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well I got a new cat but that's like it for my stated january goals

#he's chilling in my office #he already jumped the baby gate like 3 times #might have to sleep on the couch to snuggle norman #he's so excited for new brother but the new cat growled and hissed a little #hoping he's more chill tomorrow

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Spirit Animal is racist.

Patronus was invented by a transphobe.

I think it’s time we all suck it up and say what we mean: fursona.

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deadass going to pay someone $40 to come play with my cat

#his loneliness is killing me

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I will bite my thumb at them, which is a disgrace to them, if they bear it.

ROMEO + JULIET 1996 ✦ dir. Baz Luhrmann

#reblog #l i t e r a l l y the best shakespeare adaptation ever #i will hear no arguments #a view to a queue

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so did tumblr give up on the chat function?

#also why are they selling domains now #ngl i would love to have a hlwim domain #i just refuse to squat on a URL i will never create web content for #also can promise you i will never post videos or livestream #no one needs to see me get distracted by forgotten chores in realtime

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anyways 2023 was kind of a mixed bag for me.

my career is amazing, and I've built a bunch of cool stuff. i'll get to lead a huge project starting in spring building a new ticket management service for the entire school. i presented at two conferences and submitted a proposal for another. i'm leading the largest cohort of mentors and mentees in the program's history. i'm really good at what i do and i'm getting a lot of recognition for it. my sister had a beautiful baby girl and i got to be there in the room when she was born.

but ozzie died in november and it's been really hard. my parents and sister are always fighting with each other and so angry. i haven't written anything in years. i didn't start diving like i planned, and i'm starting to feel squeezed by bad decisions i made when i was younger.

i told my therapist i want to focus on my personal life this year. i'm lonely. i want to do more with my evenings than watching videos and cross-stitching.

i am trying. i agreed to join a bowling league with some coworkers. i applied to adopt a new cat. i want to start journaling. idk if that's what i'm doing here, but i remember talking to people and having a nice time.

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was gordon ramsay contractually obligated to show his ass at least once per episode on hotel hell

#because i appreciate the dedication #do people still talk in tags #i'm very old now

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ok so this is objectively hilarious and incredibly true

#reblog #thank u neil #a view to a queue

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Didn't realize how rare smoking is in the US until I got to Ireland because damn

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No you won’t ever be exactly the same again and that’s fine, actually.

#reblog #a view to a queue

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heading out to michael's because joann doesn't have any cross-stitch kits I like and also I couldn't find the rose wine section at total wine yesterday and it's not a pinot grigio kind of sunday

#and i've been quietly writing very stupid kaz/inej fic in my head #that level of angst/ptsd with the severity of those cheekbones has done me in #i loved every single second of the crows in the new season #i've had a bottle of hard cider & i'm gonna sober up my snuggling my dumb fat cats

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best kind of character is “guy who didn’t die when he should have”

#reblog #saving this for later #big kaz vibes #a view to a queue

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I was so excited to play Deliver Us Mars but I can't fucking stand Kathy. Her dad was a piece of shit and I can't connect at all with her feeling any ambiguity towards him & his actions. I'm barely an hour in & it's such a shit but I spent money on this so here I am dragging myself through glass to finish.

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All I’m saying is that we should pair up the guy who likes art & alchemy & destruction and apologizes for none of it and the traumatized woman with art of alchemy & destruction on her back that she loathes and feels guilt over, and see where it goes

No because the parallels are driving me insane… Both aware prisoners of Pride. Distanced, clean sniper vs terrain soldier right in the dirty and ugly of blood and guts. Denial in morality vs honesty in apathy. Guilt in honed skills vs pride in supernatural power enhancement.  Do you think their tattoos were painful to get. Do you think it comes even close to all of the pain they have inflicted. One is haunted by their tattoo and guilt of how much they’ve done while the other wears his as a badge of honor and legacy and wants even more. 

I’ve got a cutthroat delight (Up on a high) As we carouse while you writhe (Caught by my eye) I’ll put your fear in my drink tonight, tonight I’m chewing up and spitting out your pride

You got an iron dye where only God’ll find I took a photo of shame to remember you by True colors make a pretty picture memory Returning less than you gave to me

I know infinity She howls with the past As they gouge each other’s eyes (Existing out of spite) I know duplicity Who once was a child Born in villainy (Existing out of spite) I know infinity She howls with the past As they gouge each other’s eyes (Existing out of spite)

I know what hides in me If only you knew the same

[Chorus] Now do you hate me? Are you afraid of mе? Are you able to feel culpability? Come forth and kill me Bow down and worship me Take your time, all we have is eternity Now with a new start Broken and torn apart Nothing in me resembles a human heart My name is unknown Something I’ve never told On my own, I declare “I don’t wanna go home”

SCAPEG♾AT, by GHOST

Alt vers under the cut. Also linking my Spotify playlist for the ship because why not.

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#reblog #kimbliza #one of us one of us #fmab #fanart

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me, to the kids i worked with last week: welcome to medieval camp everyone! can anyone think of any fun medieval activities we might do here at camp this week?

kid: well, they used to do this thing where they would take your body and make it into four pieces and i think it was called quartering.

me: that’s called torture! we will not in fact be participating in torture this week! …anyone else?

#reblog #this is like the shit my sister used to tell me #no thanks @ all kids fam #a view to a queue

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collage ive made for the samecharacter hashtag on twitter

#reblog #fantastic #love the cockroach man #miss him #getting back at it #solf j kimblee #a view to a queue