chiildishhopes

[chiildishhopes]

ooc.   i doubt I’ll be coming back to this hell site for rp as I’m mostly on discord and focusing on the dnd homebrew campaign i’m running. that said mutuals if ya’ wanna find me elsewhere 

twitter ( personal / art )  is probably the best place to find me. of course you could spam me for my disc/ord. 

[chiildishhopes]

ooc.   i doubt I’ll be coming back to this hell site for rp as I’m mostly on discord and focusing on the dnd homebrew campaign i’m running. that said mutuals if ya’ wanna find me elsewhere 

twitter ( personal / art )  is probably the best place to find me. of course you could spam me for my disc/ord. 

#ooc. YO WHAT UP IT’S SCALES HERE | ooc

[chiildishhopes]

ooc.   this just in, if you have me as a dungeon master you’re just here for angst soup. and me scribbling angst because I don’t want to make maps. I don’t make the rules. 

#ooc. YO WHAT UP IT’S SCALES HERE | ooc #;; > literally plotting a bunch of stuff #;; > screaming a lot #;; > very much screaming #;; > I have only one brain cell and it's for this campaign now

[chiildishhopes]

ooc.   sorry I’ve been distant here, my brain is all scattered and mostly hyper focusing on D&D things since icewind dale is hell and realizing I need to do that thing called reading + make maps is uh interesting.  listen the maps will be done eventually 

#ooc. YO WHAT UP IT’S SCALES HERE | ooc #;; > I also have been having kaida's son vibes pop up #;; > and her daughter #;; > and I am just shaking my fist in the air

[chiildishhopes]

ooc.    the struggle of dm’ing a dnd game is it consumes my life and I wanna make it special  but it requires reading. 

#ooc. YO WHAT UP IT’S SCALES HERE | ooc #;; > hi I'm not dead but I am mc suffering from work #;; > maybe one day I will find a good balance #;; > one day

[chiildishhopes]

Noticing Trauma sentence starters

Feel free to alter dialogue to suit your muse!

“That really spooked you.” 

“I don’t want to pry, but.. I want you to know I also want to listen, if you want someone to talk to.” 

“Well, pretend I’m not here. What would you say if nobody could hear it?” 

“Does this happen a lot?” 

“Hey, what happened between you two?” 

“When is the last time you ate?”

“Is this okay?” 

“Hey.” 

“This is the third meal you’ve missed this week, are you okay?” 

“[Name]?” 

“What did he/she/they do?” 

“This … hurts you.” 

“You don’t feel safe, here.” 

“When you look at [trigger], you… what is that?” 

“What can I do?” 

“You were crying in your sleep.” 

“What do you dream about?” 

“Whenever you get stressed, you do this thing with your hands. What is it?” 

“You’re right, I don’t understand, yet. Will you help me?” 

“Should I leave a light on for you?” 

“I brought you some water.” 

“I won’t judge you.” 

“It doesn’t have anything to do with trust. You don’t have to tell me. But I’ll listen, if you do.” 

“Count your breaths with me, okay? Ready? One, two, three, four…” 

“I’m here.” 

“Talk to me.” 

“You don’t need to tell me everything. I just want to know how I can help.” 

“Let me hold your hair back, at least.” 

“You used to love that [item].” 

#a. let’s play a game | meme #q. be back later | queue

[chiildishhopes]

Worried Sentence Starters

“[Name] - [Name]. Hi. It’s okay. Don’t try to sit up, do you know where you are?”

“It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay, I’m right here, it’s okay.”

“I thought I was going to lose you.”

“You weren’t answering, and I thought -”

“I tried to… our first aid kit was tiny, but I tried.”

“I couldn’t get to you.”

“When I found you, you weren’t breathing.”

“You were dead. They/I had to bring you back.”

“It’s… It’s just really good to see you awake.”

“Call me back when you get this, okay? I’m worried.”

“You asked me to help but I - I couldn’t. I tried. I’m sorry.”

“I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.”

“Hey, did you see the news about that building collapsing? Weren’t you on that side of town?”

“I missed three calls from you and couldn’t get a hold of you, so I came in person. What’s up?”

“Was it me? Was it because of me?”

“That cough sounds pretty bad.”

“Are you sure you should be doing that so soon? You were hurt.”

“Your body needs time to recover.”

“Should I stay with you?”

“Nobody can get to us out here. We’re on our own.”

#q. be back later | queue #a. let’s play a game | meme

[chiildishhopes]

canons.     no one realizes this yet but, if anyone harms Ryder ( @booknearth ), Kaida will do whatever it takes to do worse than an eye for an eye. she is not one to give a single fuck about how she should be more mature and handle Ryder getting hurt. that is hers and hers alone. 

anyone touches him and hurts him will fucking regret it as, when Ry had lost his eye. Kaida made sure the angel responsible knew she wasn’t some little shitty pigmy god  and tore the bastard’s wing off ( and did a lot more ). 

#c. the files underneath the bed | canons #;; > writes pt 1 of drabble #;; > screams a lot

[chiildishhopes]

canons.     ... you know, in modern era. Kaida would totally play VR games to train. SPROUT probably has ‘ alternate reality ‘ battle sims anyhow, but Kaida loves her rhythm games b/eat saber being a damn favorite if she can’t go down to the arcade and get on to the DDR mat to keep fighting a certain other Adiuto for the high score.

now realize this kid gets excited. b/eat saber would be an interesting time for her and there have been times the group got together and streamed it onto the TV while Kaida just had her fun and it’s just a how the fuck.   ( warning for flashing lights in video ) 

#c. the files underneath the bed | canons

[chiildishhopes]

50 𝘿𝙄𝘼𝙇𝙊𝙂𝙐𝙀 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙏𝙎   ,   𝙿𝙰𝚁𝚃 𝚃𝚆𝙾 . (  a selection of dialogue based roleplay prompts . all prompts may be edited or otherwise changed in order to fit the muses and their relationship dynamic better  )

❛  i’ll find [ name ] and bring them home , i promise .  ❜ ❛  for some inexplicable reason , i find myself attracted to you .  ❜ ❛  there’s something i need to get off my chest .  ❜ ❛  well , what happened ? i want all of the details !  ❜ ❛  i knew you wouldn’t be able to see it through .  ❜ ❛  they were right about you all along .  ❜ ❛  how dare you look down your nose at me like that .  ❜ ❛  in my defence , they were already unconscious when i found them .  ❜ ❛  quick ! hide behind that pillar / couch / desk / etc .  ❜ ❛  quit it , you’re embarrassing me .  ❜ ❛  were you … spying on me ?  ❜ ❛  if you walk away now , you’ll lose everything .  ❜ ❛  you’re dead to me now , [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  whatever it is that you’re planning to ask , the answer is ‘ no ’ .  ❜ ❛  can’t we go back to how things were before ?  ❜ ❛  is there something you’d like to tell me ?  ❜ ❛  you came back !  ❜ ❛  focus more on your own life and less on mine !  ❜ ❛  how … did you even get yourself into this situation ?  ❜ ❛  ah ! it’s beautiful , thank you so much [ name ] !  ❜ ❛  you don’t want to live in a society like this , yet you refuse to do anything about it !  ❜ ❛  we could definitely get arrested for this .  ❜ ❛  you have his / her / their eyes .  ❜ ❛  long story short , i got arrested . are you able to pick me up ?  ❜ ❛  he / she / they couldn’t have died at a worse time .  ❜ ❛  i’m ready to try again if you are .  ❜ ❛  you must be mad , coming here like this .  ❜ ❛  who did this to you ?  ❜ ❛  i hope that what i’ve said hasn’t hurt you too badly .  ❜ ❛  please , don’t argue with me .  ❜ ❛  you need to leave . now . you’re not safe here .  ❜ ❛  they were sold out of bananas , so i bought a kinder egg instead .  ❜ ❛  why would you put yourself through something like that ?  ❜ ❛  perhaps you’ll take me out one day … ? or do i have to make an appointment ?  ❜ ❛  you always were a quiet one , right [ name ] ?  ❜ ❛  you had ample time to call the police . why didn’t you ?  ❜ ❛  i love you like the stars love the moon . endlessly , and in total darkness .  ❜ ❛  don’t be scared . i’m here for you . always .  ❜ ❛  you were meant to be supervising him / her / them !  ❜ ❛  i thought i should be the one to break the news … [ name ] is dead .  ❜ ❛  you were crying out in your sleep … do you need me to stay ?  ❜ ❛  moments like this are what i imagine heaven to be like .  ❜ ❛  could you be happy here with me ?  ❜ ❛  hey , what’s buried in the garden ?  ❜ ❛  when i’m with you , my heart won’t stop racing …  ❜ ❛  you make me feel like i’m not good enough .  ❜ ❛  i can’t stay long . i just had to see you .  ❜ ❛  i’m worth more to them if they catch me alive .  ❜ ❛  move aside . this is my problem to fix .  ❜ ❛  how long have you been standing there ?  ❜

#a. let’s play a game | meme #;; > working on toyhouse codes I owe more like AAA

[chiildishhopes]

ooc.    really really tempted to either create a luis ( an emotionless espionage boi ) or alphonse ( someone who can’t feel anything physically ) and it’s just a lot of screaming right now. 

#ooc. YO WHAT UP IT’S SCALES HERE | ooc #;; > I should just make a multimuse but

[chiildishhopes]

Nightmares & Sleeping Meme

Words

“Don’t worry about it. I was already awake.”

“I broke the lock. You were screaming.”

“Hey, last night… Are you okay?”

“How long have you been having nightmares like this?”  

“Talk to me.”

“Let me stay. I can make you breakfast in the morning.” 

“How long have I been out?”

“What happened?”

“Hey - hey! Hey! It’s me! [Name], it’s me, hey.”

“Was it the same as last time?”

“Strange place to fall asleep.”

“Do you … live here?”

“Would it help if I stayed?”

“You were already asleep, I didn’t want to wake you.”

“It calmed you down, I think.” 

“You’re safe. It’s okay, I promise you, you’re safe. You need to stop fighting them.”

“I’m sorry, I know, I’m trying to help you. I want to help you, you’re hurt, I’m - god, I’m sorry, please go back to sleep.”

Actions

(Feel free to change which muse does what by adding names, etc!)

[TALK] - for receiver’s muse to be talking in their sleep.

[AWAKE] - for our muses to be lying awake together, neither one of them able to get (back?) to sleep.

[JOLT] - for receiver’s muse to jolt awake after a nightmare, possibly being held/talked to by sender’s muse.

[HURT] - for receiver’s muse to be half-conscious after an injury, and not able to keep their nightmares separate from reality.

[SOOTHE] - for sender to comfort receiver’s muse while they’re having a nightmare, trying to keep receiver asleep.

[TUCK] - for sender to find receiver’s muse asleep somewhere and tuck them in with a blanket (or jacket, etc)

[QUESTION] - for sender’s muse to check whether receiver’s muse is Okay, in the morning after a nightmare, in a wordless way (touching their arm, etc)

[PLEASE] - for receiver’s muse to ask sender’s muse for comfort after a nightmare, or for company staying up so they don’t have a nightmare.

#q. be back later | queue #a. let’s play a game | meme

[chiildishhopes]

WHEN DO YOU GET YOUR SOFT, ITALICIZED, “OH.”

the first meeting

life is normal. it's scripted. it's functional. then one day, you meet them, and... Oh. you fix your posture, you're a little nervous, and it's totally possible you're just projecting -- but this could be something. and the only thing that makes this different from the hundreds of other times you had that exact same thought only to be disappointed is... this is the time that counts. things change. you were looking for someone whose very existence re-contextualized yours. which is not to say that you were incomplete, but... aren't we all? isn't that the essence of being a being who changes? and what completes us if not the love of something or someone beyond us? sure it's still new, and anything could happen from here, but there's something in your shared brain chemistry that makes it feel like good things are in motion. how exciting!

tagged.   @calamitoussoul​

taggin’.    @ steal it. 

#a. let’s play a game | meme #;; > the irony #q. be back later | queue #v. living on repeat | arc 3

[chiildishhopes]

*: ･ﾟ✧   90 loaded questions / interview the muse.

found on this website, so credit goes to them.

What’s your favorite strategy for avoiding tough situations?

How often do you do things just for the attention?

Would you prefer to be manipulated or to be the manipulator?

What is something someone always tells you to do more of?

What is something someone always tells you to do less of?

Who do you look to blame when things go wrong?

What is the one thing people assume about you that you wish was true?

What is the one thing people assume about you that you wish wasn’t true?

When was the last time you lied to protect your image?

How often do you put on a happy face when you’re really not feeling it?

When do you think you began putting your guard up so much?

Who made you feel most anxious when you were a kid?

How do you speak about others when they’re not around?

What aspect of your life are you most delusional about?

How often do your admit you were wrong?

Which one of your biggest flaws do you like to rationalize the most?

Is it your fear of commitment or your fear of intimacy that makes you shut down more?

At what stage of a relationship are you most likely to withdraw emotionally?

What is the one compliment you always get that you’re too embarrassed to accept, so you deflect it?

What would someone say is your worst habit?

What is the one insecurity you are pretty sure has some basis in reality?

When was the last time you felt really insecure about the parts of yourself you pretend don’t exist?

What is the most interesting white lie you’ve told?

Do you ever feel like an imposter?

Do your friends know how competitive you are?

What’s the hardest thing about being rejected?

How do you deal when you know you’re being irrationally jealous?

How do you deal when you know someone’s not willing to give you what you want?

Are you ever afraid of people knowing who you really are?

If you went to a therapist today, what would they say is holding you back the most?

When was the last time you lowered your standards just to get someone else’s approval?

Is your need for revenge greater than your need for peace?

Have you stopped trying to control things yet?

Which parts of yourself do you still seek validation for?

How do you cope with being unfairly ignored?

Do you like punishing yourself for things that are out of your control?

What does someone say is your biggest problem when communicating?

Are you okay with not knowing what happens next?

Will you ever feel okay with being imperfect?

Does sabotaging yourself give you an odd sense of comfort?

How do you feel about being disliked by some people?

What’s the strangest thing you’ve done just to avoid failure?

What is the biggest risk you’ve taken just to prove yourself?

What’s the boldest thing you do every day, just to feel like you’re still in control?

What accusation would you defend yourself most fiercely against, even though you know it’s true?

What’s the most toxic thing about yourself you actually kind of secretly like?

How much do you enjoy being in control?

When do you give yourself permission to lose control?

What guilty pleasure are you currently justifying to yourself?

What is the most passive-aggressive way you’ve dealt with your rage?

What is the pettiest and most immature way you’ve avoided losing face?

What’s the worst habit you have that rewards you the most?

How do you get your needs met when you’re alone?

What is the most ridiculous thing you’ve done to please people?

What is the most ridiculous way you’ve rebelled?

What’s your favorite way to channel your aggression?

How do you cope with being betrayed?

Are you okay with disliking someone?

What is your favorite form of self-destruction?

What’s the one thing you struggle most to manifest in your life?

What’s the one thing that you manifest so easily, people are jealous of it?

What’s the most irrational reason you’ve ever had for disliking someone?

What is one fear that you’d be ashamed of your friends knowing about?

Which one of your deepest secrets do you think is the least common?

How do people normally find out you hate them?

What is your go-to strategy to deflect criticism, even constructive criticism?

What is one thing people always get wrong about you?

What emotion motivates you the most when you’re down?

What emotion makes you want to give up?

Are people shocked when you stand up for yourself?

How often do you say yes to the things you really want to say yes to?

How often do you say no to the things that make your skin crawl?

How far are you willing to go to maintain a relationship, even an unhealthy one?

What is the worst way someone’s ever abandoned you?

What is the worst way you’ve ever abandoned yourself?

How do you entertain yourself when you’re not around people?

Are you happier alone because you enjoy being alone or because you prefer it to being surrounded by horrible people?

What habit do you know you could quit but don’t want to?

What is your favorite strategy for avoiding difficult people?

What is your favorite strategy for avoiding conflict?

What is the weirdest thing that gets you angry?

What is the weirdest thing that makes you sad?

How often do you take responsibility for other people’s crappy behavior?

When are you most likely to shut people out?

Which insecurity would shock people if they knew about it?

What do you find yourself justifying to people, even when no justification is needed?

When was the last time you tried to please someone who made you angry?

What do people often tell you need to focus more on?

What do people often tell you need to focus less on?

What is the one thing that could make you happy, but you refuse to do it because you’re afraid of what others would think?

#a. let’s play a game | meme #;; > 👀

[chiildishhopes]

one .  was a sacrificial idiot. looping. looping to save those who their heart bled for. 

the other. was a intelligent mind, a healer by trade && fighting against fate to be by their side.

together.  they were more than what the devils of their world were ready for. 

                            fandomless ocs ( of <fa//en> ) murdered written by scales. 

#gif / #p. put up a flyer | promo #;; > bloop

[chiildishhopes]

Which paranormal being are you?

The Shapeshifter

You would break yourself into a thousand pieces, shatter every bone, and pry off every inch of skin to be what you think others want. You’ve become so many different things over the years. At this point, you’ve been everything except at peace. You conform and change and adapt and desert entire pieces of yourself, but when will it be enough? When has it ever been enough for them, and when has it ever made you whole again? Speaking of, who are you anymore? Do you even know? How long has it been since you’ve recognized the face in the mirror. Are “you” still “you?”

tagged.  @calamitoussoul

taggin’.  @ u 

#a. let’s play a game | meme #;;> excuse me why is this acurate #c. the files underneath the bed | canons

[chiildishhopes]

@ofsavior​  asked.    “ who did this to you? where are they? ” (From Bishamon)

source. 

there were aches all over. something she had grown used to at this point as she fixed her own broken nose with a pop and a hiss. it ain’t like it was nothing new. but it still hurt. she shook her head as she forced herself to stand tall, grabbing the flask from her pocket and taking a swig from it. 

she needed something to take the edge off, at least. 

“ just a fight gone wrong, ‘sall. “ she was growling without truly meaning to. acting like a wounded animal. playing tough. but the blood that was seeped into her hoodie, the fact her posture quaked as she breathed. told the true story of what had happened. 

“ it’s none of yer concern. “ she managed to cut the growl short as she leaned against the wall, a huff and puff to keep herself standing. “ it was just some bastards who decided t’ get the one over on m’. “ 

#a. let’s get talkin’ | answer #v. living on repeat | arc 3 #f. selfless meet selfless | bishamon #q. be back later | queue #;; > kaida just: these aren't injuries !!!! #;; > also kaida: is suffering since pain tolerence is none existent