deathbythinking

[deathbythinking]

04.03.2022

there is no greater prison

than my physical form

the knowledge that i will only ever experience this world

through my own two eyes

#no thoughts brain empty #spilled thoughts #grunge #lyrics #spilled poetry #poetry #aesthetic #dark grunge #excerpt from a book i'll never write #thoughts #love

[deathbythinking]

28.03.2022

for someone so afraid of wasting time

wasting oh so precious time

longing to fill every moment with purpose, productivity, growth

I’ve never met anyone so detached, apathetic

so devoured by the thoughts they’ve incarcerated in the depths of this prison which grants my a physical form

#spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #spilled poetry #Lyrics #Thoughts #detached #depressed #sad #grunge #depression #anxiety #introvert

[deathbythinking]

28.03.2022

My most destructive trait must be the flaming ambition running through my veins. An insatiable hunger, burning through my skin, never to be satisfied, no matter my achievements and their gravity. Always wanting more, always being better Always rational, exceptional Never human As there is no room for mistakes, no room for grief and exhaustion With time on earth so limited and so much left unexplored, I at all times must be everywhere with everyone, doing everything

#spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #Lyrics #poem #grunge #burned out #tired #perfectionist #stress

[deathbythinking]

14/03/22

I've never been worth more than a mouth full of lies

#no thoughts brain empty #spilled thoughts #lyrics #poetry #aesthetic #spilled poetry #dark grunge #excerpt from a book i'll never write #grunge #love

[deathbythinking]

02/03/22

And with grave certainty i can say, after your velvet hands gripped for my heart, and listened to every vessel snap, one by one, that love is nothing more than a blind jump into a field of knives, one cutting deeper than the other

as I felt every fiber of my being shaking, my lungs collapsing while I sat on the floor of the bathroom with you in bed, sound asleep

as every ounce of fluid escaped my body through my eyes, i realized I'd never belong

I will never get home, never get to safety

forever i will stay a ghost, a shadow of the potential i held, before everyone on earth stripped me out of my skin, until I was nothing more than a shadow

#poetry #spilled poetry #excerpt from a book i'll never write #love #lyrics #dark grunge #grunge #depression #heartbreak #spiled thoughts

[deathbythinking]

“I’ve found that growing up means being honest. About what I want. What I need. What I feel. Who I am.”

— Epiphany

[deathbythinking]

11.02.2022; 23.48

the touch of your skin feels as close to heaven as I might ever get

#spilled thoughts #love #i love her #love quotes #grunge #aesthetic #lyrics #poetry #spilled poetry #excerpts from my writing #excerpts from my journal #excerpt from a book i'll never write

[deathbythinking]

17.06.21

the romanticized scenarios in your head

make reality insufferable

#no thoughts brain empty #spilled thoughts #lyrics #grunge #poetry #spilled poetry #excerpts from my writing #excerpt from a book i'll never write #depression

[deathbythinking]

23.05.21

I'm too young

to be this afraid

of living

#grunge #poetry #lyrics #spilled poetry #aesthetic #no thoughts brain empty #spilled thoughts #anxiety #excerpts from my writing #excerpts from my journal #excerpt from a book i'll never write

[deathbythinking]

18.04

maybe indifferent

is the closest

I'll ever get

to inner peace

#lyrics #poetry #spilled poetry #grunge #no thoughts brain empty #thoughts #excerpts from my journal #excerpt from a book i'll never write #inner peace #aesthetic

[deathbythinking]

06.04.

your efforts to meet others standards, have led you to give crucial parts of yourself without end

is this lack of emotion

this endless monotony

the loss of who you could've been

the result of putting others before yourself?

#spilled emotions #spilled thoughts #spilled poetry #excerpts from my writing #excerpts from my journal #excerpt from a book i'll never write #poetry #lyrics #depression #no thoughts brain empty #empty mind

[deathbythinking]

06.04. // don't be in despair for something impossible to achieve

i think we're all damned to look for a sense of purpose, achievement, comfort for as long as our life goes. simultaneously we're damned to constantly be a part of things that are bound to have an end. you will only ever feel euphoric for a brief moment, until you realize, what caused it has passed, and will never occur in the same way again. this leads to starting something else, building your way from the bottom up, again. only to be met by the same brief feeling of warmth in the depth of your ribcage.

we've been conditioned to believe that we must always live in a way, that will at some point, if only for a brief moment, lead to happiness. which is why we are consumed by the task of finding it, no matter where, though what or who. we might've been better off, if we had made it our mission to live in comfort. the comfort of knowing you no one will ever rid you of this feeling, because you and you alone have caused it. although it might not be as pleasing as being filled with purpose after every essay, speech, show, book or conversation. life has potential to become easier, if only you realize that what you have could potentially become what you need, completing yourself could be enough. and maybe to be enough is all we need.

#spilled poetry #poetry #lyrics #thoughts #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #grunge #no thoughts brain empty #aesthetic #empty inside #depression #depressive #feelings #emotion #free #excerpts from my writing #excerpts from my journal #excerpt from a book i'll never write

[deathbythinking]

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#grunge #aesthetic #lyrics #poetry #spilled poetry #thoughts #distorted image #distorted reality #reality

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[deathbythinking]

28/09/20

where is the line between reality and imagination

where ?

? where ?

? where?? ?

?

#poetry #spilled poetry #lyrics #spiled thoughts #overthinking #poets on tumblr #poetic #poem #grungie #grunge #trippy art #aesthetic #reality #scared

[deathbythinking]

22/07/20 2:56

my mind is constantly plagued by the thought changing my mind,

of people accepting what I previously stated, only to have me take it back.

although the cause might be personal growth

and the outcome positive change,

I cannot bring myself far enough to believe my own perception of who I might be,

for the sole reason of it lacking others approval.

#poetry #spilled poetry #poets on tumblr #thoughts #lyrics #coming out #lgbt #denial

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