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Im so fuckin mentally exhausted

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i wanna stab myself

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god someone pls take all the feelings away

it fucking hurts

it makes me wanna die everyday

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I have abandonment issues so i give "please don't leave me" head.

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Why do I always ruin everything?

All I want is for someone to understand me

For someone to love me for who I am

And for someone to take care of me

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Too many thoughts for one brain, too many anxieties for one heart.

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i will forever be a burden to anyone or anything i come into contact with

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I hate myself. I don't even know who I am anymore.

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i wonder what it's like to have a quiet mind

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don’t ask me if I’m okay.

don’t ask me what’s wrong.

I already told you. over and over.

Don’t make me be vunreable in front of you and then let me drown in the darkness alone again.

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I have bpd, of course I assume everyone is going to abandon me for no reason.

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i need to bang my head against the wall really hard until i pass out

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I was never so alone. Cut connection so I don't some people or they left because my mental issues got out of hand. Physicaly I am sitting all alone in the apartment for days. Alone in every possible way... It's so unbelievably painful.

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I wish I could erase my whole existence with a blink of an eye. So nobody gets hurt and I am finally redeemed.