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Let me tell you a story. I was 16 when I first started going out with my ex. He never once pushed me, though when we turned 18 he did ask if i'd like to go away for my birthday for that purpose. I said no. He accepted that and asked me to let him know when I was ready. When I was 19 I finally figured out I was Ace. He was one of the first people I told, because I didn't want him to stay with me expecting something he wasn't going to get. He was a little dissapointed, but he said he was ok with it, and things carried on as normal. When I turned 21, he took me to Cardiff for my birthday. I again made it clear that nothing was going to happen. He told me that wasn't what he wanted anyway. While we were there, HE PROPOSED. We had been together almost 5 years, but we were still super young. In the next few months we moved in together, and bit by bit, spent less and less time together. I was seeing him less in the house we shared than I had when we lived in seperate villages. He NEVER shared a meal with me, he stopped inviting me to help at his scout group, and anytime he was off at the same time as me, he didn't want to do anything with me. Was he cheating on me? Was he just struggling to be away from his parents for the first time? I dunno, but when I brought up my lonliness to him, he said something I will never forget: "We won't feel like a real couple until we sleep together." He was trying to guilt trip me into it. He wanted to make me do something I REALLY did not want to. Something that, had it happened, would not actually have been consensual. But sure, in that 5 year relationship that started when we were kids, during which HE made the major moves, It was obviously ME who was abusive.

Your daily reminder that exclusionists are scum

#not saying he was abusive to be clear #but at the end there it could have gone that way very easily #and it would not have been my fault

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in the uk you can volunteer with national park rangers to do this. My old scout group used to do it at weekends in the Peak District. We'd remove hawthorn and rhodedendron, and set up fires to burn them, which as scouts was obviously the best part.

Oh and if literal grass-touching IS viable, I also advocate for touching invasive grass. Many parks in the US have invasive plant removal volunteer work days. You get some air and some exercise and you can talk to other volunteers if you want or you can just march off into the trees on your own and start wreaking havoc with various hand tools. If you want to do something that is both useful AND destructive, I have found nothing better

#did we get distracted all the time and end up climbing trees or sledging in the snow? #yes #but we did genuinely get a lot done mostly cos we wanted to keep the fire going

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TURN LEFT | DOCTOR WHO

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HOLY TRINITY OF TRADITIONAL BALLADS

#excuse me where's i can't decide? #doctor who #bbc #doctor who spoilers

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#THAT'S WHAT DOCTOR WHO IS ABOUT #QUALITY TELEVISION

#absolutely bonkers #that's why i love this show #doctor who #bbc #doctor who spoilers #i love that THIS was probably the most epensive sequence in the whole episode

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#doctor who #bbc #spoilers #doctor who spoiers

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I never thought I'd see you again after all these years.

Doctor Who - Wild Blue Yonder (2023)

#doctor who #bbc #dr who #doctor who spoilers #wild blue yonder #i'm so happy to see wilf #but so sad we'll only get a tiny bit of him

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"The Doctor is outwardly queer now" The Doctor has been queer since 1963. 🤦

#doctor who #bbc #dr who #soilers #doctor who spoilers

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Endless Mighty Nein

#'they're very sex positive' 'WE KNOW' #critical role #critical role london

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"Who Remembers the Armenians?" by Palestinian poet Najwan Darwish / "Who Remembers the Palestinians?" by Armenian writer Sophia Armen

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The Deathwalker’s Ward

I just had to paint him in his new armor 🥺🤲 but also this painting has changed me as a person it was so difficult 😭

#critical role #legend of vox machina

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I love this show so much!!!!

#critical role #critical role london

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losing my shit. one of the important powerful skills jester has learned is how to FORCIBLY YANK ARTAGAN FROM WHEREVER HE IS TO WHEREVER SHE WANTS. you thought the MESSAGES IN YOUR HEAD AT ANY TIME FROM ANYWHERE was bad. watch THIS. *jester yanks her god into a fight by the scruff of his neck like a recalcitrant kitten*

#and he was grumpy about it was the best part #critical role #critical role london

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ECHOES OF THE SOLSTICE | Fjorester

Oh, Admiral Tusktooth. Yes, I will.

#he had to clarify about the ring and the scepter cos we were all going crazy #but the ring still got used! #critical role #critical role london

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Fjorester: Engaged Edition

#critical role #critical role london #these two were so cute all night

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Live from London: Mighty Nien and Mighty Fine

#I WAS THERE!! #it was amazing #and I am forever grateful that I stayed in wembley and didn't have to catch the tube #critical role #critical role london #and yes #i became a critter in the year i was gone from this hellsite

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Kelleran Beq, the Sabered Hand. I’m so happy to see Ahmed Best back in Star Wars.

#star wars #kelleran beq