I don’t know if you find it triggering, but someone might, I just wanted to preface it before you came on my blog.
You’re beautiful. I sorry that you are here and at this point in your life, but don’t forget that you are strong and beautiful, I don’t care if you’re male or female, but I love you and my messages are always open if you want to talk about anything.
Please be kind to yourself and others and stay strong ❤️❤️
Y’all ever need a good cry. Like, sit in the corner of your room, rock back and forth and want help for your ED, meaning that that means recover centers and in patient and treatment, but can’t get the words out because you know that people are counting on you and you don’t want to let them down?
I had fried chicken last night and it was after my appetite suppressant taking period, it was also at like 1 am so I was hella tired so I didn’t do the do, ya know, and now I fucking hate myself and I wanna die
Something I have learned is that it doesn’t matter if you ate something and you didn’t purge for one day. If you feel fine after eating for a day and don’t feel the need to purge, it doesn’t mean that you don’t have a problem. Every time I tell my self that I’ve relapsed and that I hate myself because I hadn’t purged in like 5-7 day and then I do, I don’t have to hate myself even more. If you have a problem, you have a problem. If you want help, you want help. Don’t let other people tell you that you don’t need to get help or let other people tell you that you’re a “poser” because you didn’t purge for a day. It’s progress because you’re finding foods that you feel ok with eating. It’s strong to figure out with what you feel fine with eating.
Don’t let anyone diminish how you feel and your problems because they don’t match exactly what they think someone with anorexia looks like, or you don’t look like how they think someone that’s bulimic looks like. You are valid and your problems are valid. You’re ok and you will get through this ❤️
If I won the lottery, or just like, $100,000, I’d put like half of that towards a house for my parents, I’m not a fucking monster, obviously. I’d use the other half to get plastic surgery.
I’m talking lipo. I’m taking a stomach band, I’m taking a tummy tuck, I’m taking breast augmentation￼.
Dental work. Get my teeth fixed and whitened. They say that if you show 8-10 teeth when you smile, you’re attractive, so bitch you best believe.
New clothes. New lingerie. New fucking everything.
Basically a makeover to the gods. Make all the guys that I was involved with, and even the ones that rejected me, ￼regret every decision they ever made.
I want to be that bitch.
I know that I could do this with diet and exercise. If I saved my money. I’ve tried it before, and I’ve tried again, and again, and I just can’t get it to stick. So, I feel like this would inevitably be my last choice. I’m getting there folks. Honest to god, I’m getting there. ￼