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djryefaith87 3 months
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Book of Job
On a day of where pain hits harder than I can count.
There's no limit no above amount.
I wanted to keep sleep first at 7 then another at 9.
Thought me getting extra sleep will be fine.
They were both signs to get up within spirit.
Anything else less I can feel it.
I was suppose to do my assign walk with God.
But a moment in flesh was lead to a nod.
I still try to push and share God's presence.
Only to feel ignored like a landlord to a tenant.
Offered food and then offered a mom's back.
Money first have to work those are the facts.
The book of Job wasn't an easy open knob.
The book of ryne trying to stay true in God's Job.
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djryefaith87 4 months
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Jobs
The things I ended up with to the things I have.
I put it on God first that's why it will last.
What's done is done and it's for my passed.
Now at last.
The reward is patient the reward is kind.
The reward is there all up in the day by day signs.
Gave me all of what I ask for and then some.
We are living proof that God is the one.
Our passed may sneak up on us at some point.
Went from liquor beer to rolling wraps and a joint.
Now I m high in God's faith taking it easy for once.
Not letting anything or anyone come between God.
Trying to get what is now my blessing on that level.
That level of what the lord says goes for both of us.
A level beyond crazy for both of us can trust.
Beyond our passed in living in sin or lust.
But with love patience kindness and longer bonds.
Elizabeth is her name it's starting in the book of jobs.
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djryefaith87 4 months
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Love loss last
God doesn't make mistakes.
I found a lust in first eye sight but wasn't looking.
Saw special when she started cooking.
For me that wasnt a normal thing in my life.
But little did I know she pave a way for christ.
Ways she didn't even know for it's taking days.
Never knew days like her birthday.
Then on the seventh year she came back.
Back into my life and found in sight of my heart.
Reputation and status kept us far apart.
But god kept her close and in the loop for love.
No matter my heart shattered I trust above.
I thought I loss her when the love wasn't the same.
But god gave me the book of jobs as an end game.
Giving up all the things I love to get twice as better.
It maybe be in my passed but he saved mini Lilly
For a love loss that will forever last.
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djryefaith87 4 months
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Sadly
I keep repeating failure in my head.
Not able to focus on God's blessings at bed.
Over eating rather than healthy fed.
I m being mind blown and hurt instead.
Maybe my best up to this point is my far worse.
I try to pray rather than curse.
Instead I m just speaking in third person more.
Love does hurt I m feeling it in my core.
Don't know what to do anymore for a tour.
Have my apartment for rich yet in the heart feel pour.
Thursday morning I ll end up being soar.
No matter if I give and give it seems nothing.
Even if I put effort am I real or putting zero into something.
No matter what happens here heart's are gonna run badly.
These frustrating times is just winded up sadly.
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djryefaith87 5 months
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Family
Blood to blood water to water ashes to ashes.
When someone is called upon the lord
Someone else's world come crashes.
I admit I ve done my wrong with no perfection.
But God has corrected me for my corrections.
No matter what you think of me I ll love you like death.
Forever with an unexpected expiration date.
My shoulders now loose from this pain weights.
The last time I was here Josh crashed down to his knees and I was next to Darius.
Darius I love you and pray for your family that's the status.
Not only him I love you all for hope that I see you not here again.
Forever peace and blessings keeping my sanity.
Everyone's here today that's meant now I know why we call family.
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djryefaith87 5 months
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Circle
It goes around and around.
Like a fast car engine sound.
I overthink tonight with an impression.
Is it really love or just over hype obsession.
I m left in confusion because I m trying to do right.
But no matter my efforts I m left with a mark bite.
I went from having the best 3 days to a sour morning.
Villain to someone else's story.
A women showing me love or just desperate?
Question worth of being affectionate.
God I need answers cause I don't know what to do.
Trying to see if I m not being made a fool.
But maybe my karma has sneaked in too.
One end for another end all passed in full circle.
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djryefaith87 5 months
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Burden
It moves without seeing it.
It comes in waves can't you feel it?
How can it come in waves if you can't see?
Because the faith of imagination with vibes
Is a mystery.
We fall we get up, we cry we side.
We let great things Pass us by.
Refers my "we" to "I".
The fact is we all can't get what I want.
That's the room for faith to grow to start.
People either want too much or want way less.
Then start to complain when ways don't manifest
I learn to love loss and grow from within.
Set myself with God than being anyone's burden
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djryefaith87 6 months
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Repressed
My mind going in and out like a fade out effect.
It's something in the air, things that animals can detect.
I haven't asked God why in a while.
Things making sense under file.
Creating videos but also mind stuck.
Trying to divide what is meant to what is must.
My eyes opening and closing for an awake escape.
A man with many hats that has proven himself.
But what if I need to start again for self worth.
Reminds me of days grabbing the bottle being depressed.
Forgive Me God as I have to repressed.
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djryefaith87 8 months
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Rewards
Pushing to my limits.
Out of shape is really starting to hit.
As I get older the more and more it will ache.
I can lay my hands all in God's grace.
For God sake.
I am the walk the path the edge of my own destiny.
But when in doubt of struggle I call in thee.
For my faith can not be undone thanks the lord above.
I know the battle test when I put my spirit gloves.
Trying to show men women and kids there's mercy.
From Lillian to Elizabeth to Jacob Joel and Percy.
There is unlimited love and patience when we fall.
Being human may give us that reason to pause.
When God is played let the blessings find its rewards.
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djryefaith87 8 months
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Contact
There was a time that I would of believed this.
Controlling my own fate who wouldn't believe it.
But then at a moments notice.
I loss all sight and heard the voices.
Loss it all and lost all my reality focus.
Sometimes fate does come in.
When you least expect it the double of sin.
All to set up your greatness for your destiny win.
I admit this month of July has taken a real turn.
What is meant to be and what is meant to learn.
I m just praying my decisions don't leave me burn.
Praying for stability of the mind with logical facts.
God is releasing who is meant to stay in contact.
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djryefaith87 9 months
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Learn
I ve been more sad than usual as of late.
I can feel the resentment of myself and the hate.
I did a hit up of old friends.
Didn't realize until left on read I was an end.
I m at a flash point of where I was.
Remembering the days I was in love.
Things that had meaning just because.
Then I became older and the wisdom came.
It hurts worse when you put faith in rain.
The rain being women in my case.
But nothing has been a waste.
Just waiting on my turn.
For now its not insanity of repeating the same thing
I learn.
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djryefaith87 9 months
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Twins
Father's day is a hard time for me.
My life would of been so different.
It would of took a major turn.
Being a parent I was too scared and now I m burn.
Once, I had a dad who cheated on my moms.
Next thing I know my sister is creating the close bond.
Can't help but feel left out with no proper curiosity.
Leave it to my dad and others they call it jealousy.
Now it seems the more I pray for the wife and seed.
I turned in my sacrifices with God to my own deed.
Don't know if I would of had boy girl twins.
A set of boys or girls.
Now I see in friends and family to be.
Franklyn and Indi are the ones who hold twins I see.
See, neither of them they arent near me.
Sadness just rolls with in my heart.
My kids would have been eleven no begin to start.
I gain God I win.
But what if I went ahead and had my kids my twins.
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djryefaith87 10 months
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Stuck
I know it's wrong to think this way.
End it end it end it the pain fade away.
Six months down in the year and it's been lessons.
Find myself more and more in God's confessions.
Repent but religion reminding me all of my faults.
One on one relationship with God spirit in taught.
Shows me ways that I wouldn't even dream of.
Warning me to do things earlier than waiting.
While teaching me patience in dating.
Still failing in pleasure sin.
Praying for the right wife to turn this loss for a win.
When I should be going to Jesus.
When I do at times I feel it's wrong for me believing.
A higher power and respect for all beliefs.
Feeling like Charlie brown oh good grief.
Everytime I take a look I m spirit struck.
God forgive me for me being human, I m stuck.
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djryefaith87 10 months
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Station
I stay near where people can't see.
Either futher away or they peek right through me.
I feel the wrath of God in my soul.
I broke bank Jesus broke gold.
Not that type of gold you buy.
That type of gold that leaves you blessed.
Where you just completely forget the rest.
Mother refuse to let me breathe out the nest.
No wonder why I m so into coat vest.
Because my sleeves can fly.
I rather the see you later than the goodbyes.
You will have a hard time when It's not seen.
I banking on blessings while your blinded by greens.
God lead me into and out of temptation.
Your grace is all I need for a station.
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djryefaith87 11 months
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Stranger
They stay looking pass me even when looking at me.
Can't hide with shades I can see.
It's like a cut when my skin bleeds.
I don't know what more to do.
With the people I once knew.
So I bless random ones who have no clue.
Just to make their day, what would God do?
For I have God in me like Jesus did.
God's in the heart that's why character is important.
Got to be careful some souls may get distorted.
Always advising me the souls settings of danger.
I look and pray on a stranger.
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djryefaith87 11 months
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Final Scene
I m feeling it tug in my heart meaning it's right.
It's time to let go of the scenes of the world goodnight
It will be a bus ride and it will be memories..
People's lives that I didn't take part.
That hurt me that I wasn't involved.
Then the ones I was involved.
Old people's in my life that I will include.
Then I will end it while I m riding on the bus in tears.
It's time to say goodbye to the thing I loved.
If it's meant for me again the camera will come from someone else's hand.
I ve been riding enough as a one man band.
It is what it is its time for the final scene.
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djryefaith87 11 months
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Mix
So much bonded emotion.
Flow the flow I m gather by its potion.
Never stop for what is meant.
What is meant is what is sent.
Sometimes you can't see it.
Sometimes you can't pin point it.
But you know its there cause of its wrath.
I got teary eyed while eating and taking a bath.
More like a shower cause I m of age.
I m learning that everyone has a wage.
Just looking forward for my on stage.
Feel it getting closer for last licks.
The fix is in the mind and heart when it's mix.
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