delicatenerdbluebird

[delicatenerdbluebird]

Sums up my life pretty much rn

“You sensed that you should be following a different path, a more ambitious one, you felt that you were destined for other things but you had no idea how to achieve them and in your misery, you began to hate everything around you.”

― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Netochka Nezvanova

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"Some things are too terrible to grasp at once. Other things — naked, sputtering, indelible in their horror — are too terrible to really ever grasp at all. It is only later, in solitude, in memory, that the realization dawns: when the ashes are cold; when the mourners have departed; when one looks around and finds oneself — quite to one's surprise — in an entirely different world."

— The Secret History, Donna Tartt

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Read, read, read. Read everything -- trash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the master. Read! You'll absorb it. Then write. If it's good, you'll find out. If it's not, throw it out of the window.

— William Faulkner.

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A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness.

Robert Frost

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my brain can't comprehend that there are people who don't listen to music every day, or at least often. what do you mean?? do you just walk somewhere and instead of listening to music... you think?

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surely life cant only be the same unresolved thoughts forever

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Your secret is safe with me (i dissociated mid sentence and didn’t hear a thing you said)

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no no no, it’s totally fine—will you excuse me for a moment? (steps outside to shriek and sob)

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I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE!!! continues not only living like this but in fact gets actively worse with time

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Im gonna shuffle my giant playlist of every song i like and if the very first one that plays isnt exactly what i want to hear right this second im gna lose it

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i wish i were rich because that way i could comtinue being Insane & Useless and it would be fine like not even a problem

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it's me and this feeling of emptiness against the world

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Sometimes I talk a lot and sometimes I don’t talk at all and somehow both are embarrassing

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love "et cetera" like... theres soooo much more. beyond your wildest imaginations. Not gonna tell u what tho. Move on

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you have to stay alive. you're going to be such a beautiful middle aged freak. young freaks will see you in the street and know that things can be okay.