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chonkystudies · 8 months

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so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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chonkystudies · 2 years

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13.01.22

Happy new year to everyone! I know this is super late but I wish for a year filled with success, prosperity and happiness to you❤️

My last post was exactly 3 months ago so it's been very long.

A little update about me: I didn't perform that well in my entrance exam that is Neet 2021. I was devastated. I was lost about what I should do with my life since everything was overwhelming. After being sad and anxious for a few weeks, with the support of my family, friends and the kind words of wonderful ppl of Tumblr I decided to give this exam again.

I started preparing again around the last week of November. Medicine is everything for me, I cannot imagine myself doing anything different. I was sad about having to relearn everything and going through the same mental thoughts but my mom became my support pillar and told me to give a real and honest attempt, not one where I do it half heartedly or like a test drive, or just for the sake of them but an attempt where it matters. And she is right I did get carried away last year but this time it's different.

I am learning from my mistakes and inculcating positive change in me. I know I can do this.

I'll be posting and documenting my progress here, again. This blog means a lot to me, all of my 61 followers mean a lot to me. Thankyou.

I am going to be more productive and punctual about posting, since I want to carry on my blog even when I get into med school as a reminder of my journey through life now. (It's a small dream I have) 🤞

Hope everyone is safe and healthy.

Take care and All the best!

#growth #neet #study blog #student #study hard #studyblr #studyspo #neet ug #neetpreparation #medical aspirants #neet aspirant #progress #productivity #chonkystudies

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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13.09.21

Yesterday was my exam. It was okay really it wasn't too good and not even too bad. I'm hopeful but also cautious about it. Haven't counted how much I'll score rn bcoz I want to be a little stress free right now.

Enjoying the basic pleasures I've denied myself from too long, like looking outside the window and drinking tea without thinking about anything in particular. Will discuss my journey forward after a week or so.

Take care, stay healthy.

Thankyou ❤️

Found a wall art featuring the Rocket man of India, APJ Abdul Kalam. The quote on the left in hindi says "Dreams aren't something that you see after sleeping, dreams are those that don't let you sleep"

Ofcourse a mandatory sky post cuz why not it's Nov 2019, good times. ❤️

#study blog #neet #growth #medical aspirants #neet 2021 #studyblr #motivation #hope #sky #apjabdulkalam #dreams #aspirations #love #chonkystudies

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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Neet 2021 (aka my med entrance exam) is scheduled to be on 12th September 2021. 60 days to go.....

I am calm yet stressed. My mind is kind of spiralling. I'm pumped to study but also a little overwhelmed by remembering the past of last year when it was held on 13th September and I didn't attend cuz of covid19. I deleted my main very aesthetic very dear to heart instagram account on 12th September last year 😂🤦🏽‍♀️and told myself hey I'll make a new one next year on the same date guess it just comes full circle. Lol.

The other thing that kind of bums me out is the fact that completely thru last year the neet aspirants were kept in this very grey area regarding the exam dates and we're instilled this idea that your exams would be held before even a full term of the previous years exam and because of this so many students educators and even me rushed through the syllabus and material. It felt really half assed but what can you do. Now when they've kept it exactly a year later giving us a full term it just feels like we got cheated and were purposely put into anxiety for the exams on top of the grave situation that is going on.

Anyways I hope something really good comes out of this for everyone who's going to give it and also for me.

Selection is the only aim now. Let's hustle.

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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11.07.21 ✨

Completed 3 small chapters of chemistry.

Revised biology ncert

Started new chapter, finished it half.

Revised formulas

Still getting back into major studying after a break of so long.

Long way to go. But I can do this.

Song: Teen idle - Marina and the diamonds

Quote: Your words start to lose value when your actions don't match.

#growth #neet #study blog #motivation #medical aspirants #neet 2021 #studyblr #100 days of studying #100 days of productivity #100 days of self discipline #productivity #neetaspirants #neet2021 #ncert #small studyblr #study motivation #study hard

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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06.06.21. ✨ 55 days for Neet 2021.

I completed circular motion chapter of physics today. I realized I was scared of mechanics for no reason at the start of the year. Did a sheet of practice questions now I'm going to do some more.

Revising the cockroach part of biology for the last 3 hours and honestly I didn't think of cockroaches too much earlier but now I hate them from every fibre of my being. It's okay I get it you represent your entire phylum but so many details ugh. The problem is biology Ncert's tho for compiling 6 pages worth of info in 2 🤷🤦🏽‍♀️

Anyways, the neet postpone drama and the nervousness of the exam has settled in now. I'm feeling so underprepared ( I am underprepared lol) I have no choice but to study and give an honest attempt.

All the best to anyone who's giving exams or having tests, you will ace them. I believe in you.

Take care of yourself, stay hydrated. And yes thank you for existing💕✨

1) the biology textbook page

2) my cat who sleeps all day hehe😂💕

Quote : Ask yourself if what you're doing today is getting you closer to what you want to be.

🎧 - Fire on Fire - Sam Smith.

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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04.06.21. ✨ 56 days to go for neet 2021

I slept a lot today since I'm pulling a ll nighters. It's fun makes me feel like I'm studying for boards, hehe.

Completed chemistry mole concept and biology revision. Gearing up to complete another chapter of physics tonight. I just gulped a big cup full of black coffee I hope it works.

1) Today the sky was really pretty hoped it'll rain but it just drizzled. Breaking my monochrome theme for the pretty sky🥺

2) I'm low-key really proud of my physics formula sheets hehe

Take care of yourself, stay hydrated. Thankyou for existing💕✨

Song : Fool - Troye Sivan

Quote : How you walk with the broken is more important than how you sit with the great. - unknown.

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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03.06.21. ✨ 57 days to neet 2021

Today I completed a physics chapter that seemed insurmountable to me 6 months ago. So it's not an achievement but it seems a step ahead.

I have started studying for my test series. I am so behind everything I am afraid that I'll not be able to finish the syllabus or even complete my revision on time but honestly I did this to myself and there's no going back now. I'm going to give an honest attempt and accept whatever comes out of this journey.

After a sadness and gloomy week after the demise of my childhood frnd a good news is that the criminals/killers are arrested and finally the justice will be served. So that's a good thing.

It surely doesn't erase the pain that is the absence of him but it does put my heart at ease.

I'm excited for the next 6 months of this year. I'm hopeful and I want to work harder now.

Happy pride month ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Stay hydrated, take care of yourself and yes thank you for existing you are doing wonderful✨💕

1)I love the potted plants and in my balconey, the green blessed my eyes in the morning.

2) The last page of friction notes

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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I know I haven't been posting. Honestly I'm not studying these days I'm just so distracted by the bad news that's distracting me the cbse exam postponement problem, the anticipation and anxiety surrounding it.

Overwhelmed by the amount of studying I've got to do, crushed beneath the expectations of myself and parents. I'm questioning if I'll make it..this year or no.

#cbse exam news #cbse #ncert #desi studyblr #desi tag #desi #board exams #chutiyapa

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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May 30th 2021.

I just came back from attending the funeral of my childhood friend.

He was murdered by the watchmen of my society for a petty argument over a bottle of water a day before.

He was stabbed multiple times and was bleeding profusely, he was admitted to a hospital very fast but waited for the doctor for 4.5 hours and ultimately bled to death on the hospital bed.

All of this happened at around 12:30 am right outside my bedroom window and I didn't know. I didn't even peek outside my window or remove my earphone when I heard the dogs barking down. I should've..

A and me have been friends since kindergarten and just knew each other. Of course we grew apart since we were from different cliques and background but we talked and smiled everytime we met. We were in the same class for 3 years, he used to take my notes and not give back I used to hate him for that but would always give him again for his puppy dog eyes saying please.

I used to tell him to copy the answer fast from my exam sheet and he used to shrug it off saying I'm not gonna do that that's too much work, he was a lazy psycho just as his instagram bio said.

I listened to him talk about his first love to me. And als when they broke up. After school ended all we ever did was just smile at each other.

I considered him a friend but idk about him. We weren't close we used to talk like after a month or so and that too for a few minutes but his vibe, his vibe would make your whole day. I had seen him 2 weeks ago with his back to me.

He was the famous popular gangsta kind of guy around the school and also around the town and talking to him just gave you a taste of being popular idk what that is.

I used to think about him a lot when I was growing up I was jealous over his ability to make friends easily, or how wherever he went everyone loved him, or how his life was always more happening than mine, how he had bigger problems or things to do like going to parties and sorting out matters between his oh so famous friends. I watched him grow so much and would hear stories about him from other people like he was some celebrity.

Even after all this he was so humble. Talked humbly to my mom to me and almost everyone in the society.

He had been through so much. He looked East Asian with his beautiful monogloid features and that's why he was bullied and teased a lot. The internalised racism of the people in my society and outside must've always hurt him and that's why he had that persona, that don't mess with me demeanor which everyone just lables as being a delinquent.

I understood him and felt for him but never said anything because we weren't close.

He didn't deserve what happened to him last night he didn't deserve to be robbed of his life. His parents didn't deserve their only child to be taken away at 18 from them. He didn't deserve the mistreatment he received all his life. He didnt deserve anything that happened to him.

He had a life ahead of him. He had dreams.

The fragile ego of criminal minded adults who don't think once before doing something this bad to a kid must be hanged to life.

I'm so angry and I wanted to say all these confusing a nd twisted thoughts to someone.

I was so confused on should I go to his funeral or not. I was worried that there will be a 100 of his friends who'd be more dear to him. I kept thinking what will happen if I see his face or pass that street I would break down. And was so conflicted that I if I don't go I would regret this for life. I couldn't sleep the whole night.

But then I thought if it were me he'd come I am not completely sure of this but I know knowing his kindness if it were me he would come. So I went I stopped analysing my thoughts or comparing my worth against his other friends and I went to see his last rites.

I cried my heart out hugging my other friends and I saw his beautiful face and all the memories of our childhood came rushing to me and I cried and saw his family and I cried some more. I held on to my other frnd who was like his elder sister and I felt okay.

I bid him goodbye and walked through that street, his blood was still wet on the pavement.

Now I'm home I had lunch after not eating anything since yesterday and idk I feel lighter. My conscience is at peace knowing I did pay my respects. My heart is angry on why is he gone. My mind is still processing the events while typing this paragraph.

A you meant a lot to me than I'd like to admit then. You were a good person, you were a good human, you were a good friend. I loved you and I will miss you. Wherever you are I hope you find peace and I'll put my efforts to get you the justice.

I hope you're playing songs on your red guitar in heaven now. ❤️✨

Love,

Urvashi.

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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25.05.21. Day 10 of 75✨

Today was a good day. Besides from the bad news that I'm hearing about the people who are close to my friends passing away due to covid.

I did physical chemistry today and it was good. Since past 2 years I always flunked physical chemistry bcoz of the numericals part and the brain required to do it. I used to think I just don't understand it or can't do it that's why I didn't try but the truth is I was so afraid of failing at solving questions that I just didn't try and now that I'm trying and failing but trying again it feels do-able and after practice I'm getting better.

Still have a long way to go.

I'm so behind on my syllabus and schedule but I jus cannot do anything since my barin is so stressed out it's numb now deadline stress isn't working anymore. Guess I'll have to just continue on my path.

Mole concept formula sheet.

Quote:" Everyone underestimates practice and hard work, it's surprising to know that you can do a lot only if you keep practicing"

Song: pride.is.the.devil. - jcole

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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23.05.21. Day 4-8 of 75 ✨

I was taking care of a few things these past days.

My health isn't that great so studying when I am capable.

Did some chemistry and biology today. The test series starting and me missing 2 tests is giving me major anxiety but it's cool I'm gonna get back to it as early as possible. I've made my plan and I'm sticking to it.

I finally went back to the roots of my spirituality and that is meditating and actually letting my thoughts flow and not getting petrified of them or the future or the overthinking. Keeping it simple.

The recent video of simonesquared on yt was a help. I love her she is a whole vibe and also gives real advice while being a clown hehe.

Watched the BTS butter song and it's good. Was excited for a concept but I don't think it was it's a more fun video but it's cool.

Finally J Cole dropped his album and the documentary and I'm sooo mad inspired by him and his grind. He's going all out and chasing his passion and he did everything music and playing basketball now professionally, no tinge of regret in heart.

The album is so real and the lyrics are filled witha device and experiences and I am just taking notes.

My one major goal or thought in my life is that I don't want no regrets. I've had enough regrets in my 18 year of existence about missed opportunities and not taking your shots or doing what you should be doing and I pray it ends here. I don't want to carry this forward or think in I could've, should've, would've and what ifs.

Stay safe if you're reading this, thankyou for existing. ❤️

Quote "Pain in the moment weighs ounces but regret weighs Pounds."

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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18.05.21. Day 3 of 75 ✨

Today was an okayish day.

I studied human health and diseases chapter and it's so freaking lengthy it's like 3 chapters in one.

I tried the pomodoro method and decided to take 10 min break after 50 minutes studying but what happened is that I started focusing on the break instead of my lecture and mid way through I realized that I just listened and made notes passively and actually I retained nothing.

So I had to change the lecture source ( Sir was teaching wayy too deep, which isn't required that much for the exam). It took me almost 8 hours to complete a 1 hour 45 minute lecture from youtube. Ofcourse the 8 hours include 3 hrs of watching songs, news and BTS 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

I am going to work harder tomorrow.

Quote: " Never idolize anyone, everyone's human, everyone's flawed, you will be disappointed. "

I forgot to click a picture of my notes.

Stay safe, take care. Thankyou for existing ❤️✨

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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17.05.21. Day 2 of 75 ✨

As mentioned yesterday, today the cyclone tauktae devastated the western coast of India and continues to do so. Kerala, parts of Karnataka, and Mumbai have faced it's damage. The eye of the cyclone passed along the coast at a distance of 100-110km. It's going to hit at Diu and Daman and Gujrat.

I cannot even imagine what the situation there will be and the people who experience it. In the midst of this third wave India is ravaged by covid,oxygen shortages earthquakes and now cyclones.

It was an orange alert where I reside and just some strong winds and rain were expected but since the cyclone got closer to the coast the predictions changed, even the radar of the weather department was damaged.

The roofs of buildings flew away and damaged cars etc, the trees outside on the roads are uprooted, even light cables got cut due to the flying debris in my apartment complex. There are no reported casualties and everything is being managed well by the first responders.

As a person who's never experienced anything like this ever, this was a scary experience. My heart goes out to the people who live in slums are homeless or were caught in this nature's destruction. I realise how privileged I am and I am so so so grateful for it. I hope the situation doesn't worsen and everyone stays safe.

I didn't study anything today even though I could've.

Got to know about how the US and UK are moving towards normalcy and post covid future. I am happy for all of you. I wish India and other countries like mine who are suffering get better too.

Plz keep Gujrat, Palestine and the covid patients in your prayers.

This is too much to ask but when the donations for the cyclone victims come up I hope some of you who are capable, help them.

Thankyou so much.

Please stay safe, take care, drink water and yes thankyou for existing❤️✨

The video is from friends place who's roof is destroyed, and the image is the condition when the roof fell from 4th floor and hit the red barricade in my apartment complex. It's still raining tho.

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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If you are an active studyblr and/or langblr please reblog or like this, I need more active people to follow ☺️💜

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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75 days to go for my exam from today.

It's very windy and dreary since the morning because of the cyclone tauktae that's going along the westcoast and mumbai around where I live. I hope nothing drastic happens and that everyone stays safe.

16.05.21. Day 1 of 75 ✨

Today I woke up a little happier and hopeful. Had a discussion about my preparation with my brother and his bluntness made me cry. I realized all the mistakes and bad decisions I made in this gap year and it was overwhelming, he was right all along.

Anyways then I attended lectures with short breaks since after not studying for so long it's hard to spring back to back to back lectures.

Did redox reactions and some previous revision.

I am realizing looking back that I don not like my story at all, the way it unfolded and will unfold if I keep doing what I do. I refuse to keep going like this, I refuse to be average and hate my life, I refuse to wait for my life to be good. I'm just gonna do it. I'm gonna change my story.

Some redox notes.

Quote : "The greatest sin that you can commit against your own life is know what you want and not act. " - Kim Stafford

Love yourself, thank you for existing💕

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chonkystudies · 3 years

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Hello,

So I'm back. After like a decade. But better here than gone. I love Tumblr now I love the positivity and help and kindness over here, it's therapy.

So it's good to be here. Thankyou to everyone each and everyone of you who've reblogged or liked my post or followed this blog, it means the world to me and gives me motivation. Thank you so much.

A few things I've learned since I've taken this time out

Holding yourself to unrealistic standards is bad for your mental health and is futile. Know your limits don't lie to yourself.

It is very easy to plan your whole life or say a very productive study plan for your exams in the spur of the moment. You won't be able to face yourself next day when you don't do even one thing.

It's better to do 60% or 70% or even 20% at days when it's hard to even wake up. Don't beat yourself up.

It is hard to hear but comparing yourself to the work of people who don't come from your background or are privileged or generally don't deal with things you deal with absolutely have an advantage and you shouldn't miss that. But you also shouldn't let that thing be the reason to underperform.

Gradual increase. Just focus on the now.

Wasting time consciously and unconsciously will become a huge regret. So please stop.

Finally something that I'm repeating about 20 times a day to me is, "throw yourself in the swimming pool and you'll know how to swim, you'll float and learn"

I hope this will help someone.

Take care everyone. Stay safe and healthy ❤️

To all my Muslim friends Eid Mubarak 🌙✨

Sending out my prayers to the Palestinians and people battling covid. You'll get through this.

Ps. Might start productivity log from tomorrow for sure. I've got 77 days for my exam I'm scared.

My main is @theuniverseandme

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