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Reading the reckoning for the first time (surprisingly? Idk how I never found it before) and holy shit (/pos) I'm already attached to most of the characters we've met which is something that is weirdly difficult to do in a lot of stuff I've read.

AHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH!! ;o; im very glad you like it! that group is very near and dear to me

(shameless plug, go read the reckoning if you want to know the context behind this ask!)

#!!!!! #this

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wow. four years old huh. i'll keep this part short but sappy rant under the readmore! happy four years!!

it feels like just yesterday when i watched this series on a whim because my friend kept making jokes about my ocs with hlvrai quotes and then it was so funny and engaging that it pulled me out of a months-long depressive slump... feels like just yesterday that my work was finally being seen by people, yesterday that the summer of 2020 was one of the most interesting summers ive ever had, yesterday when the 2020-2021 school year ended up being one of the most difficult times of my life and hlvrai really helped me get through it. without exaggeration this series has changed my life

yeah we all may have had ups and downs, like a LOT of downs, but ill always consider hlvrai to be very special to me, not just because i love it but because it represents so many good things to me: friends joking around having fun, friends carrying their past experiences with them (gmod rping, an affinity for extensively-planned bits, jokes that could ONLY be made by rtvs with each other, you get it), and how the best things often come from happy accidents, from people who DARE to CARE, because hlvrai is good because theyre not afraid to be silly! theyre not afraid to be stupid and sincere and ridiculous!!

and the most inspiring part to me has always been that hlvrai wasnt made to chase any trends. it didnt come in the wake of anything, it was made, and then after it was made, rtvs pretty obviously made it clear that they wouldnt let their lightning-in-a-bottle series box them in. like everyone on the team is very strongly against ppl being parasocial to them, they dont let people beg them for the funny half life info and references, all that. as a creator its cool to see people doing what they love and not succumbing to any pressure algorithmically or otherwise, especially during the lockdowns, when a lot of other streamer-based fandoms cropped up that had a VERY big 'encouraging being parasocial' problem. its always been nice to have a web series thats just one of many awesome things rtvs has done

hlvrai was everything i could have ever asked for and more, and me myself i was perfectly content with just having the standalone series forever, because sometimes a standalone thing is all you need. but with hlage, bbvrai, and hl2vrai being announced, im still so happy to be here and so happy that i get to keep enjoying one of my favourite pieces of media <3

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Idc if we get "in trouble" again, reposting from a pro-end0

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sending love to systems with fictives that would get them fakeclaimed

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RELATABLE. I had a mini panic attack immediately BEFORE the spamton sweepstakes started because I was so hyped for it and had it pulled up ready to play (completely unaware rtvs was involved) only to get a pop up saying rtvs was steaming and panicked trying to both, find a charged second device to watch both streams on, download the rtvs stream and figure out what nonsense was happening in the static they were airing, possibly decode the static if there was a core in there AND participate in the sweepstakes.

I think when the rtvs stream ended and spamton started and I realized it was one thing and not two events I had to pay attention to simultaneously I was so relieved I nearly walked away from it all and gave up in participating.

YOU HAVE MY CONDOLENCES. spamton claims another.

also this was you.

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What is with these guys and putting blindfolds on their pokemon?

#ough #ur art is amazing every time #its witchcraft at this point

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You're valid even if you don't remember your trauma.

You're valid if you don't want to work on full integration.

You're valid even if you still live with your abuser.

Even if you are introject heavy.

Even if you have an incredibly large headcount.

Even if you do not have introjects or very few introjects.

Even if you have a small headcount.

Even if you never know who's fronting.

Even if you do not switch much.

Even if you switch a lot.

Even if you think your trauma wasnt that bad.

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Being an exclusively mobile user watching mutuals talk about changing their theme makes me feel like a witness to the emperor's new clothes

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The new cable

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spamton sweepstakes is actually so scary thats the one stream i refuse to watch on principle. something evil and cursed will happen to me. i am so serious. (not really). ive said on my blog before how i got real-life cursed by spamton because when chapter 2 came out my computer was crashing and shit because of spamton related activities. i BRICKED a computer trying to upload a deltarune playthrough for my friends. i literally had NOSEBLEEDS and ive never had those before in my LIFE. each time spamton related. if i watch the spamton sweepstakes ever my head might literally just explode

#spampton really said fuck you in particular

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My dad’s name is Kermit so he thinks it’s funny to post things like this

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Small joys on Tumblr:

When your notes make a perfect cat

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Its always "support alters with problematic sources" up until an alter has a genuinely problematic source.

Dont be a bully. Stop shaming alters for their sources. It's not okay and it's not productive.

-Rhodney (he/she/xe)

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Happy 13th Birthday to Portal 2

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Very excited to fully return, I have literally my second biggest project ever this year that could potentially become the biggest I’m so excited

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your rewrite henry and joey gives off doomed yaoi to me sorry you can kill me with hammers now

they def are. literally the first game in my rewrite is all abt henry trying to find joey + save him to no avail

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She went on my visit till I friend

#Whag