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Adulting made easy with this barkada

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Life lately

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Also im still obsessed with seventeen and so excited to celebrate my bday with them (incidentally, follow to seoul falls on the same day as my bday SO YES OF COURSE COUNT ME IN BOYS)

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here and not here

In the picture, her hair was cropped short and uneven, sticking out all over the place, signaling that the buzzcut was not done by professional, adept hands. Mama’s expression was smug, as it always had been in every ID picture she has, probably thinking for the hundredth time the inconvenience but necessity of having ID pictures taken. I was just scrolling through my gallery trying to find a…

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Everything from today is a gift. The way You even sent me a ride to work so easily. I am loved the way i didnt know i needed to be. I am provided for, i am accounted for, i am valued.

Thank you, God.

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we assume so many roles in this life that we get distracted from our primary role-- a child of God, first and foremost.

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How i wish i was able to enjoy this concert without worrying about my internal battles.

I hope next time we meet, i'm in a much better place, seventeen.

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I WANT TO SCREAM BUT I HAVE NO ONE TO TURN TO SO IM GOING TO SCREAM HEREEEEEEEEEWE

I AM SEEING SEVENTEEN LIVE NEXT MONTH!!!!!_×,&@&×€@%-^×;@_@:@@^@^@:-_#^×&#€;

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DLWNEJWMZJAHAJSJHD

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WANTED TO COMMEMORATE THIS DAY. THE DAY I WAS OFFICIALLY WELCOMED TO CARATLAND.

Let this day be known as the day we chose further pain and suffering as a fangirl.

Xu minghao, what do i do with you, you funny babie you 😭

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Drinking iced coffee in this downpour whilst getting excited for God's plans?!

Yes. A thousand times over.

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Careful not to move much even though my limbs have become numb from the lack of circulation. I was squished between friends who were sound asleep from the exhaustion of the day, sweating under the comforters badly wanting to toss it away to welcome the cold from the air conditioner, but forced myself to sleep instead lest i would wake them.

But in this barkadahan, i really do not mind at all.

When the morning came, and the first question they asked, "ram, nakatulog ka ba?" in an apologetic tone, i would answer with an "oo naman," and it was not a lie, i was able to fall asleep several minutes after them because i was at peace.

You, my friends, are a comfort place.

(Thank you, God for the gift of friends, for ATC, for knowing the kind of influence and people i would need in my life, that it is not by accident that You called us into this barkada, that i have people to adult with. I am always undeserving.)

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How do i even eat these cookies. I want them preserved and displayed in my room forever. 💜🥲

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Main takeaway: if God is my standard, it is so easy to discern something that needs saying no to.

No entertaining, no bargaining, no ifs and buts.

In short: kaya tayo single.

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What used to be a regular thing to do as undergrads is now a very rare occurence. In college, when we were still not yet so spent after a long clinic day (or sometimes even if we were), we would often chase this same sunset. Walking briskly, almost running, just to catch this performance of the sun dipping below the horizon minute by minute with the sky in its full glory of gradients (my favorite being the purple-pink-orange hues). Never mind the stale, salty manila bay air reeking of trash and horse manure (and at times, even human excrement) or the possibility of your phone getting suddenly snatched-- watching the sunset and the moonrise while airing out frustrations or eating dirty ice cream or just talking was the easiest and nearest natural breather. And it was the cheapest too. Ships, planes, kalesas, people, birds, and the hours would pass by. As the day turns into night, there would always be a promise of another sunset to watch with friends the next day. Along with new clinic frustrations to air out or clinic wins to celebrate. Until one day, we all graduated and this season came to pass. Nothing to point out here, I just missed all these today as we watched another sunset together and wondered when the last time i actually sat with friends to watch a sunset again was.

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Didn't feel like turning a year older, didn't feel like celebrating, didn't feel like renewing my license, didn't even feel like talking to God today.

But somehow, He moved me to go through each birthday message i received and actually spend time praying for the person who sent it.

So thank you for taking time to wish me a happy birthday today and know that you've been prayed for, and someone who didn't feel like turning 29 today talked to God for a bit about you.

Ps:

No such thing as too much (tata) cake for someone in her late 20's.