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honestly there’s something so inherently beautiful about your first internet friendships. like. if i had never joined that discord server on that random nameless tuesday we never would have met at all. we used to talk for hours every single day. this is the first time i have spoken to you in months, and yet it feels like we never stopped talking at all. you were the first person to wish me happy birthday when i turned 18, you cheered me on the first time i ever said “fuck,” you comforted me through memes when i was anxious. you are a constant thought in my mind. i read our old dms weekly and laugh until i can hardly breathe. even if i were to never speak to you again i will always look upon screenshots of old conversations with a smile. we were just kids when we met and now we’re all grown up. life since meeting you has been a little brighter than it used to be. you are my best friend. you are my other half. i love you. wait why are you awake isn’t it 4am your time zone

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good heavens

this was a request from ko-fi! if you'd like to send in a request, shoot me a $5 donation on ko-fi with the name of a pokemon or animal crossing villager of your choice & i'll draw it!

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Parkway Drive - Glitch

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we've been living in this apartment for two months now, and while we've observed most of our new neighbours (my slavic Windowsill Watcher Grandmother gene already activated), I don't think they had the chance to see us often enough to recognise us yet.

I do know, however, from my observations, that the tiny funny dog upstairs is called Gucio. I've passed him once or twice during his walk and heard his owners use the name - and, while both the dog and his owners are oblivious to our existence, Gucio became an apt topic of discussion in our house. you know, we hear barking, ha, that's Gucio, he must be home alone again! or there's a stick left by the building door, that must have been brought by Gucio and he was forced to abandon it before entering! a household name, really.

yesterday as I was leaving to go to the store, walking down the narrow staircase, there he is! tiny funny looking dog, slightly startled by me suddenly appearing on the floor he just reached on his tiny funny looking legs.

"good morning Gucio!" I say joyfully, the most natural thing in the world.

well. remember that Gucio doesn't really know me. so he looks at me in the most flabbergasted way a dog can look at a person. he is positively aghast. agog! not sure how aware dogs are of their own names but he seemed genuinely puzzled at the apparent stretch of social convention.

and as I try to contain my laughter, I see his owner standing on the stairs below. the woman is sort of awkwardly frozen, speechless, and she looks at me.

"you... know each other?" she asks.

is that not the funniest way to phrase it. is this not the funniest question she could have asked. ma'am do you know my dog? you went to school together perhaps? you've met? do tell, are you old friends? maybe you worked together? you know each other, my dog and you? this dog? you know him? he knows you? he never mentioned you I'm afraid

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Howl's Moving Castle dir. Hayao Miyazaki | 2004

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Being mentally ill makes you so uninteresting like oh what do I do in my free time? Huh idk, just trying not to die I guess?

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hastily slapped this together in a few seconds

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google how to ask a good friend to hang out without embarrassment. google how to send text to friend without sounding like an insane weirdo whos never talked to another human being before. google how to text like a normal person. wikihow to talk to anyone

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the idealized version of my tomorrow self will fix this

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She’s spotted you.