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there’s distress in her actions. the way she grabs him so suddenly catches him off guard, worry and confusion quick to crawl up his spine, yet her words continue to soothe and they never once betray her heart. it is in his nature to share suffering. to desire a hand to hold and a hand to hurt; a mutually assured descent. but hinata—not hinata. not once did he wish for her same downfall. while he ran from that outcome, it only came back to hurt him, too.
“…” he mulls over what to say. the air and time around them is tender to the touch and in need of careful handling. hinata, delicate like the flower she is, seeks his comfort despite how terribly different he is. how rough he is against her soft, beating heart. with his eye still trained down, he rolls his neck to the other side and covers her with both arms beneath his shadow, ensuring they won’t part any time soon. “’m sorry,” he says, almost a whisper. “you wanna see me again..that’s why you’re always the same. you let me come back.” adam puases, opening the cloak a bit to shed light and see the top of her head.
“…i wanted to see you again, hinata. that’s why i’m here.”
enclosed by his arms &shielded by his cloak, the heat of adam’s body radiates around the heiress’s smaller frame. in the dark, his voice somehow becomes clearer to her—reverberating in the small, private space. suddenly, the darkness breaks. as her head raises, hinata shifts the weight of his limbs just a bit to gain view of him, yet keeps herself pressed against him. peeping upwards, the paleness of her eyes gloss with beaded tears.
the kinds of tears that trickle down rosy cheeks, she cannot say for certain.
paused for what seems like minutes, she breathes out. “ eh? r-really? ” she asks, innocently dumbfounded by adam’s confession. hinata finds herself mixed in emotion—a cocktail of hurt and relief; pangs that need healing; assurance to quell the stories she tells herself for his absence. in truth, the stories, up until now, sealed in all parts of what she would feel, had she come face to face with him again. hypotheticals. just what would creep to the surface?
it’s hard for her to soak in the thought of him coming back to her.
( yet, here he is. all flesh & bone & heart. )
“ but .. ” but why now? she thinks. she’s not bold enough to ask him. yet the questions pile one on top of the other. &he isn’t wrong. she did let him return—she always would, no matter how many seasons would pass in between them. oh, how his words melt her down.
glassy-eyed, her brows furrow with all her feelings on display. she hangs onto him tighter. “ i wasn’t sure .. what had happened to you. s-so i thought .. ”
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he can’t help but notice her apprehension. when hinata heeds his call and rests against his torso under the safety of his shade, he recieves her nonetheless. his gentle hand—for her and her alone—comes down around her small shoulder. a gesture of comfort for her troubled heart.
“i should be saying that,” adam replies, his neck rolling to the side as his expression grims just a bit. though he can’t see her, he looks down at where the top of her head must be beneath his burlap sack. “i think you’re the same. you always are. i–.. i always thought you’d think differently about me. after a while.”
his words, carried with tender self-doubt, hollows out her belly. even though the pair have acknowledged their stark differences, their similarities often remind her of adam’s sensitive nature—something the hyuuga has often struggled with accepting. when their thoughts skew to extremes, it leaves too much room for wrongful misunderstandings.
however, what she loves about him is his openness; the willingness to share what he’s thinking—even when its most plagued with uncertainties. &it’s the heat from his hand that soothes her ache. the weight of his care for her burns her.
how long have these feelings, these thoughts, festered in his mind?
thank god he can’t see her contorting face. she grabs for anything that’s in reach, gripping with as much strength as she is able to with her small fingers. “ i could never. ” she responds almost immediately, pushing her head further into the nook.
“ i just .. —— ” she pauses, lips trembling, “ i wanted to see you again. ”
( even when it hurts. )
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he can feel hinata’s gaze even without looking. as she peers over quietly, adam turns her way and opens the worn cloak draped over his shoulders, beckoning her to come inside with a couple flaps of the cloth. “c’mon,” he calmly exhales, the look in his eye soft, sweet, and welcoming.
hinata can’t help but scoff under her breath at the light flapping of his cloak, like that of a bird. it may sound silly, but adam’s voice helps usher her in, giving her the reassurance that she desperately needs in this moment. her thoughts of what he must feel about her don’t leave her all the way, yet they subside, allowing her to move forward temporarily from its chains.
bringing her gaze down—too embarrassed for full eye contact—the heiress nestles her way into the empty space. a space that was once / is / safe.
completely enveloped in the dark, her head drops against his chest. a heavy sigh breaks the silence. “ i’m sorry, adam. ” the murmurs once trapped in her throat begin to break free.
“ i’m ... i’m acting weird, aren’t i? ” she knows she is. does he believe so, too?
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『 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓 . 』 jaw clenching , hands balling into fists , teeth grinding, yelling , going nonverbal , vocalizations , stuttering speech , rushed speech , slow concise speech , rambling , quiet , arms crossing , shaking head , curling lip upwards , baring teeth , tearing up , animated , expressionless , projects , internalizes , vents , withdraws , tighter movements , passive-aggressive , direct , physical outbursts , verbal outbursts , pacing , going still , anger boils over in the heat of the moment but cools down quickly afterwards , anger brews slowly but lingers longer , will act out of impulse when angry , will stew on their anger and plot revenge , holds grudges , forgives easily , forgives but never forgets
『 𝒋𝒐𝒚 . 』 easy smiles , fighting back grins , suppressed laughter , loud laughter , giggles , chuckling , smirks , whole body laughs , covers mouth when laughing/giggling , throws head back when laughing , slaps leg , touches people around them when laughing , looks down when laughing , looks for eye contact when laughing, sparkling eyes , bubbly happiness , quiet subtle happiness , obnoxious happiness , wants to spread joy , quietly savors joy
『 𝒔𝒂𝒅𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 . 』 crying , bottling it up , seeking distractions , wallowing , meditating and processing , avoidance , seeking out comfort , withdrawing , swallowing thickly , talking it out , internalizing it , sad smiles , depression naps , using alcohol , using drugs , seeking out sources of joy , fidgets with sentimental item , sits in silence , broods , gets moody , wants someone to share the misery , tries to hide negative emotions , nurtures others to make themselves feel better
『 𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 / 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒎𝒆 . 』 blushing , looking away , rubbing at the back of the head , running a hand through hair , clearing throat , covering the face , laughing nervously , laughing it off , overthinking , letting it go , self-deprecating humor , deflecting , getting irritated , smiling , withdraws , crossing arms over the stomach , crossing arms over chest , hands in pockets , shoulders sinking , shrugs , falling into silence until comfortable again , talking a lot to compensate
『 𝒈𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒕 . 』 avoiding eye contact , shoulders sinking low , head hanging down , crying , chest aches , lashing out , internalizing , apologizing , deflecting , communicating , withdrawing , grand gestures for forgiveness , accepting fault easily , punishing themselves , martyrdom , victim complex , over-active guilt complex , healthy conscience , internalizes even after forgiveness , seeking redemption , moves on easily , denial , shuts off empathy to cope , lack of guilt / conscience , sorry they got caught more than caused harm , can’t handle knowing they hurt others
『 𝒇𝒆𝒂𝒓 / 𝒂𝒏𝒙𝒊𝒆𝒕𝒚 . 』 trembling , crying , sarcasm / sass to cope, humour to cope , rambles , going quiet , going nonverbal , getting angry , fidgeting , freezing up , impatience , clenching jaw , picking at nails , chewing at the lip , pulling at clothes , adjusting jewelry / clothing / hair , pacing , swallowing thickly , eyes widening , over - reacts , under - reacts , calm , logical , panic , irrational, overthinks , carefully analyzes , talk to themselves , breathing exercises , flight , fight , withdraw , fawn.
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