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I'm so jealous of them </3

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first thought of the day

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Excuses for not eating in the comments below

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i wish i had known that being in your twenties came with so much loneliness

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I hate being in that mood where nothing’s really wrong but nothing feels right either

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seriously it isn’t fair that alcohol has calories…

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my mom 3 weeks ago: didn’t you gain weight?

my mom today: you are in a good shape now, all the running shows…

unfortunately my weight didn’t really change in these 3 weeks and i’m super confused like am i fat or not then?! (the answer is yes i’m fat)

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don’t try eating less.

eat less.

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i didn’t think i’ll ever be this low in life and high in weight again…

i want to go back to the middle of february when i was at my low weight and kind of looked skinny

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i’m frustrated because i barely lost weight… i mean i wasn’t in a huge calorie deficit but still i was binging a lot in march, april, may and june and i finally broke that cycle and i’m at a deficit of 1300 calories in july

also it’s 2pm and i ate 989 calories which feels like a binge because i’m going on a dinner date later today

i feel like such a failure :(

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i had less than 300 calories today, it’s been wayyyy too long since i’ve had this little but it feels good to be back

it might have helped me to play ping pong instead of eating pizza in the evening and the fact that some random guy thought i was 14 weeks pregnant… it really didn’t do any good for my self-esteem

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i cannot tell you how frustrated i am about my weight

i was doing great and then i started losing control and gained back a lot

i’m really anxious because i’m going on a trip in 2 weeks and my bikini body is far from ready for this summer…

also my sister has been mentioning a lot lately that she lost a little weight and her belly is flatter… i mean good for her but i just feel worse because i gained weight in the meantime

today i was stressed before meeting my family because i was afraid my mom was gonna point out that i gained a few pounds

i’m gonna try really hard to get my shit together and stop eating like a pig

#skinny #ed #binging #disordered eating tw

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whyyyy am i not skinnier????

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i just want everything to stop

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i hate myself so much rn

i was literally less than 2 lbs away from my gw in the middle of february and then university started again, i lost my self control again and here i am weighing the same as i was in the beginning of january

why did i binge a lot? why couldn’t i just eat my maintenance calories exactly?!

oh and the punchline is that i suck at the university stuff as well