or does anyone work on one. Of course, donations to make that happen would be greatly appreciated 馃檹 thank you for reading this far 馃
https://gofund.me/3918fb6a
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imalmost30 3 years
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Things I have managed to achieve over the past month (that I never dreamed I could). In order of old to new:
- Started a gofundme page (I knew what I wanted to do but no name) and called it Hospital Gamers
- Grew confidence. People are seeming to connect to my story and they're believing in something I've always thought nobody would
- Started liking the name and kept it
-Got a logo made from a legend in a game related Facebook group
- In the first two weeks, we had raised enough money to donate a Nintendo Switch to a children's ward
- I held the first fundraiser even and raised 拢40!!! Buzzing!! It was a live Simpsons quiz on Facebook
- Grew more confidence (if you knew me you'd know I had none before, what others were seeing was a defence mechanism). It's not just my story people are connecting with, I'm connecting to the stories of the hospiteers too.
- Happy with myself. I'm happy for once, I'm happy I can help. I'm happy when I think about the smile on a kids face when the nurse turns up with a Nintendo switch saying, "It's your turn now, what games would you like?". I'm happy that after everything I've gone through with my left leg, I've managed to turn it around and give back.
- A website and OMG, it's well good. HospitalGamers.org if you don't believe me.
- Another Switch. Yes! Another Switch has been ordered and on it's way to Belfast's Musgrave Park Children鈥檚 Ward! 馃檹
What a month its been, hopefully another good month ahead 馃槉
(I already know it's going to be, I had a call yesterday to arrange for my leg frame coming off on Friday 馃コ馃コ)
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imalmost30 3 years
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I've started a fundraiser and you know what? I'm just not going to stop. I'll see how far I can take this 鉂わ笍
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imalmost30 3 years
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I procrastinate everything. I wanted to go to bed 4 hours ago but for some reason I haven't.
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imalmost30 3 years
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So, I started a fundraiser and got enough funds to donate a gaming console to a children's ward. Well happy about that! I feel a sense of achievement that I don't usually have from my every day jobs. I was doing it to give back, it was supposed to be selfless but I guess it's now selfish because it's all I want to do now because it makes me happy.
That's all I've ever wanted to be is someone that can make others happy but not be a walking door matt. I guess it's best to help those that need it than to help those that want it.
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imalmost30 3 years
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I'm worried that the job I keep telling myself I want isn't really the job for me. I've been told I'm good a tech my whole life and been told its what I should be doing?
Is it though?
I've started my own project recently and it's going well but there is no money to be made in doing it, it's more of a giving back. I feel like I'm good at it though because it gives me creative things to do and it's up to me to come up with ideas.
I don't know, I feel like I should already be in the job I'm supposed to be and if I back out of this career change that I'm in the middle off, I think I'll disappoint the people around me.
Tough one.
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imalmost30 3 years
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I needed somewhere empty to post, this will do. My own secret. I can finally speak, say what I want and not care about the consequences. I don't mean negative opinions, the opposite really. I feel like when I post positive things online, people seem to think I'm bragging, but I'm not, I'm just documenting my life in a different view as to how you're seeing yours.
I guess that's how you know who the people that truly want better for you are.
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