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The deputy head of my school came to see me, ask me how I was feeling and if there was anything school can do to support me. They're only doing this because of me slamming my head in a wall during a panic attack.

I wonder where was this "support" when I was being told to d*e and followed, rocks thrown at me and being jumped while walking out the school gates almost everyday? cause most of my trauma that occured in school could've been prevented if I was listened to and supported. If they actually acted against those kids I might've been able to go to the shops without feeling so anxious I'm going to get hit or jumped, I might've been able to talk to people without thinking I'm just being annoying if they had actually done something instead of sitting back and telling me they're "building a file".

I'm so angry about the shitty stuff school put me through and I'm so glad to be leaving this year.

#school #bullying #mentalheathawareness #mental health #do something

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✨ I can't sleep because I am in so much pain I feel like I'm being burnt alive and there's nothing I can do to ease it because my doctors have basically abandoned me and have given up on any kind of pain management while I'm being refered ✨

#chronic fatigue #disability #spoonie #chronic illness #chronic pain #pain

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I don't actually remember much of my childhood I just remember waking up one day when I was 8 and just having to figure everything out.

#Childhood #Kid #memories #trauma

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I lost my childhood to anxiety and dysphoria. Now I'm losing my adult life to chronic illness. I had maybe a few years where my quality of life was actually tolerable. I've spent the majority of my life suffering and it's actually never going to end.

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People are so petty,

message saying: rules apply to you as well if you didn't realise.

wow didn't realise people at my school got so salty about me needing different shoes, a laptop and the school lift so that I can handle going to school everyday and reduce my pain levels.

They've started messaging me stuff like this and the teachers won't do anything, the teachers are even mad that the shoes that reduce my pain aren't fully black and expect me to find money to buy a black pair.

The school refused to give me one of their laptops and made me run around every lesson to try and find a department that'll lend me one for the lesson for a whole YEAR, now I bring in my own laptop but the special needs department should've supplied one for me like they do for the kids with learning disabilities.

My teachers are ableist and like to argue with me about MY pain and what helps MY pain.

#ableism #chronic fatigue #disability #spoonie #school #eds #heds #elhers danlos syndrome #pain #chronic pain

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The music when you call the doctors is so unique that I hear it in my nightmares.

#doctors #chronic fatigue #disability #spoonie #sickness

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Why should the colour of my shoes matter when they reduce me chronic pain?

my shoes are black and white and they reduce my chronic leg pain alot more than any of my other shoes, BUT my school is saying I can't wear them because they arent fully black.

British schools suck

#chronic fatigue #disability #spoonie #chronic pain #british school

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My school cares more about uniform then ableism, homophobia, racism and bullying.

#school #bullying #homophobia #racism #ableism #disability

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Why is it that when a popular person faints or passes out its real but when someone who isnt popular does its "faking" it???

#chronic fatigue #disability #spoonie #pots #postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome #eds #heds #elhers danlos syndrome

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I wish people understood that there isnt just a physical aspect to being in pain all the time and that it effects you mentally too.

I wish this was talked about more.

#chronic fatigue #disability #spoonie #chronic pain #chronic illness #elhers danlos syndrome #heds

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I like being anonymous on the internet but I also wanna share pictures of me where I look good :(

#anon

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Okay so HEARTSTOPPER is 100% my favourate young adults lgbtq+ graphic novel!

I've read it multiple times and fell in love the moment I read it, it is full of common problems like mental health issues, anxiety about coming out and bullying.

Alice Oseman portrays these problems in such a realistic way that many of my friends have felt connected with the characters through their problems.

Alice is working really hard and the comic is becoming a tv show, I love this series and I hope many people do too.

I just wanted to share my love for this writer and her novels.

#alice oseman #heartstopper #graphic novel #comics #gay #lgbtq #book #novel #nick and charile

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I really got put in the reflection room and a detention for not being able to do the work cause of my disability.

#ableism #disability #chronic fatigue #spoonie #elhers danlos syndrome #heds

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I wish I didnt cry almost everynight about the fact that if my doctors listened to me when I was 9-10 when I was telling them something was wrong that I might be better than I am.

Like if they started giving me physio and orthotic physio earlier instead of blaming it on growning pains, anxiety and puberty I would be able to do more things like people my age.

#chonic illness #sad #disability #spoonie #chronic fatigue #elhers danlos syndrome

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Wish my legs would stop having a strop about me going for a walk today and let me sleep

#chronic fatigue #spoonie #chronic pain #chronic illness #disability

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Take my meds and feel fuzzy, tired and have pain

or

Not take my meds and feel the exact same

(aka my meds don't work and doctors won't prescribe me anything different because of my age)

#chronic illness #heds #chronic pain #elhers danlos syndrome #medication