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YuuMori has a lot of villains (it’s, y’know, about the villains). YuuMori has a lot of characters with mental illnesses and neurodivergences.

Most of the time when you see this combo, well. Mental health issues have a pretty strong stigma.  Usually the reason they’re evil. Something’s just wrong with them, and their mental health and inability to fit into society is another sign and symptom of it.

And yet, in YuuMori, we have these characters who call themselves demons, who are actively, intentionally, the villains of their story­—and their mental health issues are not one of their sins. They do not add to their villainy.

So Albert is obsessive-compulsive. Whether it’s OCD or OCPD can be argued, maybe (although I lean toward OCPD, myself), but he is in fact seriously mentally ill, desperate enough because of it to commit murder. Personality disorders especially are hard to treat, in part because they’re so ingrained into a person. Someone with generalized anxiety might see their anxiety as separate from themselves, but personality disorders are harder to distinguish that way—and it’s part of what makes them so easy to demonize, even more than most others.

But Albert’s? Instead of making his mind looked warped and twisted, his very soul seeming wrong, his reasoning makes more sense now than it ever did before. This was a boy desperate for relief from constant discomfort, from the dissonance between how he knew this should be, how he’d been taught things were meant to be, and how they so obviously were. And it’s very obvious that he is suffering from something outside himself. He is not suffering because he is evil and his soul is wrong. He was suffering before he’d done anything wrong at all.

His discomfort was one of the most rawly emotional moments he’s ever had: Albert is usually quite cool and collected, sometimes angry, sometimes smug, but he has typically felt quite distant, even on the rare moments his internal thoughts are shown. His mental health issues, his suicidal ideation, his OCD? Those were not villainous, not cool, not collected, not careful. Those were human and desperate and fragile.

And while autism is not a mental illness, in this case it performs a similar function for William. He and Albert both have brains screaming at them constantly because that’s not right. That’s not Just. That’s not the way things should be. That doesn’t follow the rules. This can bring people with obsessive-compulsion disorder to their knees and claw their own skin open. It can bring autistic people to wordless shutdowns. It brought Albert the brink of suicide and William to murder.

They are in agony. Unless they fix the wrongness. And they have tried, so many ways, to fix it, and so many of those ways have fail.

William’s guilt may also be agony, but he’s choosing between two different forms of torment. And he thinks one helps others. Not much of a decision, that, not for someone with a soul and a heart, someone who burns so hot with love and hate that he has to turn it into something.

William’s depression, his mental illness, the way his brain doesn’t conform to society, his guilt, his understanding of his own misdeeds is so deep and his self-image so wholly negative, compared how virtually every other character in this series, even John, who barely knows him sees him, and especially compared to how the audience who adores him so much they overwhelmingly voted him their favorite character sees him.

We know he knows what he did was horrible. We are confronted with it constantly. And we are inclined to forgive him even when he might not, because we know despite it all, he has a solid moral center, a good core, the moral understanding of right from wrong. His depression is so all-consuming how could he not? Those things cause his depression.

Albert and William are the focal point of the villainy of the story in many ways: the two who started everything. The two who birthed James Moriarty, Lord of Crime. But while Albert and William may have started everything, they are not the only two with mental health issues.

Louis has always been quite stable. Anxious, to be sure, type A, very high strung. But not really mentally ill—everything he was ever anxious about was entirely reasonable (of course, I have an anxiety disorder myself, so my evaluation of that might be off—but still, worried Sherlock might ruin William’s plan, might lead to his death, might ruin something, worrying about William’s death, worrying about Milverton? All entirely reasonable, thank you). Informed by trauma, surely, but not necessarily mentally ill.

Moran, though? Louis’s behavior is informed by trauma, but Moran’s is poisoned by it.  That double-dose PTSD not only from the war, but from his actions in The Final Problem tore him apart, and we saw it tear him apart. His PTSD pushed him into crime the same way William and Albert’s mental health did.

When Moran first gets his character focus, when his personality and character is delved into properly, it’s to show his trauma and mental health issues. His character is deepened, given structure and reasoning and understand, by showing us his mental illness, the way Albert just was in chapter 62. The way William’s has been for several arcs now with his depression.

I find Moran particularly interesting, because he’s not the only character with Shell Shock: John is also a veteran, and has a psychogenic illness from his time at war. When you take those two, loyal bosom friends of William and Sherlock, who are also set to contrast and parallel each other, down to their mental health issues and neurodivergencies, it becomes very apparent how differently the two teams have portrayals of their illness. Of course, John’s not a villain. Sherlock, for all that he can commit horrible acts, is not a villain.

But Sherlock suffers from bouts of listlessness and gloom just as William does—and he hides it even less. He doesn’t quite manifest as traditional depression the way William does—it really reads more like manic depression—but Moran and John’s PTSD doesn’t manifest the same way either. And Moran’s physical disability rooted in something more concretely physical than John’s and his struggle much more debilitating. The way he suffered pushed him to do worse things than John ever felt pushed into.

But suffering, like it did with Albert and William, makes us feel closer to him. It makes them these powerful men who call themselves devils vulnerable.

Human.

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Will you do an Omegverse week? 🥺

It's cool if you don't wanna I'm just craving omega Sherlock content lately and I love your incorrect quotes

Mmm, this one is a little bit difficult, mainly because there is not too much material to work with in Omegaverse. But! What I can do is to intercalate more Omegaverse content weekly :3 meanwhile, I'm trying to figure out how to create more Omegaverse quotes

This one is for your request!

Omega Sherlock: "I'm not your 'adorable little Omega.'"

Alpha William *hug him*: "Of course not. You're my fierce and sassy Omega Sherly"

#anon know that I adore your brain #i love me a bit of omegaverse and i will die on the hill of abo yuumori

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yuumori: the remains ch6 + volume 1 bonus manga

Ch6: Cubari / Mangadex

V1 Bonus Manga: Cubari / Mangadex

Thank you for waiting 🙇🏻‍♀️ The V1 extras still have a few pages being cleaned, so those will be ready when they’re ready 😅 (There are so many edited panels this time!)

Collated announcements:

New artwork commemorating the release of The Remains Volume 1 (Twitter)

New artwork for the Yuumori 2024 calendar (Twitter) — this is based on the actual Baker Street Tube station in London!

There was a 5-page interview about the Yuumori musicals in this issue of Jump S.Q., with Miyoshi-sensei and Nishimori-sensei (the musical scriptwriter and director). You can find the raw pages here: Imgur

Footnote for Ch6 below the cut!

Footnotes:

The light novel translation for The Girl Who Sees Rainbows, Ch4 Part 2 now follows The Remains — finally understood what it was trying to say orz

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natalie; grace; courtney; abby; natalie x2

#i had to scroll more than 2 posts to find this? scandalous

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no one:

moriarty:

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You idiot, we could have been...us. I forgive you.

#good omens

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We don't need Heaven, we don't need Hell, they're toxic. We need to get away from them, just be an us. You and me, what do you say?

GOOD OMENS - 2.06 Every Day

#good omens

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Just the two of us. We don't need Heaven, we don't need Hell, they're toxic. We need to get away from them, just be an us. You and me, what do you say?

#good omens

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Crowley's expressions of love in season 2

Bonus:

#good omens

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I went through every possible emotion in those last 20 minutes, plus some that I made up on the spot! how are y'all?

#good omens

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I went through every possible emotion in those last 20 minutes, plus some that I made up on the spot! how are y'all?

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I remember drawing Leviathan to cosplay as KAITO, so I wanted to redraw it ;3

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*Holmes Week*

Sherlock: Mycroft, I'm getting married!

Mycroft *astonished*: Married? I never thought I'd see the day William willingly signed up for a lifetime of your eccentricities.

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yuumori: the remains ch4

Now on: Cubari / Mangadex

Thank you so much for waiting! Crossed a little bit into July 🙇🏻‍♀️ First off, a big thank you to both @willymoly and ultra for redrawing this chapter 💖 (It just gets harder and harder each month omg 😢)

Also, a shoutout to our new redrawer Aster (@luvmaill) who will be taking over from the next chapter onwards ☺️ Welcome!!

This June saw a perfect storm of stuff happening all at once… Here’s hoping July will be less hectic 😅 As usual, I’ll post an update around the third week from the chapter release, either with the chapter, or a note if there’s a delay 🙏

PS: There’s some other stuff in the backlog (updating the canon references post, the mystery magazine interview etc.) that I’ve been hoping to get down to — but those will be lower-priority tasks for now, since my main focus will be working on the monthly chapters |ω･)ﾉ

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movie vs book (i adore them both) 

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Okay so Nightbringer says that both angels and demons saw humans as something to be protected

Obey Me! says that demons ate humans

Obey Me! and Nighbringer say that angels didn't get involved with humans (and doing so would lead to great punishments) but they still protected humans from a far

And I think I get it...

Angels see humans as we see endangered animals. Keep them in wildlife sanctuaries and protect them but keep interactions to a minimum. Angels who become Guardian Angels (basically the canon angel version of a pact) are the keepers.

Demons see humans as we see farm animals. Can be interacted with and looked after and loved but also nothing wrong with using them as a food source, it just depends on the type of demon (pet owner = has a pact with a human, vegetarian = doesn't eat human, everyday average citizen = will coo at humans doing cute things on their phones, will help a lost or hurt human, will also happily eat a human burger)

And Lilith said actually, humans are equal to us and shouldn't be treated this way and I'll show it by loving them

And Solomon said actually, humans are equal to you and shouldn't be treated this way and I'll show it by making contingency plans to fight everyone else

And MC said actually I genuinely don't care I just want to go home and take a 72 hour nap and then they did

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#i think pirates pronounce it garrrrr-la #... #I'll see myself out