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Baby #2!
No, I'm not pregnant yet but the plan is to be in two years! We want to wait until Ricky is out of diapers before we try and by then my implant will have expired. I'm excited and scared but mostly excited 😊.
Not much is going on between Erik and I. I'm always too tired to talk to him but I continue to work on seeing him more in my dreams. Which is still hard because I don't usually have control of my dreams. He's there or he isn't. I feel him with me when I go to bed and when I wake up which is nice...
If I had my way I'd already have about 4 kids but here we are...😞
πŸ˜˜πŸ’• Good night!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL BABY BOY!
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Watch "The One - Shakira (Lyrics)" on YouTube
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Watch ""All I Wanted" by Paramore-lyrics-" on YouTube
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This song came out in 2008 or 2009. Not really sure but I was obsessed with this album.
I had my moms old TV in my room and I would literally wake up to TV Land black and whites. But regardless, I sang this song on repeat back then when I knew Erik killed himself. At the time I decided that I was going to just coast my life.
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Moody Blues Your Wildest Dreams
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Because I'm from South Florida 🀣
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Erik and I aren't done! 🀣....NOPE.
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I've been going at this blog since 2017. My life has changed so fucking much and most of that I owe to my relationship with Erik. Since having a baby (I can't believe this) almost one year ago, my time has been taken up by caring for a new baby as a first time mother. So don't take my silence as me backing out of the journey. I might take a few breaks or post less but this journey will be the rest of my life. I'm in this for the long haul as I'm still learning a few things and trying to get past seeing him more often which is so fucking hard as shit to do.
At the moment I'm learning how to communicate more with Erik in my sleep. It's not as hard as it used to be; I usually say a prayer before bed and focus on him as I'm falling asleep. We have conversations but I remember just bits and pieces of it. As for dreaming, it's also getting easier; I just have to do the same thing and once I become aware that I'm dreaming, I call him up. Waking up remembering chunks of the dreams puts me in a good mood lol 🀣 but also tells me how much better I'm getting and encourages me to keep working at it.
That's all I've been working on and continue to work on.
For about a week it's been going so well and I've been back on a depression swing for a few weeks. My Wellbutrin stopped working...I had to stop taking Zoloft until I get an increase on Wellbutrin because Zoloft takes away my ability to enjoy certain... things...if you know what I mean lol.
πŸ˜˜πŸ’•Anyway that's all for now...!
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flameontheotherside Β· 2 months
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Follow you down (by Gin Blossoms) lyrics & chords
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When in Rome The Promise Lyrics
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😍 This is probably the 3rd day he's sent me this song as I wake up. He's been saying that he'd never leave me. And I've been having some really amazing dreams the past couple of days. I'm in such a good mood that even though my back is 😭 KILLING ME I don't care! He used to play with my phones to change songs to one he'd want me to hear. Now he just gets songs stuck in my head as soon as I wake up.
πŸ₯Ή I feel so much better. It's been a crappy month.
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