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…. I literally needed this so badly ten hours ago

My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.

I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think “Well, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot more” so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that “10” is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said “6” because I thought “Well, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.”

#medical stuff #cozy reblog

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Multiple ekgs, blood tests, a urine test, a chest x-ray, and nine hours later and they still don’t know what’s wrong with me 😁

But they’re pretty sure I’m not dying so they said I could go home and honestly that’s all I care about at this point

#I have not eaten since 8pm yesterday #so going on 24 hours #😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 #i’m so tired #but I did get to text my boss and say that the reason i haven’t been able to respond for six hours was because i was in the er #so thwt was fun #medical stuff

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#honestly the lesson learned from today is that unless i’m actively bleeding out #the er is not worth it #the urgent care guy told me to go #but i’ve been here for five hours now and nothing has been accomplished #i haven’t eaten all day #i have such a horrible headache #i just want to go home so badly #at the point I’m not sure i even care if i’m dying #i know that i do but also i just want to go home so badly

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#baby boy #i love him so much #thor 1 loki #cozy reblog

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Four hours later: I finally have been called in from the ER waiting room

#still no doctor or anything though #I haven’t eaten all day #i feel so horrible #I want to go home #medical stuff

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Secret third thing: Taylor is the albatross, but is she truly a curse, or is that only what the public says? Because the albatross wasn’t originally a curse, remember — it was good luck! It was protecting them! It only became one when they killed it

“The Albatross” immediately made me think of “The Rime of the Ancient Mariner” by Samuel Taylor Coleridge — a ballad that tells the story of a ship that cursed itself when the captain shot and killed an albatross that had been helping to lead the ship out of danger. Samuel Taylor Coleridge was one of the early poets of the Romantic period, aka the Lake Poets that Taylor references on “the lakes.” I am fascinated by that potential connection. There’s room for some really cool plays on words and meanings, because there’s also the phrase “an albatross around your neck,” meaning a heavy burden that’s weighing you down (this comes from the poem actually — the Mariner who shot the albatross is forced to wear its corpse around his neck as punishment).

I’m just wondering, is the relationship the albatross, and if it is, is it the sacred kind or the burdensome kind? Taylor certainly did feel that it led her out of a very dangerous time in her life. Perhaps she has always thought it to be the former but now it’s starting to feel like the latter, but she’s afraid to “shoot it down” and end it because what if it is sacred? What if in doing so she’ll curse herself irrevocably? Or maybe she has ended it, and is struggling in the aftermath of its end and wondering if she did the right thing? And there’s also the Coleridge connection — she very much associated the Lake Poets with running away and disappearing with her muse, an idea that she had romanticized and held sacred in the past but that recently she seems to have rethought and realized isn’t how she wants to live her life. Maybe that’s the albatross — that lifestyle was once sacred to her (“sacred new beginnings that became my religion”), but something killed it and it became a burden hanging around her neck.

Much to think about.

#this song ended up being nothing like i expected #but i adore it so much #it might be top five on the album #taylor swift #cozy reblog

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having an anxiety disorder is so exhausting my brain just makes shit up and then I believe it for some reason ??

#welp this just described my entire existence #cozy reblog

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Just had to get a ckg and I must say that this is not how I imagined my first time showing my boobs to a man would go

#it’s fine he was very professional and i was mostly covered #but that was an experience #and they still don’t know what’s wrong with me which is fun #but at least they don’t think i’m having a heart attack #medical stuff #???

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

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Catching up on the whole watcher situation because I ironically stopped watching their channel regularly because I didn’t like how expensively produced their shows were compared to Buzzfeed Unsolved’s simplicity

#i didn’t have a problem with them changing the way they did things or anything #like it made sense that they would want to have a significant departure from their Buzzfeed style after leaving Buzzfeed #i just didn’t like it as much #so i would only watch occasionally if i needed something to listen to in the background #the fact that they are now trying to put their content behind a paywall #because production is so expensive #is wild to me #like imo the production actively made the show less enjoyable #why are you spending money you don’t have on it??? #idk it just makes me sad #like i know the YouTube documentarians i watch are probably going to end up doing videos on this #usually with those videos i’m the one from the outside looking in on some drama around a person i’ve never heard about before #but i was a fan of ryan and shane since high school #I have some of their Buzzfeed unsolved merch #it’s sad that people i looked up to turned out to be so out of touch on so many levels #watcher

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jackantonoff: TTPD is here

my favorite work we have made together / made in the most wild unhinged moment. all the pain distilled in this album and all the laughter that came out of it. will hold those days in the studio forever as the most inspiring of my life. i adore this album and the way it came together. ttpd FOREVER

1- the day we made down bad

2- fots day

3- florida

4- laura sisk forever

5- black dog

6- electric lady

7- i love you taylor!

love you @sharp_stick / @olijacobs1 / @jack_m_manning / @electricladystudios / @aarondessner / @heyjonlow / @florence / @postmalone / @mikeyfreedomhart / @esmith109 / @zemaudu / @hutchdrums / @mriddles / @serbangheneamixes

from 1989 to TTPD (x)

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jsyk it’s worth it to do absolutely wild things for your friends and loved ones. go out of your way to make people feel special. do something extra and unexpected. rejoice in the joy of making someone feel loved and seen. love can be painful but it can also be so, so fun.

#genuinely still crying over the fact that You Did That /pos #i love my friend so so so so much #lokislittlesigyn

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me after listening to the most emotionally devastating song I have ever heard because an even more upsetting one is about to start

#best summary of tonight i’ve seen #taylor swift #cozy reblog

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at least meredith isn't dead

#honestly my main takeaway at this point #catch me and my sister hysterically crying and laughing on her bedroom floor #but at least meredith isn’t dead

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TAYLOR SWIFT Fortnight Music Video Teaser (2024)

#i am so unwell #taylor swift #cozy reblog

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So I just saw a post by a random personal blog that said “don’t follow me if we never even had a conversation before” and?????? Not to be rude but literally what the fuck??????????

I’ve had people (non-pornbots) try to strike conversation out of nowhere in my DMs recently, and now I’m wondering if they were doing that because they wanted to follow me and thought they needed to interact first. I feel compelled to say, just in case, that it’s totally okay to follow this blog (or my side blog, for that matter) even if we’ve never talked before.

Also, I’m legit confused. Is this how follow culture works right now? It was worded like it’s common sense but is that really a thing?

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You could not pay me to listen to a new taylor album with someone else in the room…this is an independent activity

#this is entirely fair #but my first album listens will always be with my sister if it’s possible #red tv and midnights came out when i was away at college and it was not the same listening to them alone #red tv was especially hard because i was in a deep depression already but that’s another story #the energy listening to an album for the first time with my sister is absolutely unmatched #a high found nowhere else #but i don’t think i could listen with anyone else #my sister and i are on the same wavelength #i wouldn’t have that with anyone else #taylor swift #cozy reblog