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You ever feel alone despite being in a room with people who love you?

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Sometimes I like to pretend I’m in The Twilight Zone to rationalize my anxiety.

#anxiety #mental health #twilight zone

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I feel hopeless a lot of the time. Anxiety keeps me up at night and I have one solid means of coping, but I suck at it. What I mean is I like to draw when anxiety creeps up, but I’m not talented. I’ve been drawing/practicing/studying for years and I feel as though I’ll never get better. I don’t see improvement and depression is blocking my creativity. I want to work in the gaming industry but with no skills that won’t happen. I know that if I tell myself I won’t get there that I won’t but how the hell do I break out of this.

#helpless #help #anxiety #ranting #sorry for the rant #mental health

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Just a mermaid

#mermaid #maid uniform #art #artistic

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Why does this bother me?

I don’t believe in heaven or hell. I don’t believe in God. I do believe, however; souls are recycled. Souls have a home after you die, but what about when there are no bodies left to inhabit. When the universe is dead and gone- where do the souls go. Sometimes I find it easier to imagine souls aren’t real so when we die it’s like nothing ever happened. There would be no consciousness and therefore nothing to worry about because none of this would matter when I’m dead. I won’t have memories, I won’t have thoughts, I won’t exist. I will be nothingness. Just like when it’s the end of everything. So why does it bother me. If one day everything will cease to exist, why do I care about it?

If you read all of that, thank you. Nobody ever wants to listen to me talk about this stuff, but I need to get it off my chest. Even if this is the most ridiculous thing you’ve ever read, thank you for reading it.

#religion #anxiety #the end #the universe #nature #speaking #my mind #in my head #sorry for the rant #ranting #tangent #philosophy #mental health #mental state #stress #thinkpositive

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You told me to stop thinking so far into the future. Now I don’t remember what I wanted or how to think happy thoughts. You asked me to stop so I did. I hope one day I’ll find my way back. Back to who I was.

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It’s such a far fetched life you try to spoon feed me. Little by little it gets more absurd. Everyday I believe in it less.

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The air is stale.

Inside and out.

I thought it would help.

Where has the magic gone.

The Happiness is now emptiness.

#anxiety #thoughts #in my head #original poem #i don’t know

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Does it ever.. get easier?

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Poe my beloved.

#cats of tumblr #cute cats #anxiety #feelgood

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I want to explore this world so big, but I cannot for fear it wouldn’t fit in my pocket.

#i don’t know #i am lost #finding my way #anxiety

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My days are dark and my nights are filled with blue light. My chest is boiling full of emotion; but, in the end I am just a microscopic being spinning on a rock in the cosmos.

#anxiety #mental health #too small

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Of course one day I’m going to die, but why obsess over it? Happier days call for happy thoughts- at least that’s what I tell myself.

#anxiety #anxious #mentalwellness #late night thoughts #mental health

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#NFTumblcryptids

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You know...

They say the universe is ever expanding. Surely I am not the only one who finds that truly terrifying. 

#anxiety #anxious #late night thoughts #universe