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nothing is the same, life is changing, i feel sad, but that’s not news, i no longer and i don’t think i ever had, a goal to pursue, it was always someone, someone was always in my mind and i spent my time thinking of them.

i wonder, where is all the people that’s it’s worth it and i didn’t have the courage to talk to.

i wanna hug my heart, i wanna grab it so it doesn’t explode, i am somehow running out of breath.

i think, and think, and think, what have i done wrong, every single time, with every single different person. i don’t trust my instinct that much anymore, i have hurt my persona so bad, i can barely tell good from bad, i feel embarrassed i never got to love myself, and forced the people around me to tolerate my lack of self respect, it makes sense they all left.

i never got to love myself, these words resonate in my head, i am still trying to understand exactly what i mean, what situations, what mistakes, what words, i say, i do, i behave, that make me less.

i hate it.

i hate being a burden to everyone, that makes them abandon me, i empathize with them, even.

i hate it.

i feel so alone, but i barely care, it’s been like this for so many many years.

i hate it.

i can talk to a wall and get the same results, the same outcome. is this neglecting?

i don’t wanna blame anyone i want answers

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discovering maturity is gonna be interesting in my way of being.

fun

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me enferma twitter

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hace mucho me había dado cuenta que me parecía tan extraño que mi perrita no tuviera cumpleaños, no sabemos que dia nació, solo el mes, y me parece tan extraño que, hay personas en las mismas condiciones, literalmente hay personas que no saben que dia nacieron, o que había que celebrarse ese dia

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por q iba yo a contestarte _algo_ ? en la vida haha

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cosas que hago cuando me detesto profundamente

no saber decir que no

quedarme callada cuando me ofenden

buscar caer bien o complacer a los demás

cosas que hago cuando me amo o que me provocan terminar amándome

entrenar al fallo

cuidar y planear mis comidas

no meterme en situaciones de estrés

leer

estudiar mis pendientes

no dedicar tiempo a personas que no lo valen

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odio llorar por no querer tratar mal a alguien ! LO ODIO

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i am so used to not having anything exciting in my life lol

i am so used to not love someone so bad

i don’t remember what being in love is like

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q dolor de huevos es estar triste y que alguien te hable de su imaginary relief (religion) y te diga que eso te pasa por alejarte de su Dios y que la solución es entregártele a el

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la ansiedad que me provoca que me cambien planes, que me arruinen mis horarios que me echen a perder la única motivación que tenía para levantarme en el día

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i must keep remembering i have no time to be sad left anymore

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going to sapporo made me understand soooooooooooooo much better how the mangaka of fma is from hokkaido like……….. it does makes sense

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everyday passes and the happy me is still trapped somewhere else but here.

everyday there’s a shadow i don’t know where that’s living the life i should have lived

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me da ansiedad no tener con quien rebotar ideas

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no se si leer a chatgpt sobre lo que sea que me diga de nosotros o seguir leyendo a ed