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i’ve just started reacting to everything that happens as “wow i’m gayyyyyy”

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update: my friend approached him yesterday and said “are you single? because bean is too scared to ask” and i am currently curled into a ball on my floor because i went through the entire day today not knowing that he was told that

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he called me pretty today

#DEAD DYING DEAD FUCK

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hes grounded.

asking him if he wants to hang out next week wish me luck

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asking him if he wants to hang out next week wish me luck

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i try not to check my phone when i’m with my family but god i just want to read every text he sends me a million times over

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he says he’s never had a conversation like the ones he has with me,,,,,,

#god. he says just the right things.

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imagine like drawing your s/o’s hands,,,,,,like,,,,,,,,imagine just watching them carefully and taking that time to take in every detail, and when you’re done they’re like “are you finished yet” and you’re like “no” and then you just interlace their fingers with yours and when they laugh at you you’re like “no,,,,,,this is for a project you have to understand” and then squeeze their hand god i want a datemate /nsx

#NOT IN A KINKY WAY #i just want this intimacy ;-;

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There is something about hands.

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thinking about the casual intimacy of showing someone you love an unfinished work of art, the underlying message saying, i trust you with my unpolished heart

#unpolished heart. god. #nfjsndjfjkd

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when you want your two friends to date but they’re being idiots oh my fucking god get over yourselves and DAT E

#FUCK #JSDLKFIHGLDSKFJDSKLJFLDSJG

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“are you okay?” no bitch i’ll never experience a passionate romance like the ones you read in books

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holding hands with someone is one of the simplest and greatest things on earth. nothing else really matters honestly

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just want platonic cuddles. and a stable job.

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*kisses you very gently on the tip of your nose* hi

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i want a significant other, but then i realize that if i want to marry a girl/gnc/etc then i have to face my 3781573294329 korean relatives who will either 1) kill me for not inviting them to the wedding or 2) kill me for being gay or 3) will gossip to their friends about me and i want none of those

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what even IS this blog i cant even yearn properly here