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#i voted candy mountain because its most likely to randomly pop into my head #but half of these could very much be the answer

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#2 #one started in high school and lasted a bit over two years #the other started a few months later and is still going almost 12 years later #the idea of 'dating' terrifies me

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Greg's trying to finish up his dad's final tax return and we just couldn't find a few documents they needed, so I got to dig through paperwork this morning.

Good news - found the stuff we needed!

Less good news - also found the folder of paperwork from hospice. Did you know that they'll take a handprint of your loved one, like as a keepsake? Because I did and it was still a punch in the gut to open that folder and find it on top. Did not expect to be crying on this fine Saturday morning. But very glad I'm the one who had to go digging in that particular box.

I also got that same keepsake for a few different dogs before I learned that hospice does the same thing, so conceptually it makes me chuckle.

#grief #parent death

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A brief moment of rationality from the bird place.

#trying to be really intentional about this these days

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My boss was out today (and the next few days) but my coworker was feeling chatty so I got All The Tea this morning.

#apparently my boss doesnt have any previous hr experience? as a hr director? #she has general business and management experience but an art degree #and im just...not sure how to feel about that

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I'm feeling like a dog holding their own leash?

I'm like desperate to go somewhere, to plan a trip, to finish a project, to figure out how to retire early??

And I have an income again, and PTO I can actually use, and am part of a pension plan!

But im also afraid to actually plan anything because everything feels unstable after the last few years, like it would take so little to mess up any plans I do have. Spending a chunk of money feels so impractical even if it's on something that would bring a lot of joy.

And im just freaking exhausted, and can't bring myself to put effort into something that's gonna get canceled/not work out/take 30 years to get here.

#currently looking at a weekend in Chicago in October #and maybe spain in 2026 for that eclipse? #painting my bedroom #and being able to move to part time work at 60 #its giving manic responsibility

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5 year anniversary of the miette post \o/

#jail for mother

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Did a double date this morning at this coffee shop that does, like, educational coffee flights. Mine included a Macchiato, Cafe au Lait, and Latte all made with the same beans to highlight how different amounts of milk and foam affect the drink; there's one with the same beans brewed 3 different ways, and one that does 3 beans all brewed the same way.

Also a banana pudding waffle. 😋

All delicious but I have had so much caffeine this morning. 😳😳😳

#the place is so hipster #is that still a way we describe stuff? #the care applied to the coffee - the non standard food options - the art deco/industrial decor #i dont remember what hipster used to be but this place fits what i think of the term now #coffee

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#automatic and always #i used to drive a manual so i just got used to doing it

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Which of these magical items would you rather own? You can't sell, trade, or rent it. Also it's 100% guaranteed that the item will never get lost or break.

#dishes are the bane of my existence

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I went for a run! And did yoga! Like has been shuffled down my to-do list for like a week and a half! And it wasn't fun because I haven't stretched in a week and a half but it got done!

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My therapist asked me today if I feel like I'm getting back to the pre-covid me and that just feels like such a...ridiculous question. I feel more stable in my life than I have in a while (which i think is kind of what she was getting at), but I don't even remember who I was before. March 2020 was three jobs, a home purchase, a pandemic, and an incredible about of grief ago - I couldn't go back if I tried.

#not sure why thats sticking out so much to me

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Just went through a full-on negotiation with myself about doing the kitchen full of dishes tonight. 😬 Landed on starting the dishwasher and putting away the clean ones, and the rest can wait for tomorrow.

Was going to bake a thing, but that would involve cleaning the tools to do that, so it'll also wait for tomorrow.

#probably a coconut pistachio loaf but we'll see

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reblog to have good concert luck

#i just won tickets to a bucket list show so maybe my luck will rub off of someone

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I love this recipe, and the avocado I have for it tonight is perfectly ripe. 👌👌👌

#food

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#grew up in a rural area #live in a suburb/outskirts now #dont really deal well with not having green space and because-america #went from a college dorm to a suburb apartment to a suburb house only because of inheritance #love being able to get to a grocery store in less than 20 minutes unlike my parents house

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Between actual training time, travel time, and time spent squeezing in my real job duties that couldn't wait, I already have 38.5 hours on the clock this week. But I'm not allowed any overtime. So I get to go into the office for an hour and a half tomorrow and pray I can get close to caught up.