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What’s that line from Moana?  Something something, the journey may leave a scar?  Yeah… That.

#oh my god we're bringing Moana into this huh / lh #Moana HURTS me in the best way and so does this and so does that lyric applied to Jon's journey omg #i love them both so much #and i love all the details in your art #just so lovely and wonderful #thank you for sharing this #<333 #cw bare chest

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season 1 relisten doodle dump!! (plus closeups)

i love how i said i was artblocked and proceeded to fill a whole page (that’s one way to fight it ig)

#martin dropping the worms i'm screaming adjska #i loveee #cw blood

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have some original archives crew pride icons! just 4 funsies, free to use (preferably with credit) :] I’m also taking requests for mix-n-match characters + other flags not included here, so if you want something particular, just send me an ask! 

[ID: eight icons of Jon, Martin, Tim and Sasha busts on painted pride flag backgrounds - two of each. Jon is a person with brown skin, dark grey-streaked hair tied back messily, facial hair, dark umber eyes and square glasses with chains, wearing a turtleneck. The left icon features the bi flag; the right features the ace flag. Martin is a pale man with curly light brown hair, freckles, round glasses, slight facial hair and doe-brown eyes, wearing a coloured-and-white raglan t-shirt. The left icon features the rainbow flag; the right features the trans flag. Tim is a man with tawny beige skin, straight dark hair, chocolate brown eyes, a tuft of facial hair and piercings in his eyebrow and ear, wearing a plain dress shirt. The left icon features the trans flag; the right features the bi flag. Sasha is a person with lighter brown skin, long brown hair, freckles, dark brown eyes and round glasses, wearing a cream cardigan over a coloured shirt. The left icon features the nonbinary flag; the right features the aromantic flag. End description.]

#i love themmm

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After the Circus

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Jon has a bad time after getting away from the Circus.

cw: strained friendships, arguing, fainting, dizziness, trauma, references to Jon’s getting covered in lotion, disassociation

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#He can’t justify untangling Jon’s hair while Jon dozes fitfully so he simply pretends he didn’t do it. #THIS LINE #FUCK #MY EMOTIONS #OUCH #god this is incredible #also Tim's anger at Jon being taking by the circus? #it's so so good #i love it so much #the way Tim is thinking of all these reasons why he cares #when we all know the real reason #there is so much emotion in this piece #and god Jon going through it :'((( #i would like to take care of him!!!! #gah this was brilliant #thank you so much for writing this #and sharing it #<333 #cw disassociation #cw fainting #cw flashbacks #cw strained friendships #cw arguing

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Okay so.  Like please ignore that I didn’t know how canes work when I drew this like a month ago.  But like.  Smoothies and some sweet sweet communication for you all.  Hopefully I have the time to properly draw again soon…

#SMOOOOOOOTHIESSSSS #love is stored in the smoothie #i love the painting in the background !!! #also Tim's posture is so good i cry #the way i can FEEL him closing himself off to jon's offer #while at the same time the urge to reach back is still there #and Jon's hesitance #god the emotions here #i am emotional about jontim tonight #when am i not emotional about jontim #love this so much #thank you for sharing #<3

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It’s about the longing.  

#THEIR LIL BLUSHES #I LOVE THEM #this is adorable #my mind is placing this in like s3 #they both know but also don't know about their feelings #the feelings are there but feelings are hard #sorry if i am way off the mark #i just love your art Jasper #it always makes me wanna write and create scenarios and stuff in my mind #because it's so expressive and imaginative #i love this!!! #thank you for sharing <3

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A moment of quiet.

What should be peace is measured only in the steady breaths of his husband, curled up on the bed beside him, completely spent in every sense of the word.

Quiet, perhaps. But the static and cruel thoughts filling Martin's mind are loud enough to spill over into Jon's consciousness--whether from the remains of the Eye, or from his own intuition, he is no longer sure. He allows himself the comfort of feeling the warmth of Martin's back where his hand rests gently upon it, feeling the slow rise and fall, in and out, in and out. There, warm, present, alive. Breathing. Being.

Nearly thirty minutes pass this way, Jon trying desperately to hold back from the temptation of listening to what Martin's mind was telling him. What the voices he sometimes physically heard were screaming of his worthlessness, uselessness, nonexistence. Jon manages to pull the strength from somewhere to quiet the pull of the Eye, still so starving to Know others' misery even in its weakness.

Stop. Not him. Never him.

A slight movement, change in breathing pattern alerts Jon to the presence of Martin's hand reaching for his, slow, exhausted. But reaching. He takes it at once, of course. Always.

"Sorry," he whispers, barely audible, throat rasping with the disuse of the past month. Jon can feel his heart threatening to burst right then and there--but pulls it together. For him. He can have a moment for himself later, alone. No one watching.

"Nothing to be sorry for, dear heart," he assures, lifting Martin's hand up to his lips, before pressing another kiss against his temple. Salt fills his senses--the damned Lonely again, or the tears slipping down his wan and thinning face, Jon cannot be sure. He's not sure there is really a difference anymore. At least not for Martin.

"I'm here. You're safe, we're safe, we are here together." A squeeze against his hand lends Jon the assurance that his words still ring true. Even after everything. Always.

#oh connor this is so wonderful #the idea of Jon being able to hear some of Martin's most intimate and cruel thoughts about himself #or rather how the Eye forces him to bear witness #and how Jon resists--because it is love that is driving him #to know but also to given Martin the time and space he needs #just so well done #you capture so much complexity and kindness in their relationship #I am in awe #He can have a moment for himself later alone. No one watching. #this line made me cry #the sense of Jon's loneliness and heartbreak #but how he pushes through for Martin #and oh Martin MARTIN i could talk about Martin forever #i love him so much and you write him so incredibly well #your Martin is very dear to my heart #and every headcanon you have for him is just spot on #and this is such a compassionate portrayal of his experience #and i love that #and i love you #and i love that i'm going to reread this a billion times #thank you so much for sharing <333 #cw depression

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The boys… they… the cuddle.  

#CUDDLES WITH THE LADS #ITS WHAT THEY DESERVE #sick tim i am soft #also the gatroade (?) on the table #sorry i don't have a clue how to spell that #i just love the realism it brings to this piece #and the little umbrella in the glass #like yes make that energy drink classy #sick tim is still stylish tim #martin and jon's expressions are so cute #i love the pillow/blanket fort they've got going on #truly wonderful #DOES JON HAVE A CAT STICKER ON HIS CANE??!!!! #such a lovely beautiful martin #so friendshaped #i would like to hug him #thank you so much for sharing this i love it #<3333

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Sometimes a book about space found families pulls your feelings out of you and you gotta draw fictional characters sitting in a garden with those feelings.  So here is Jon with a nice cup of tea that Martin made him having a lot of feelings, either in Scotland or somewhere else.  

#the colours here are so serene and calming omg!!!!!! #i love the lilac #i would like Jon's blanket #also the fence and the grass and everything is just so well textured #and the sunflowers!!!!! god i love sunflowers!!!!! #this is so beautiful #i love it so so much you are so talented #thank you for sharing this <333

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Please have some Jonmartim cuddles

#i love themmmmm

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I wish I had something other than a like 45 minute scribble to give you this fine fine Friday.

#this friday just gone way finer!!!!! #LOOK AT THEM #ACE RING #i am so so soft for ace rings #also i love the poses here #they look so natural and sweet and tender and also a little urgent and intense and desperate #all the emotions of a good kiss #god i love your martin #and your jon #jon's hair is just wonderful #forever jealous of martin's very lovely looking jumpers #this is wonderful Jasper #thank you for sharing <333

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On the train to Scotland.  

#I LOVE THIS #I HAVE SUCH A SOFT SPOT FOR THEIR JOURNEY TO LONDON #and god both of their expressions #hold each other!!!!!!!!!! #poor martin looks cold :(((( #i LOVE the way you represent how they're feeling through their body language #it's so visceral!!!! #i can FEEL the emotions in this so strongly #and Jon's pose is just excellent #Jon with headphones on yes YES #i relate very much #also cane user Jon my beloved #this is just wonderful Jasper #thank you for sharing this #<333

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This is all I have to offer you.  

#I LOVE THIS POSE #I LOVE THE BEDROOM #I LOVE THE MUG #I LOVE JON'S SOCKS #I LOVE JON'S HOODIE #I LOVE JON #I LOVE MARTIN #SO SO MUCH #I APPRECIATE YOUR MARTIN HE IS VERY DEAR TO ME #jasper this is just so lovely #i love the polaroids in the background too #their bedroom just feels so incredibly well realised #it's so homely and it has so much heart #it feels lived in #god i love this #thank you for sharing this my friend #<333

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Y’all...post canon Jonmartin having a child a few years down the road..I’m soft

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S1 doodles feat. probably the cutest martin ive ever drawn????

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s4 martin my beloved (from this)

(id in alt text)

#the jumper 🤣