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Backwards Poem

Let me tell you the version of the story where you fall in love with me.

Pick up the words like broken glass - jam them back into my throat

Play it backwards in your head - I leave the secret spot before I find you

Walk back to the classroom alone, set my books on the desk

This time the gun is pointed at your feet.

Hand me your kidney - it turns into a leaf

Back away from the tree, away from the rocks

Go home and this time and it didn’t happen yet

I’m still choking on the words and you still love me

In all my versions you still love me.

Play the song over and over again as you walk backwards into a room

You sit down and you see a girl and this time

You love me first

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name

- how lovely it is, I think, to have something that belongs both to us, and to everyone that came before.

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love is lodged in my jaw

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hey. so. here is my spotify. i have some cool playlists, if you wanna check them out.

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Litany

It is Friday night and the missing you is drilling a hole through my forehead.

I suppose it's better than a gun but it's also worse than a gun because

this pain is making a home of my body.

* * *

It is 10:16 AM and I've been up for five hours but I'm proud to say

I've consumed zero calories - that's right, none.

Aren't you proud of me, mom?

* * *

It is half-past four and the sun is warming my skin like fingertips but I won't

think of you, because I am not a portrait of my failed relationships.

Lord knows I hide my mistakes well.

* * *

It is almost midnight and I know that in just ten minutes it will be morning but

the night has never felt darker and the silence

darling

I swear

this silence knows my secrets.

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tell me about skin - yours

tell me about the calluses

on your fingertips

tell me about the secret spots below your jaw

above your hips

in the hollow of your throat

tell me about the way your body holds sin

tell me how you ache

* * *

tell me about desire - mine

tell me about the blade

between my shoulders

and the blood in my mouth

tell me about the minefield in my chest

and the burning in my throat

tell me how you want me

tell me how i ache

* * *

tell me about becoming - ours

tell me about the heavenly hurt in your bones

in your teeth

tell me about the fire in my blood

in my hands

between your lips

tell me about ruin

now tell me about rebirth

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fragment

his mouth tastes of gasoline and too late you will remember

that you were never anything but the spark

and when your lips hit his and the space between your bodies ignites

you run

you run and you never stop

you run as the world burns to ashes

you run until every fire you set

has extinguished every man

who took something from a woman without asking

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thinking deep thoughts about the similarities between tartarus and tartar sauce

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I guess what I'm trying to say is that when the earth rolls over and a wound opens above her ribcage, I hope you and I end up on the same side.

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gahhhhhhh

Updates on what's going on in Palestine:

Date of writing: June 2nd 2021

A palestinian worker was injured after an Is*aeli bus hit him.

2 Palestinian children were detained by the IOF (ages 16 and 17)

Is*aeli settlers set fire to Palestinian villagers' crops.

The IOF demolished many Palestinian commercial facilities in North East Jerusalem.

15 palestinians lost their homes due to the demolishing and confiscation of their tents and homes.

Multiple Palestinian children were detained in a checkpoint on their way to school.

(video of journalist Zaina Al Halawani after being released)

Reblog. Speak. We need to keep spreading awareness. Stop normalizing the ethnic cleansing of Palestinians. Stop normalizing the genocide that Is*ael is committing. Stop normalizing detaining innocent Palestinians, assaulting, and even r*ping them. It's not normal. It was never normal. It will never be normal. Speak up!!!

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idk. this was an assignment.

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the title to my dorian gray essay for school, my esteemed vampires and werewolves.

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Darling this is a story we all know

I’m running from someone who looks just like me

Except she speaks with your voice

And her hands aren’t cold like mine

(When did I become a mirror for the ugly parts of you?)

* * *

Darling here the silence

Is the lull after the storm

It is the picking the pieces of me off the floor

And sticking them back onto your body

(I remake the world in your image)

* * *

This is the part where we sing to the darkness.

* * *

Darling in the mountains

The trees whisper my name instead of yours

And I’m wiping your face from the backs of my eyelids

With thousands of Clorox wipes

(I bought out the Walgreens by my house)

* * *

Darling I am singing a lullaby

While Rome burns

I am putting down my weapon

And healing you with my bare hands

(Please, just let me touch you)

* * *

This is the part where we erase our own history.

* * *

Darling you have hurt me enough times to know

The key in which my screams echo

(G major, is it? Or F minor?)

And I will forgive you again and again

Until the words are burned into my throat

* * *

Darling we are all just playing god

We are all just trying to be holy

I can scratch a hole through your belly

Take out your bones and put them inside my own body

(But I swear, this violence was sacred)

* * *

This is the part where we shake hands with the beast.

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The girl tells me sometimes she feels like she is standing in a tide pool, waiting for the next wave to come.

In my dreams, I see what that man did to her in college

Made a home from her body because he could not find one within himself

But when I wake I find girl grown into woman

And sitting at the table across from me

And she is smiling and I’m crying and realizing why spring is the only time of year I can stand to look at his face

She says I have to take the pain and make it into something beautiful but I tell her

I’m waiting for it to make something beautiful out of me

Waiting

I

Am waiting

Like I’m standing in a tide pool

Like I’m watching that man hurt her

Like I’m sitting at the table and desperately trying to heal

The girl tells me sometimes she feels like her brain is on a train track and every route she takes leads her back to him.

When I look at her it feels like looking at the sun

A sun that is drowning in a tide pool, as she waits for the next wave to come

But when she touches me her fingertips are cool and they feel more like water

And I want to ask her how she took the pain and made a home for it inside her body or how she manages to keep the sun from sinking into the sea

But I don’t and she shows me a sculpture instead

And a man is swallowing Persephone whole

And I

I

Am waiting

Like I’m watching my fourth-grade play all over again

Like I’m waiting for the man to sew seeds into her body with his teeth

Like I’m hoping that this time around he’ll take her to his room and give her the Advil instead of the pomegranate

The girl tells me sometimes she feels like she is standing in a tide pool, waiting for the next wave to come.

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i need a prom date hmu

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i'm sorry i have an illness

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prompt: knees skinned in prayer

for lucifer

i am the holy flame burning in san marco

and the righteous blood spilled on marble floors

i am the voices of boys priests like to touch

and their bodies, lying broken beneath the pews

* * *

i am the forsaken, knees skinned in prayer

and the words that promised to save you

i am the sacred storm that breaks

and the women who dance in the street as it rains

* * *

i am the fingers that clutch at the rosary

and the light that will set fire to the darkness

i am the god to which you pray

i am the thorn - but do not forget i was once a rose

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