daily reminder that worshipping the gods does not always have to be fancy food or edible offerings, it does not always have to be a fancy ceremony or ritual. worshipping the gods also consists of thinking about them throughout your day, praying to them, doing small things in honor of them. worship isn't always ceremonial or ritualistic 🤍
As a child I thought the worst thing that could happen to you was death but I was wrong. This is worse, feeling like you’re dead but still being alive and having to live your day without wanting to, with the only thought of returning to bed to stop feeling. And I've been like this for a long time and it's horrible, I know I have a lot of people around me that I can trust but I still feel lonely.
When you’re growing up in abusive environment there’s such a strong feeling of “not belonging here”, “not being a part of anything” and feeling like you’re not supposed to be among humans at all, and only wishing that someone would come already and take you home. To another planet, where there’s people like you, where you wouldn’t be a burden or nuisance, where you wouldn’t feel guilty for just being, for existing as you are. It feels all wrong, being in a place where you’re so despised, as if it would be better if you didn’t exist at all. We all just want to go to our real home.