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idreamm · 2 years

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I had some leftover heartache marinating in the fridge

Drowning in lemon water tears

Seasoned perfectly with an array of sleepless night spices and anxiety glazed sauces

Hopefully I gave the flavor of depression time to sink in

I can only imagine how well it will taste when I finally get the strength to cook it

Maybe then once that all soaks off, contentment will remain

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idreamm · 3 years

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Smiling outside

Screaming inside

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idreamm · 3 years

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A Letter From The Avid Overthinker With Crippling Anxiety and Mild Depression

Please don't take my thoughts as rude or disrespectful. I'm just simply being attacked by my own mind. It turns on me sometimes, even without me knowing. It can be kind too. Its more of a love hate relationship. Sometimes it brings me feelings of warmth and comfort. Other times it brings me feelings of anxiety and distress. And when I get that way, I have to release.

I'm not trying to be annoying. I'm not trying to dump my emotional baggage on anyone. I'm not trying to make anyone uncomfortable. I guess you all are perfect. You don't deal with anxiety and cold sweats in the middle of the night over something you said or did 10 years ago. You don't beg God for forgiveness for something that wasnt your intention but your mind is telling you that that person is holding you responsible for it. You don't feel a gut wrenching overwhelming waterfall of guilt and regret choke the life out of you over the things you cannot change or undo. Because your perfect. Your not constantly blaming yourself, beating yourself up, putting yourself down, drowning in your thoughts. Your perfect.

Your fortunate to have a sound mind that works great and is in good condition all the time. I wish I knew how that felt. To be happy and at peace. And the catch is is that even when you are at peace, its obviously a lie so your mind digs deep into the archives of your memories, dredging up a collage of terrible things to emotionally and mentally torment you with until your spirit is laying rigid in a corner, shaking in the fetal position. Ever felt like you were turning against yourself? No? Oh I forgot, you're perfect.

And let's not forget the scenarios that we come up with. Those little movies that we create in our head that send us spiraling into uncalled for sadness and anger. And yet they comfort us because we control them.

Needless to say, the next time you decide to get mad at the friend who is an over thinker with crippling anxiety and mild depression, remember that their mind isn't always their best friend all the time. And won't let them be happy.

#poets on mental health #mental heath support #mentalstrength #mental health #mentalheathawareness #mental instability #anxious #living with anxiety #sorry for being depressing #raw thoughts #anxious thoughts #thoughts #bad memories

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idreamm · 3 years

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Birthday Nails 💅

#30 flirty and thriving #30th birthday #birthday week #birthday girl #birthday #birthday love #girls weekend #girls night out

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idreamm · 3 years

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Mothers...

Normalize encouraging your daughters to leave abusive and unhealthy situations

Normalize encouraging them to confront disrespect and to walk away if things don't change

Normalize instilling self love and self confidence into them when their little and how to give it to others when they lack it

Normalize encouraging your daughters to see red flags as warnings and not red roses

Normalize believing your daughter when she tells you she is in danger

Normalize standing up for your daughter when it seems like the whole world is against her

Normalize healing from your childhood so that your daughter doesn't have to heal from you

Normalize becoming everything she needs even though you never had that

Normalize redefining what a mother should be so that generational curses stop and end with you

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idreamm · 3 years

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To the daughter I may never have, this is for you...

When you were born, the moon and the stars rejoiced with me

When you let out your first cry and everything made sense

When you fell down and scraped your knee, I promised to always protect you

Because its my job to guide you

And that I will do

Daughter, you are special and you are greatly loved

You were conceived in an abundance of joy and unspeakable happiness

I'd be foolish to not treat you like you are royalty

Though one day my words may fall on deaf ears when your high off teenage hormones and adolescent emotions

Please know that you are worth far more than all the gold that is hidden in the earth

You shine brighter than ten thousand suns

And your value is higher than the most expensive diamond

My child, my dear, my seed

You are me

And you are fearfully and wonderfully made

Designed by the Creator who saw fit to plant you on His green Earth

My sun, my moon, and my stars

Please know that no matter where life takes you

Your foot prints back to me will never fade away

Because as long as the sky reaches and as deep as the ocean goes

I will love you just the same

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idreamm · 3 years

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Demon Slayer: Zenitsu 🖤💛 My favorite! 😍😍

#kimetsu anime #kimetsu zenitsu #kimetsu fanart #kimetsu manga #kimetsu icons #kimetsu no yaiba #anime wallpaper #anime aesthetic #anime / manga #anime love #anime lover #anime art

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idreamm · 3 years

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Sakura🖤❤

#anime / manga #anime aesthetic #anime wallpaper #fate stay series #fate stay night #heavens feel #anime love #anime lover #art #tumblr art #artists on tumblr #cosplay girls #cosplay #otakon

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idreamm · 3 years

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Tired of feeling like I am always hitting a brick wall in life. I just want to feel free.

#unhappiness #frustrated #poems and quotes #quotes #tumblr art #poem #poetry #poetic

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idreamm · 3 years

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Tired of feeling like I'm not doing enough

#frustrated #not happy #unhappiness #mental health #tired of being tired #trapped #guilt tripping #i feel so guilty #i feel numb #living with anxiety #living with depression #living with a narcissist

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idreamm · 3 years

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Maturing means accepting the negative chapters in your book but never revisiting them again.

#art #artists on tumblr #tumblr art #women poets #poetry corner #short poems #poems and quotes #quotes on tumblr #friendship quotes

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idreamm · 3 years

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I can't control how people act. But I can control if I want to deal with them or not.

#peace of mind #forgive and forget #forgiveness #healing process #self healing #healing #mental health

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idreamm · 3 years

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Pain is an addiction

Its the forbidden fruit you know you should avoid

All the while being the nectar you cant resist

Its the frenemy that won't leave you alone

But the chaos you desire to remind yourself that your still here

Pain is my drug

Pain is my obsession

Pain has been the hand I was dealt when I didn't ask for it

And now pain has become my morning cup of coffee

#short poems #short poetry #love poems #poetic #poem #poemas #poetry #original poem #poetry corner #women poets #poetsandwriters #writers and poets #poetas en tumblr #lovely writer #women writers #free write #my wrtiting #writer #writeaway

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idreamm · 3 years

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I give up on me

Not physically but emotionally

Maybe mentally too

I give up trying

I give up fighting

Every ounce of life in me is dedicated to thinking about you

I am falling apart

I'm not doing well

But even still I choose you

Foolishly

Stupidly

Dumbfoundedly

Blindly

And in love I am

With you and all your broken pieces

Just so that I don't have to face myself

And that's the truth

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idreamm · 3 years

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Dear pain

We meet again

And this time you have brought all the love letters I have written to you

Words penned in crimson

But you still laugh when you read them

You have crept under my skin like a pet peeve

And nested a home inside of my mind

Now I'm too frail to see beyond your shadows, too weak to fight back

Every time you come around you speak gentle nothings to me

Your voice is like wind chimes but you handle my heart like rags

And I follow the foot prints in the sand after you walk away

Because I know somehow, someway...

We will meet again

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idreamm · 3 years

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Jokes on you

Ive already rehearsed the pain in my mind

So when the blow comes

It will simply bounce off of me like rubber

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idreamm · 3 years

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You can't permanently break someone who uses the experience to become better.

#inspiration #poems and quotes #quotes on tumblr #self healing #healing process #stay determined #survival #survivor #poetic #lovely writer #women writers #free write #writing #writers on tumblr

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