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ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

I am leaving Tumblr for the third and final time. And I’m gonna explain why.

I’ve been searching for something for a long time; real happiness and the feeling of being truly loved. It’s all I’ve ever really wanted. Just love.

The problem is that I’ve been searching in all the wrong places. I’ve been searching in the things I enjoy doing, in people, etc. When really, I should be searching for that in my Father and His Word. Im surprised it’s taken me this long to realize such a profound truth. I lead worship with my church yesterday and it was incredible. I want to keep doing it. my only problem is that I’m still on here.

God said to honor your mother and father. I have not been doing that. But, for the first time in ages, I’m realizing that I can still repent and grow in my faith. Ive felt incredibly heavy guilt for all of the sin in my life for these past few months. I love you all so much, but not more than i love my God and my Faith. I want a life of freedom from sin. and in order to do that, I will have to leave you guys, as well as my writing, behind. God has shown me through incredible signs and wonders that it is time for me to step into a new day.

I have to repent and do better, otherwise I’m no further than from where I started. in addition to that, my motivation to be here has gone way down lol

i love you guys so much and I will miss you dearly. im sorry for any fic series I haven’t finished, as well as unmet requests. Thank you to all of my friends, followers and mutuals. for everything. I love you so much and you’ve got no idea how much I will miss you.

It’s been a wild ride, Tumblr.

-Nonny💞

final tags: @eru-vande @thewhiteladyofrohan @i-shall-abide @elvish-sky @entishramblings

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#stevestevesteveiheartsteve0704

#Same Phil #Same

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I haven’t written anything for a long while, so feel free to send in requests! Sorry for the inactivity guys :/

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What’s up with you guys? I’m curious

#Go ahead and send in some asks if you want #I’ve got time :)

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this is an accurate representation of me when i meet Sebastian.

he is the puppy, btw.

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I feel a fic idea coming onnnn :D

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what should I write?? I’m out of requests and I’be got nothing to do

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please take the time to read<3

hi, guys. long time no see.

there really is no easy way to say this but it's been lingering on my mind for a while and stressing me out so, here goes.

last year (2020), at the beginning of lockdown, i started this account. this was my first time on tumblr, but not first time writing. i honestly loved it with my entire heart. the support, the love, the overwhelming friendliness of those in this community. it was breathtaking.

i wrote for fun, to fill an irritating void that consumed every part of me. i was depressed and writing helped me feel wanted, like i was providing something useful to those who wanted/needed it, and it made me feel better.

during lockdown, i was having trouble in the relationship department, in that i was unable to see my then boyfriend and we barely talked because, what was there to even talk about? i started inserting myself into my own stories; although they were reader inserts they acted to me like writer inserts (??), a way for me to create a scenario that i wanted and feel loved by these fictional characters that i adore with my whole heart. the truth is now, i don't need that anymore.

i'm in a stable and very happy relationship with someone lovely, and i don't feel that need to write to fuel a sense of love or affection anymore because i have it right at my fingertips.

this, paired with the reblog situation that i have spoken about many times on this blog, have deemed me unmotivated and honestly, not feeling the need or want to write like i used to.

it sucks to say this - i have made the most wonderful friends on this website and it will hurt to leave behind this blog, but i felt the need to say something rather than sitting on a forever hiatus without ever saying anything to anyone.

i appreciate everything anyone has ever done to support me. your love is irreplaceable and has made me into a better person.

if anyone wishes to reach me, stranger or friend, my discord tag is piper#2219

i'm sorry to anyone i disappointed in doing this by not finishing my series, completing requests, etc.

this is the end of sokkasdarling.

thank you for everything,

xo p

#rb from main

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Heyy there your blog is amazing, hope u keep posting stuff, just so yk I'll be there to read those fics, and reblog them on my side blog ❤️❤️

i will 🥺😊 thanks for taking the time to tell me that

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What is your relationship status? 🍬

single Pringle haha 😂

#Playfulkittn #asks

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May I request the winter soldier & “Kissing your lover’s tears away” please? Enjoy your day ❤️

Yep! It’s out :)

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Its becoming increasingly obvious that Bucky is the only mcu character I’ve written so far and I’m gonna change that soon i swear. but Bucky requests are what I’m getting and I’m not complaining :) keep em coming!!

Request: May I request the winter soldier & “Kissing your lover’s tears away” please? Enjoy your day ❤️

You may!! Enjoy :)

TW: descriptions of panic attacks, traumatic accidents, etc.

~~~~~ In for four, hold for four, out for four, hold for four, repeat.

That‘s what your therapist, Dr. Raynor, had instructed you to do whenever the panic attacks came. Most of the time, it actually worked.

But not this time.

Like a torrential downpour, wave after wave, your emotions battered against your shoulders, relentless and merciless.

It was the same nightmare that had been tormenting you for the past few days. You were stuck in that old, black sedan, hydroplaning across the bridge because some idiot hit your car in a chase, the direction of the car completely out of your control.

And the worst part was that you always went flying off of the bridge and into the water with no one there to save you.

Now, you sat straight up in your bed, forehead damp with sweat while your heart rattled your rib cage. Nothing changed. You still felt like you were in the ice cold water, unable to save yourself from the unforgiving storm. Your hands felt numb and you couldn’t breathe. The room was suffocating and yet, for some reason, you couldn’t move. You couldn’t even think. You buried your face in your hands, sobbing into them as your only source of comfort. Until Bucky came in the room.

Upon seeing your disheveled state, the man rushed to your side, laying his left hand on your right shoulder, giving it a squeeze.

You wanted to hug him. You wanted to collapse in his arms and just completely give in, but you couldn’t. You were trapped. When that didn’t do anything, Bucky sat on your bed in front of you, gently removing your hands from your face so you would look at him. Your lower lip quivered, though you seemed to have calmed down a bit, enjoying the warmth that Bucky’s hands brought. His eyes were a gentle and deep blue, they were nothing like the storm you were in just seconds ago.

”Y/n, breathe. In for four, hold for four, out for four, hold for four, repeat. Remember?”

Nothing.

He continued. “I‘ll do it with you, doll, c’mon.” He quietly encouraged, using his fingers to tap the seconds onto your palms.

You breathed with Bucky, focusing on the cool metal that now tapped against your skin and the eyes that gently held onto yours, protecting you from the storm.

That’s how it stayed for a while; Bucky keeping the storm at bay.

When your breathing slowed, Bucky eased himself beside you, allowing you to rest your head against his chest, his heartbeat sweetly filling your ears. You stayed silent, unsure of what to say in the moment. Minutes passed, and just as your eyes started to close, you felt a soft touch on your head. Bucky kissed your head. You froze, caught a bit off guard by the unfamiliar touch; but eventually, you relaxed. You decided that you liked it and closed your eyes, relaxing against Bucky’s chest.

You felt your eyelids getting heavy as the storm retreated, murmuring a quiet string of words that Bucky would never forget. “Thank you, Bucky.“

The words floated in the air like a soft wind, kissing Bucky’s cheek in a sweet way that only you possessed. Then, you fell asleep in Bucky’s embrace. After you closed your eyes, Bucky fidgeted with strands of your hair, (which only seemed to put you at ease even more, in his opinion) watching you sleep with a certain peace.

You we’re safe now. He could protect you.

He would do whatever he needed to to make sure it stayed that way.

~~~~ Woo boo! Another one done!

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Imagine Bucky actually moving on and meeting someone 🥺

Sebastain Stan as Mickey Henry MONDAY (2021) • dir. Argyris Papadimitropoulos

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Could I request soft Bucky x reader? Where overtime he’s grown his hair really long and the reader never questioned him on it because they love to play with it. But then one night he asks the reader to cut some of it off so he could donate it? But he makes sure to remind the reader to keep some length so they can still play with it.

It’s out!!! I’m editing it rn tho

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another Bucky one shot? No way. This one was requested by a lovely anon

Request: Could I request soft Bucky x reader? Where overtime he’s grown his hair really long and the reader never questioned him on it because they love to play with it. But then one night he asks the reader to cut some of it off so he could donate it? But he makes sure to remind the reader to keep some length so they can still play with it.

you sure can!! coming right up <3

NOTE: This is post “First Dates” :) I’ve got a small surprise for y’all 😂

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You were surprised with how long Bucky’s hair had grown in only eight months. He’d kept it short for a while, but, for some reason he didn‘t discuss with you, he decided to grow it out. Either way, you loved playing with it. It started out one evening while you were watching a movie with Bucky, simply lying next to him while the sun dipped beneath the horizon.

At some point, you’d subconsciously started fiddling with the long, brown strands of hair while watching some B grade movie, which lead to Bucky falling asleep right next to you. It was really relaxing for both you and Bucky, so it just became a thing you did when you were both winding down for the night, no questions asked. There were even times he would let you braid his hair before bed to keep the tangles out of his hair, so long as you took it out the next day before anyone else woke up. So, today, you did the exact same thing; you sitting behind Bucky while he searched for something to watch on tv, fiddling with the strands of hair. “Hey, Y/n?” He asked, settling for a documentary about animal life in the Arctic.

“Yeah?” You returned, determined to get this tangle out of Bucky’s hair with the least amount of pain as possible.

“Would you mind giving me a haircut today? I would do it myself, but I don’t think it would end well.“ He asked, turning to face you with a playful expression, cornflower blue eyes peering into your e/c ones. You held onto the strands of hair loosely, wondering why Bucky would want to do that. But, instead of pondering on it for too long, you nodded, turning Bucky’s head so you could return to your work. “Sure. Can I ask why?“

Bucky shrugged, averting his gaze to the tv. “I grew it out to donate it. Figured someone could use it.” He replied, a determined stare adorning the man’s face.

And in that very moment, your heart melted. That was why he grew it out. You could‘ve sworn to God Himself, you had the sweetest boyfriend. A warmth grew in your chest at the sweet gesture, feeling a slight twinge of sadness at not being able to play with Bucky’s hair anymore. You got the tangle out with little to no struggle, standing up after you pressed a kiss against Bucky’s stubbly jaw. “I’ll go get the stuff ready. Just let me know when you wanna do it.” You hummed, striding off to set up your make-shift hair salon for Bucky.

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With a clean towel, makeshift salon cape, scissors, a chair, and a comb, you were all good to go.

You hummed, satisfied with your work, and called Bucky to the bathroom whilst leaning on the counter. He walked in, surprised at how quickly you’d prepared for this.

He sat down while you brushed his hair, watching you tie it into a ponytail just at the base of his neck. “Can you keep some of the length though? Just so you can still practice your fancy braids.” He asked, deep blue eyes meeting yours while his cheeks flushed in the slightest bit. You grinned at your boyfriend and smiled, nodding as you retied the ponytail an inch or two lower. Once you were both satisfied with the length, you snipped his hair off and it was done. If you were being entirely honest, you liked this length. Bucky looked more handsome than ever. You hummed a familiar tune quietly, tousling Bucky’s hair while the old 50’s song in your head made itself heard through your voice. Upon hearing the melody, Bucky grinned and looked down at the ground, chuckling quietly to himself.

He stood after glancing at his reflection in the mirror, offering you his hand while his voice followed yours in a sweet song.

”You’ve gotta make me a promise,” You sang sweetly, swaying in time with your boyfriend.

He grinned, nodding his head while he took you in his arms, his lower voice ringing in the air.

“Oh, yeah”

”promise to me, you’ll dream,”

You beamed up at Bucky, holding his gaze while you finished the song together.

”dream a little dream of me.”

As the song you sang rang out, you burst into a small fit of giggles, pecking Bucky’s cheek after he gave you a spin. Unbeknownst to either of you, however, Sam was standing just out of sight by the doorway. “I still don’t forgive y’all for leaving me that nasty tuna melt.” He stated, recognizing the song from when Bucky told him all about the date. You and Bucky shared a glance, snickering at the fond memory of Sam losing his marbles after tasting the terrible tuna melt.

What a drama queen.

~~~~ Hope y’all liked this one! reblogs are appreciated!!!

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Hello lovely! Random anon sliding through your asks to tell you that you’re an absolutely amazing writer!! Hope all is going well and that you are staying hydrated and taking care of yourself! Can’t wait to read more from you in the future. So happy I found your blog. 💖💖💖

I- *cries in happy*

thank you for reading (and for this lovely ask) 🥺🥺💞

I appreciate you and every other anon/r so much 🥺💞

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A moodboard my tumblr bestie @wishingtobeinadifferentuniverse made me :)

I love this sm omg