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no one understands how all consuming loneliness is until they experience it
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i've lost the taste of everything, winter afternoons don't feel the same, the early days of spring when a hotter breeze runs through your skin in the morning don't feel the same, the excitement of eating my favorite chocolate once i'm clean in bed after a long day don't feel the same, finding cats on the street to pet don't feel the same. everything that once brought me joy or the feeling of "i'm alive" are now gone. everyday is the same and everything feels just as bland. i'm in a desperate seeking of something hitting me like a strike of lightning and lightning up everything inside so i don't feel like i'm in automatic all the time, so i get those butterflies in my stomach again because something, anything brought me a sense of delight.
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"I am tired of being a person. Not just tired of being the person I was, but any person at all. I like watching people, but I don't like talking to them, dealing with them, pleasing them, or offending them. I am tired."
-Susan Sontag, I, Etcetera: Stories
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i don't even have friends
at least there’s fucking friends. at least there’s people who love you in this godforsaken world
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Really thrilled to tell you this!! Mexico, Argentina and Brazil: We are bringing The Eras Tour to you this year! Sweet angel princess Sabrina Carpenter will be joining us on all of the shows! Visit taylorswift.com/tour for more information on your registrations, pre-sales and on-sales.
LOTS more international dates to come soon, promise!”
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i'll always be the one to love the most, this infernal amount of love that i carry does not bring me joy but suffering, because i know my heart gives and cares and protects. i'll never receive it back, it feels like i'm destined in this life to be the giver and nothing else, to make someone else feel loved but i don't get that, i don't get to feel like i'm important to someone as much or even more than they are to me. it hurts like hell, it hurts so bright, it feels like a lighbulb shutting down after illuminating the whole place for all its life. if there's something wrong in me i need some celestial being to tell me because i cannot find answers to why i'm not deserving of love, to why i'm always people's second choice, to why no one's eyes light up when they talk about me. i'm writing this in a lonely night, laying on my bed, hoping someone falls from the sky ready to adore me and get what my heart, body and soul crave the most, the most human and natural feeling: love.
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i'm tired, and i really mean it, that i try and give my best to every possible friend or actual friends and people value NOTHING, i don't know if the problem is with me or people but how come i be there for them, do them favors, listen to them, accompany them but i'm not even seen as second option but a third. i know i can't force anyone to feel anything but it's so sad and tiring and it's literally driving me insane feeling everyday that i'm meant to be alone, i can't find anyone that values me as much as i value them, it makes me want to curl up on the floor and cry for hours, i thought i had learnt to be alone but this is just too much, too much loneliness and too much craving of affection and true friendships. i suffer from this and i don't know how to tell anyone, or if they'll listen. my luck of finding friends and keeping them was lost in the transcendence of my soul to this life because there's no other way i struggle so much to find my place in this world, i'm hurting so much i physically feel my heart bleeding. never thought this situation would make me feel like this but the older i get i understand more what's gonna be like for the rest of my life. what's left for me is to learn to live with this, or maybe not, maybe i'll die craving friendships and affection, and maybe in the next life when i don't want to scratch my skin anymore to wash away my feelings i'lk have friends who value me, who love me, who be there for me, truly.
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it sometimes comes to me the reminder that I didn't date as a teen and as much as I don't want to it did have repercussions in me, my social circle wasn't so big and I didn't go out that much but when I did nobody came up to me like it happened to my friends and it always made me think what was wrong with me, was I not pretty enough? wasn't I likeable enough? these are thoughts I try to avoid because I do love myself and take a lot of personal care but it somehow affects how I lived my teenage years. I'm not that of a grown up because I'm barely pushing 20s but now all those thoughts and the lack of of experience in relationships and love will show up even if I think I'm mature enough or that i learned a lot from friendships and such, I've gone through heartbreaks but friendships heartbreak, being in love must be so different and nothing ever prepared me for having to go through that in my adulthood. Another thing is that even looking at someone I merely find attractive sometimes scares me and I'd describe myself as someone confident, even confrontational, I'm not scared of eye contact but I never told someone I liked them, I never kissed anyone, I never held hands romantically with anyone and the mere thought makes me chicken up. Those are all things I'll have to learn as an adult in a world where you're expected to know but I just simply don't. Falling in love, loving someone and having intimacy with someone in a future will be harder to learn than it would have been as a teenager and it's such a terrifying idea to me. I truly hope the universe has big plans for me, that my zero teenage love life meant something and giving me another experiences built me a more mature head for something as big as romantic love
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on saturday and sunday night i saw harry live for the first time and i need to get this out of my chest with the difficulty to find the right words to say: this was the happiest time of the short 18 years of my life. on saturday, one minute after argentina won the match, he unexpectedly came out on stage and i cried for about 30 minutes realizing he was a real person, i was on vip pit and never, i am serious, never imagined i could have him so close to me, he was two meters away due to the height of the stage and i could see his beautiful face perfectly. the moment happened so fast but it's engraved in my mind like the streets i walk everyday. when the concert started he walked to the side i was a lot so i took my moment to remember everything of him that i spent years seeing through the screen of my phone. he was so grateful and happy for the crowd, gave us his absolute best and cheered for our football team, specially messi, which made it 100 times better than it already was. when it ended i had this feeling in my chest of fullness knowing i would see him again the next day.
on sunday i was in the back away from the stage but i was free to jump and dance, i had never moved my body so much in my life, i joined people dancing during tpwk and cried my heart out during matilda just like on saturday. the shooting star that illuminated the sky last night knew i was hoping to see him soon again, although this wasn't a goodbye but a see you soon it was coming to an end and i couldn't help feeling empty.
it wasn't me seeing harry this weekend, it was my 14yo self that needed someone to hold her and found comfort in a singer from the other side of the world, it was my 15yo self that dreamed of seeing him live and begged to her parents to let her see him live and cried her heart out when they wouldn't let her, it was my 16yo self that thought she could never (and still thinks) love someone as much as she loves harry.
i will keep these nights in my heart dearly forever, i will replay this moments everyday until my mind starts to get dusty. the energy i shared with my favorite human being on earth is unmatchable. i can't wait to relive all of this again and again and again until we're both old and can't move our bodies like when we're young.
love on tour forever in my heart.
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kinda late to the party but I'm so happy for harry 🙏🙏🙏 this was the most insufferable stunt both for him and us and now the leech isn't sucking his blood anymore, he's coming to latam to give us his 100% he said con mis gordas latameras no
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it's the way louis sings that's the way love goes with a nostalgic smile in his voice like he's been through that before, he knows what he's talking about but what breaks me more is that this song is for a friend, not for him or about him, the final song of his sophomore album is for the same friend that was there for him when he had to put his feelings in a song and called it "miss you", he was told time was wise and could see it with time and now wants his friend to see it too, faith in the future
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i just finished listening to faith in the future and i'm so close to jumping off the balcony like WHAT he just fucking surpassed himself like that was amazing incredible SPECTACULAR but it breaks my heart so much understanding (i think so) why it's called "faith in the future" he sings about heartbreak, loss but ends the song with a song sang with a nostalgic smile in his voice comprehending that love is hard but it's worth it and this man truly shatters my heart with his lyrics oh god
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oh lord rewatching the mv it all seems so much deeper i need a break
i just watched the mv of music for a sushi restaurant and it seems like the most unserious mv ever like what the fuck was going through harry's mind but if you analyze it deeply it could be showing his situation with his label/record company, they treat him like a king because he gives them money but as soon as he's not giving his 100% as they expect him to or doing what they want they're ready to make him go (through f hell)
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i just watched the mv of music for a sushi restaurant and it seems like the most unserious mv ever like what the fuck was going through harry's mind but if you analyze it deeply it could be showing his situation with his label/record company, they treat him like a king because he gives them money but as soon as he's not giving his 100% as they expect him to or doing what they want they're ready to make him go (through f hell)
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