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For awhile there I was really putting myself out there online. Writing when I'm high tends to do that for me.

But then I got withdrawn.

I felt more and more that some things aren't really meant to be shared. I don't know though. At least not when I'm high. When I'm high I really don';t give a fuck.

#blog

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"Daniel" is one of my favourite Elton John songs. Sometimes I just sing the first part to myself when I'm washing dishes or whatever.

#blog #elton john #daniel #song

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I don't really understand this whole "inner monologue" thing that people are wrestling with. Like, I have thoughts. But I don't hear a voice in my head. People hear voices in their heads and they've flipped it around to analyze people who don't hear voices?

I don't hear a voice reading either. I try to imagine what characters sound like, however. So maybe this is a question of language. As in we don't really have the words to describe how we experience our thoughts.

#blog

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I want something else (not crystal meth) to get me through this semi charmed kind of life

#blog #third eye blind lyrics #semi-charmed life

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Sometimes I click on videos for like trying different bourbons or making cocktails and I'm like why do I keep doing this? I barely drink.

I may be repeating myself.

#blog

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It really is nuts to me how so many people are now getting annoyed with Taylor Swift. I guess she just has gotten so big at this point that she has become kind of unavoidable. There's gotta be a word for that.

It seems like it used to be if you didn't try and follow a certain musical band or artist/singer/whatever you could just avoid them almost entirely.

Even back in the 60s there were people who didn't like the Beatles, though, and if social media had existed back then there'd be people moaning about them as well.

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I remember I used to post things like under pictures of girls naked/doing porn things on reddit like "hot" and stuff. But if anyone ever followed up I was like Oh shit I made a big fucking mistake. I don't want this. I never wanted this.

#blog #personal

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Using this one reddit profile to talk about my porn issues made me realize how cathartic it can be to talk about these things and that I used to use this tumblr for the same kind of thing. I kind of closed myself off and stopped posting stuff.

I'm not saying that's going to change, but it feels good to just put stuff out there. Because then you can't be ashamed of it anymore because it's not a secret. Somehow.

I was abused as a kid and it fucked me up for a lot of years. There. Whew.

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Seeing women get aroused or seeing them cum doesn't interest me unless it's my wife.

Seeing other women's pussies doesn't do much for me either.

I do like seeing tits though. And bums.

For guys I like slender and/ or muscular but wearing clothes, not naked.

#blog #bisexual

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I went from being a bit moody with higher highs and lower lows to being so even keel that the most upset I've been lately have been over trivial things. It's almost like I'm craving something more exciting than this mostly unremarkable but happy life I have.

I feel like I need those chemicals that are released with these shifts in mood.

#blog

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I wish I could go and get a cup of coffee.

#blog #at work

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I used to feel like I had places to go online. Now I just go to read other people's thoughts (or watch videos).

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Gender Role Test

I am Casually Feminine. My scores are 42% masculine, 64% feminine. https://idrlabs.com/gender/result.php?masculine=42&feminine=64 via

@idr_labs

Not that I didn't know I was feminine, but this confirms it.

#bisexual male #bisexual #blog

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Radiohead really feels like a late fall/ winter band to me.

#radiohead #blog #who are my real friends?

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Remembering how I didn't think I was gay even though I liked dry humping other boys, was in love with my best friend (boy) and wanted to have their dicks in my mouth.

#blog #bisexual #male bisexuality #gay

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I start feeling like I agree with a lot of what other people are saying. I'm feeling more sane. Finally! I think.

And another part of myself is hitting the alarm. If you're in alignment with people's opinions, maybe you need to rethink your opinions.

#blog

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I like boobs. Small, large or somewhere in between.

#blog #feeling very bi