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Waifu Expo, Loyalty, and Kimochiicon

I'm not sure how much more vocal I need to be to earn my spot as a panelist at some of these local conventions. You can be a circuit presenter at events 5x-10x the size of the ones you try to support and they still can't find a place for you.

Running one of the best panels at the first Anime Houston and not being one of your many cancellations during the second: why would that earn you a spot to continue hosting? Even going so far as, at one point, publicly saying they're more deserving of the largest convention in Houston over Anime Matsuri.

Having one of the best rated panels at Anime Dallas didn't earn me any credit with that ownership either, given I wasn't given the opportunity to return there either. One corporate entity of full-of-themselves ownership doesn't surprise me, given A-Kon and Anime Matsuri are the two oldest conventions in Texas.

Not getting an initial spot on the convention I support most in DFW, that stings like hell. Especially since, personally, if I could only pick a single North Texas convention to do, it would've been this one. As a native Houstonian, I already have a pretty heavy disdain for the area so I really have to feel like the convention is doing all the right things for me to make a point to support.

Then, for whatever reason, those conventions have trended to turn their backs on me when I don't feel the need to focus too much on sucking up to convention officials, y'know, because I thought there would be a fair system for it. One that goes beyond we don't want a polyamory/ENM panel at our event or worse we prefer not a cisAMAB on that content. Sure, I have my criticisms of how cons like this and Okashicon push feminine empowerment so much it feels alienating to the majority of con-goers who prefer to have an apolitical experience, but it's never felt as outwardly androphobic as this one does now.

The identity of this convention will always be marked as a protest event to Fandom Events. Fandom Events makes plenty of mistakes, but they don't support me because I'm a guy; far from it, I've gotten plenty of low attendance numbers from my panels at their conventions. At least they continue to see my line of work, believe in me, and don't put me on the back-burner just because I'm not a woman (inherently drawing more eyes if I was).

I don't dislike Kimochiicon at all, far from it, but there's certain lines of professionalism you don't just waive on a subjective principle. All my doubts of their leadership, especially programming, have always stemmed from that derivatively. Me being a straight guy, how can I contribute? The messaging I've got from them is not much at all, really, unless you're a cosplayer or my connections are important enough to the staff they can't ignore me. I don't want to exercise that type of leverage, but maybe that's where we're getting to again in the community given small conventions like this scarcely do any sort of content quality checks. Or what, is the reason I have low clout so blame it on my occupation AND gender.

I've pretty actively been hunting for a reason to return to places I have to put multiple days of time and resources into, and while this probably wasn't the breaking point for North Texas conventions, it will certainly feel like it given the trajectory of my life at the moment.

With any luck, you'll still see me there. But it'll be a bitter pill to swallow being demoted to attendee. I hated it at Anime Matsuri, I hated it at A-Kon, and I hated it at Waifu Fest. Guess I shouldn't've expected anyone to remain all that loyal in this landscape.

All you have left in this community to fall back in is your contributions to the community after your mid-20s. If I'm not wanted to contribute, there's really no reason for me to go. The convention wasn't made with me in mind on multiple levels, I understand that better than anyone else.

#conventions #anime conventions #anime convention #Waifu Expo #Kimochiicon #Waifu Expo 2023 #Kimochiicon 2024 #personal

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Oh, you're criticizing Fairy Tail and grew up on Naruto?

baka.

I had a scientific theory I needed to sketch out.

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Hey look, Ana Kasparian saying my political beliefs for the past 15 years

#tyt #the young turks #ana kasparian #cenk uygur #Youtube

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I need endless romance

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[phone]

[email protected]

Sextortionist

Make their life hell. Track and harass the shit out of this person until they're behind bars.

#sextortion

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my favorite love language is trying, actually

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Kousaka Honoka ; Love Live! School Idol Festival ☆ Alter

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True story. After my last monogamous relationship ended I struggled with seeing myself as a "loyal" person and carried a lot of guilt over it. Luckily eventually wonderful partners would call me loyal. So it took me a while to come to the same conclusion as this post but it really helped me a lot when I did.

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mental illness hasn’t been destigmatised but commercialised

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Normalize not forcing connections with people. If somebody doesn't see the value in having you by their side, don’t try to convince them.

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#Spotify

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if i have to fight for your attention then fuck your attention

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"we want more flawed female characters" you guys couldn't handle haruhi suzumiya

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“you're so distant” you literally made me feel like i wasn't important

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shoutout to slow growers, late bloomers, people whose plans got derailed by circumstances beyond their control or their own choices, people who never had a plan to begin with, people who have had to start over when theyre too old to feel like theyre supposed to be where they are, people who cant pretend theyre built for the environment theyre in, and everyone who's not living the life they thought they would. im proud of you for making it this far and i hope you keep going until youre happy ♡