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One of these babies is going to be coming home with me in a month! 😍

#personal #dogblr #my dog #puppies #ethicalbreeding #responsible breeders #Brittany puppies

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Send help I just had the weirdest disassociation episode… and I have no idea if I actually went pee or not….

I fed the dogs, I had to pee, and next thing I know I’m in the living room? I don’t have to pee anymore, no I didn’t pee myself, my hand feel damp like I just washed them so I guess I just went to the bathroom?

WHAT

I just had to share thank you.

#personal #dissociation

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Good doggos

#dogblr #my dog

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Venting. Am I the asshole?

Because that’s pretty much all I use this app for anymore lol

I can’t believe I got tied up in this.

Coworker/“tennent” drama. I ended up having to sell my house since one roommate moved out, and another litterally has been living Scott free and won’t get a job, so I pretty much can’t afford my bills and Morgage anymore. I have her the move out day, talked to a few cash buyers and started moving out to my moms. With the money I could get from my house I could be dept free again and get a down deposit for a house in the future. This was October.

Well my coworker, who was about to get kicked out of the house where she lives because landlord was selling, didn’t have anywhere to go and didn’t have a car. I was driving her to work and back for some time now. Every now and then she’d get me a drink, this was fine. She kept saying she at least needed a car cause she would probably be living in it. I hesitated to let her stay at my house because one I had cats and a dog that freeroams, two she has a history. With an abusive druggatic dude, who when she broke up with him the first time came crying to me, no where to stay, no family that talks to her, so I asked my mom if she could stay there. She said yes, just until she gets on her feet. My mom only charged her like $300, and was going to give half back to her when she moved out. Well she got comfortable. Was there for months. Started sneaking boys in when my mom told her she was uncomfortable with that. At one point she totaled her car, and I was driving her to work. Occasional gas money but I told her save up for her car. Well she got comfortable with that, and months went by, no car either. My dad gets sick, I’m not only driving her but I’m also visiting my dad so I’m barely home. I finally told her I can’t drive her anymore it’s too much. She throws a hissy, ends up after a week or two of ubering (since my coworkers caught on to her game) that she needed to actually purchase a car (couldn’t from dealer because her at the time ex boyfriend had her co-sign for her car and refused to take it off).

And then, I found out she was back together with the abusive, unstable ex who had threatened people with guns. She had him coming over to my mother’s house! The biggest rule was not to invite him! So I got pissed told my mom, and she kicked her out. She was more than generous and let her stay a month or two longer since she begged she couldn’t find a place.

Fast ford to new house, she breaks up with him, he ends up stalking her through multiple apps, she finally seems like she’s seeing the light, so come October when she asked me if she could stay at my place she would pay I said yes, only until I could sell it. I needed to sell it. I actually ended up moving in with my mom completely because I knew living with her would be no good. My other roommate is supposed to be out in November. Coworker approaches roommate, told her she could stay as long as she (roommate, no job but had a car) would drive her to/from work. Honestly worked for me because I didn’t have to go out of my way to drive her.

So I try going through open house to sell, which lowballs. She’s fine staying there so I didn’t push it, figured as long as someone is paying I’m not getting too much further behind. So I’ll try a realtor now, because now it isn’t so urgent. Realtor says won’t sell until new year. I tell them if they want to stay, they can. They do. Then, coworker ask me if I could just rent it out to her, I said no I need to sell. She says what if she doubles what she’s paying me (which would cover my Morgage and utilities). She then proceeds to tell me this MF ex MOVED IN WITH HER. She knows how I feel about him, I’m livid, this is my house. But at this point I can’t sell yet. She says just until she gets a car. I say ok. Stupidly. But I also felt a little relief with the bills being paid on a house I wasn’t even living in.

January happens, her dad dies. She gets money. Gets a car. She said whenever I want to sell I am good she can find her own place. I said ok, gave eviction notice to roommate to be out by end of February, and start looking at my options. Coworker then asks me if I will just keep renting the house out to her, I said no. I’m selling. She can stay until closing if she wants. She does. So I met with realtor end of February, she tells me I need to do xyz to get ready. Ok, it’s going to be work. She wants to go live on the 23rd, soft opening on 9th, I need to get front yard fixed. However, roommate with no job then tells me the moving fell through she’ll be out but needs to get her stuff the following week. Ok. She’s going to get a moving company. Ok. I had offered to load her stuff on the trailer and drive it somewhere. The day the moving company is supposed to come she texts me she can’t afford it so can I help her move. At this point I need her out, I need the house clean. So first weekend I’m moving her out. And trying to clean up the yard. I work 5 days a week, so weekends are the only time I’m able to really do stuff. I tell coworker I need to do xyz, and when the open house will be (next weekend supposedly), and I was pretty much doing it by myself cause I well I didn’t want to ask her. So I have been over there every weekend since, and took Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday off so I could work on things. Well Tuesday I didn’t do anything, Thursday I came over later in the afternoon, and Friday I came over in the afternoon because I didn’t want to go in the house by myself with the boyfriend. One day I say cigarettes in the front yard, with burnt mulch. I was pissed! The house could have caught on fire, how irresponsible. She still says “it’s just dead mulch and we picked the cigarette butts up”. Do you not get it the house could have cause on fire??? If you left and didn’t notice the fire, the house would have been gone. She doesn’t. Just like she doesn’t get the reason why my mom was pissed was not just about boyfriend, but because she literally lied to my moms face??

So I’m over there cleaning yesterday, all day cause shits got to get done, she stays in her room. Ok that’s fine. I get the front door painted, run to Home Depot to grab some things, but it ends up being more than just one run. So I come back later than I intended, put some blinds up, clean up some, say I’ll be back tomorrow.

Then I get a text, “can you chill with the cleaning I need my personal time you’re over here too much and I’m starting to get pissed” Fucking excuse me??? I’m trying to sell the fucking house. She states I’m rude for having strangers in around her stuff, when she paid for this month in full, and even that I said I had a little extra money in that account that must mean I’m getting extra “but I’ll probably never see that money”.. I’m beyond pissed. Am I really the fucking asshole here? She says I should never agree to let her stay there. Excuse me??? You’re damn right I shouldn’t have. The extra money I put in that account, her “full payment” covers everything with maybe $25 to spare.

I basically told her to gtfo by next weekend and I’ll give her 1/4 of her rent back. I don’t even care. Now I’m postponing everything with the house because this fucking bitch right here. And I can see her smirking because she’s got her way.

She’s also supposed to get her childhood house back but in August, she has asked me before if she could stay until then. I said no. I know this is why she’s fucking pissed. She said I’m pissed cause I’m not getting what I want for the house. Guess what? That’s absolutely not. I’ll be getting what I want.

Guess what sweetie, ain’t no one is going to help you now when you break up with your boyfriend again.

#vent

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Yeah so my friend had given me these gummies and like I thought it would help me sleep since I’ve been having pretty bad insomnia lately but nooope not only did I spend the majority of the first hr or so dissociating but it like amplified my pain in my body to an almost unbearable level and I couldn’t sleep and I was dizzy as fuck my body was heavy so I couldn’t really move JC that was just awful all I could do was just lay in bed until it work off 🙃

I thought this shit was supposed to be relaxing??

#personal

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So this brad decided last night that he wanted to get at UTI, and had spent a great deal in the litter box voiding a small amount of urine each time both last night and this morning.

I took him into work to get bloodwork/urinalysis, but the brad had peed himself every time we went to try and get urine.

I mean, at least he’s urinating and but blocked, right?

#why do they all have to have vet visits at the same time #Earl Grey #cat

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🙃

#dogblr #luna #my dog #whyyy dog #apbt

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She’s getting so much braver 🥺

#dogblr #luna #my dog #nervous dog #apbt

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🤦‍♀️ we were a month post mast cell removal and then she went and did this. I have an appointment at the dental specialist first week in September

#dogblr #my dog #luna #apbt #wallet dog #why you want to use up all my care credit

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Work days with my bff’s are the best days.

#dogblr #my dog #luna #rin #dogs #mix breed #apbt

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Lately I’ve been having wicked insomnia so that’s fun.

In other news means I have time and attention to binge watch Naruto Shippuden, which is wrecking my goddamn soul. Just finished battle between brothers arch. Who knew this show could be this deep.

#personal #mental health

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I may not be bringing home any ribbons, but I’m bringing home the biggest prize every time 🥰

She loves this game!

#dogblr #luna #my dog #agility dog #apbt #handsomedogs

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Got a new muzzle for this dummy. The other one was too narrow, and after the last visit where she was returned to me with the muzzle cranked on her face, I thought it’s time to get a decent one. I already smashed it a bit so it’s not too wide, I am going to have to add an extra nose band since her nose can just fit through the top bars lol. It doesn’t dig into her eyes like the last one would when she pushed forward though.

Muzzled since she’s a nervous girl without me at the vet and this will make everyone feel more comfortable, she is overly dramatic when it comes to pain, and so she doesn’t eat things like IV catheters out

#dogblr #luna #my dog #muzzled dog #muzzle training

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A month ago Luna went in to the vet to remove a mast cell tumor. Today she is pawing at her mouth as if something is stuck/bothering her, I think she chipped one of her teeth 🙃

Whyyyyyyy

Going to take her to work to see if we can get a better look.

I also retested Rin’s cortisol level, (she has Cushings) which are low so once again I’ll be changing up her dose. This is also fun. We have been doing this since December, my work vet is about to send me to internal med.

Sophie’s urine protein levels have risen, we just upped her medication, going to recheck her urine/protein levels to see if they have gone down (she has PLN), now that her sundowners is better controlled.

A few months ago Figs jumped on Luna when she was asleep under the covers, caused a chain reaction to where Luna shot up and slammed Figs into the wall, giving him head trauma and fucked up his elbow for a good few weeks. He’s better, now, thank god, just missing a few more brain cells. (I truly think it was an accident, Luna does not act aggressively towards the cats.)

I would like to have one month where I don’t have to do any testing or have any of my animals see the vet please.

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Hi I’m going to vent a little about myself because I don’t really have anywhere else to do so. So not dog related, scroll on.

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Turns out what I am is a “thing”, and that “thing” is aro/ace.

So, I have always been one to never really want to date, to “find someone”, always just liked being by myself. Thought there was something wrong with me, but when I’m like nope that’s just who I am, everyone told me I was wrong that it’s not human to not want romance.

And then I discovered aromantic, and I’m like yup that’s 1000% what I am.

Reading the definition of asexual, yup can relate big time. Never had a crush, not even on celebrities. Do I think some people look good? Yeah, sure. Am I attracted to them sexually? Nope, not at all. Do I desire sex? Nope, not really, just fine doing without TBH. I don’t like to be touched, really. Did I think that was just me with low libido and anxiety? Yeah.

But when I told some people about it, they don’t believe me- because I spent so long trying to “fit in” and “feel normal” saying “yeah, I’d hit that” and “oh he’s hot”. 🙃

That and it being a part of LGBT+, but I still don’t feel like I belong because I’m not technically “gay” and “love is love”, but like I’m loveless?

What a wonderful time to be self discovering.

#personal #aromantic #asexual #aroace

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When you discover that all your symptoms point to PCOS (which I was pretty sure I had before, i have excess hair, heavy/painful periods, hard to loose weight, lots of bloating; I just didn’t realize depression/anxiety, feeling drained all the time, extreme sugar cravings, high cholesterol, and acne were also part of it) so yay thinking a diagnosis will make everything better but then just discovering that the only thing your doctor can do for you is tell you to loose weight (PCOS causes weight gain and makes it hard to loose weight I’ve tried) and put you on metformin/birth control which probably won’t help and may just make other symptoms worse ☹️

What a time to be alive 🙃

In other news I’m going to just try an otc supplement that seems to have helped a lot of other women.

#personal #pcos

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When you think you’re only going to be at a trial for max 3hrs so you didn’t bring any food, and it’s been almost 5hrs and you’re still no where close to your second run 🙃

#if I would have known this I wouldn’t have signed up for the second trial #rally #I’m sooo hungry and concessions is closed #the itinerary said second run would be at 12:30 #so like 2hrs ago