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I used to get all my calories from coffee and cream. I miss that girl. With all that self-control.

#just ana shit #anor3x14 #eating disoder things #low cal ana

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i have no self control and it's disgusting. i need to get ahold of myself and not be god damn pig

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Nice I'll try too ❣️

500 calories for 5 days

let's see if I can do this

day 1:

day 2:

day 3:

day 4:

day 5:

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me fasting: I don’t wanna do this

me binging: I don’t wanna do this

me restricting: I don’t wanna do this

me eating like a normal person: I don’t wanna do this

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As soon as September hits the eating disorder starts disordering like it’s supposed to every year. Anyone else feel the same way

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Down another 2lbs. That’s down 28lbs overall I’m even on my period

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i hate when ppl ask to hang out like, no i have to lose 50 lbs first.

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I think the thing that’s been keeping me going the most is curiosity. I have never been skinny. I have no idea what I’ll look like. I’ve never seen my legs smaller than a size six. I don’t know the shape of my own bones. I don’t know my own body, but I want to. I want to see the girl hidden beneath the fat. The girl that everyone adores.

I will see her someday

Because someday I’ll be her

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Think about Christmas.

Think about how skinny you will be if you continue your diet. Dont give up, don’t keep saying you’ll start tomorrow, don’t eat out of boredom. Because at Christmas time when you put on your fancy outfit for the annual Christmas dinner and it’s too loose, it’ll all be worth it. When you see relatives you haven’t seen in a while and they comment on how much weight you lost, it’ll be worth it. When you look good in every picture your family takes of you by the tree, it’ll be worth it. When you’ll finally have an excuse on why you’re cold, it’ll be worth it. When you finally allow yourself to have an extra few calories as a gift to yourself, it’ll be worth it because you would have earned it, even if it scares you, you won’t get fat and gain all the weight back by having and extra bite of your favourite Christmas food. All your hard work will finally pay off and you will look so small and dainty. So stop giving into temptations and stop putting off your diet. Food will never satisfy you the way skinny will.

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Please reblog if you have an ED and are 18+. I feel like a creeper following minors

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psa to my lovely followers

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ed tumblr is literally my double life. like my friends and family have no idea that i come on here to look for motivation to literally starve myself. i feel like hannah montana but with an eating disorder.

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Before You Binge

you're allowed to binge ... if you do all of these steps first

chug 1l of water

drink a cup of peppermint tea

and a cup of green tea

and a cup of hot lemon water

brush ur teeth

run up and down the stairs five times

do 20 jumping jacks

do 20 squats

do 20 prayer pulses

do 20 butt kicks

follow a lazy girl workout video

go for a 15-20 min walk

watch an episode of supersized vs superskinny, my 600lb life, freaky eaters, or a trisha paytas or nikocado avocado mukbang

put a face mask on

read a chapter of a book

read 5 more chapters of the book

finish the book

do duolingo lessons until you run out of hearts. then do practice lessons until you regain the hearts you lost

watch a disney movie

then watch a ghibli movie

watch an episode of that show you'd always meant to watch but never got around to

work on journalling, creative writing, or writing poetry

do some stretches

practice a hobby that keeps your hands busy, like knitting, gaming, or playing an instrument

paint your nails

watch a fashion show

watch media with a celebrity whose body you consider to be goals, like music videos/live performances for singers and movies/TV shows for actresses

watch interviews with aforementioned celebrities

start taking a free course on coursera.org, there are some you can complete in a couple of hours. or you can take a longer course and just do a lesson each time you feel the urge to binge

do a workout that's 40 mins or longer

shower for 20 mins with music

put lotion on your entire body

do the chores you've been ignoring

read an article about the effects of hunger on the body

drink another litre of water

and a pot of herbal tea

watch a documentary

watch a ted talk

you are probably tired after all this, so take a nap for half an hour or longer

if you still feel like binging, honestly, you earned it

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This kills me. Logically, I know it wasn't.

But mental illness-ly I think it might be

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I f*cking hate the holidays. It's just a lot of eating in front of people. It literally makes me want to end myself.

Sitting in front of all the food and trying not to panic. Hours of pretending I'm normal. I'm skipping December. I'm leaving and avoiding all events.

#pro for myself #eating disoder things #just ana shit #anorekcia #anor3x14 #eating disoder thoughts