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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#shame

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#cockroach tag #tagged for me #NEED NEED NEED NEED

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"We thought it was going that way from the very start of the first season. Neil Jordan, the creator of the show, denied it from the beginning but we were like "it's all over your writing man." It's in every single line, every single scene: these two are definitely in love with each other. So to me it's really a love story. It came as a natural progression I would say. I didn't judge the characters, it seemed very natural actually." — FRANÇOIS ARNAUD

#the borgias #FRANÇOIS KEEPING IT SO SO SO SO REAL #one touch of your hand and god comes rushing back

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Endlessly diabolical how you can't say words like rape and suicide uncensored without either being criticised by idiots or punished by conglomerates.

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transparent version of this post

#transparent tag #objects

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Today’s photograph was taken in Rome, Italy.

#ppl

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#ds9 #garashir #YOU COMMA GARAK

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GET WEIRD!

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ty @coffeeandorange for the tag 😌

3 ships you like: im not currently experiencing any shipping brainworms but since you did non-asoiaf ships i'll do asoiaf ships

1. BRIENNE AND JAIME NUMERO UNO ALEXA PLAY CHATEAU LOBBY #4 BY FATHER JOHN MISTY

2. thramsay. absolute blueprint of my life.

3. tyrion and bronn literally i could have taken you away from all this and it works regardless of who is saying it to who!!!

First ship ever: sparrabeth 😌

Last song you heard: something that i want from tangled which was on my upbeat spotify mix

Favourite childhood book: THE ENCHANTED FOREST CHRONICLES!!!! also Guardians of Gahoole, HDM, and The Sight... um. and asoiaf which i read when i was too young lol. but these are like CHILDhood favs like pre-preteens.

Currently reading: the subtle knife

Currently watching: just finished netflix's 3 body problem (eh) and hazbin hotel w my roommates (had way more fun than i expected to have, i rly like val + angel + husk)

Currently consuming: nothing atm but most recently a strawberry and nutella crêpe

Currently craving: i rly want a peach green tea w lychee jelly which is what i was gonna get after spotlight hour today but the place was closed 😭

#diary

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James Sant - The Novice - 1856

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Lucie de la Falaise for Yves Saint Laurent HC FW 1991

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#nbc hannibal #is a comedy

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V.E. Schwab, The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue

#😑

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A pike jumped out of the water likely chasing prey and got stuck in a branch and died. Now, a bird has made a nest in its mouth. One of the most interesting things I’ve seen.

#signs and portents

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A pike jumped out of the water likely chasing prey and got stuck in a branch and died. Now, a bird has made a nest in its mouth. One of the most interesting things I’ve seen.

#signs and portents

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if I forgot your favorite subgenre or misclassified a band feel free to argue in the replies 👍

#doom but not any of the example bands

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local man sincerely struggling to ration 32oz tub of vanilla greek yogurt over course of a week