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bushranayeem · 2 years

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Once again it’s one of those nights

Nothing seem to be in sight

It’s all dark

There is no spark

Spark of love, laugh, life

You are out of sight

It breaks my heart

I wish we could go back to the start

I wish I could look at you like you were my art

Pain hits home like a dart

It’s one of those nights

Nothing seem to be in sight

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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I cried tonight

After days and night

I cried tonight

Tears fell from my eyes

The moon can hear my cries

I cried tonight

I felt something tonight

After days and night

He found someone new

Maybe I’m one of the few

Few who feel numb for long

Few who aren’t that strong

I finally felt something tonight

I finally cried tonight

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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My body and mind hurts

I’m done taking Serts

These sleepless nights

Give me frights

My body and mind hurts

My disease and I flirt

These sleepless nights

Have no lights

It’s all dark

There is no spark

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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Tonight the moon is bright

It is an amazing sight

Only you are missing

People have been dissing

Tonight the moon is bright

I see you in it’s light

I wish I could hug you

I hope you feel the same too

Tonight the moon is bright

I guess I have nothing to fight

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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The wait is over

We are sober

We tried talking

We did some stalking

Here we are, back to square one

Maybe this time we are done

The wait is over

We are sober

Everything changed

Feeling estranged

Here we are, back to being two

Maybe this time you’d love me too

The wait is over

We are sober

Throw everything under the bus

Our mind played us

Here we are, back to being three

Maybe this time we will be free

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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You’ll be back soon

I was told by the moon

The cold breeze

Is making everything freeze

Stars are hiding

Memories are sliding

I miss you

I hope you miss me too

I wait for you

I hope you wait for me too

I’m holding onto us

I hope you don’t break my trust

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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I feel too much

There is no remedy to it as such

I care a lot

People forgot

I can’t stop my emotions

These are my devotions

This is how I’m made

I don’t need your aid

People don’t understand

They like everything bland

Maybe my problems seem petty

You judge me sitting on your little settee

Judge me all you want

Spare me all the taunts

You have crossed the line

Now you will have to pay the fine

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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Sunflowers, yellow and black

Sunflowers have a few cracks

Sunflowers move with the sun

Sunflowers are on a constant run

Sunflowers are never stable

Sunflowers without the sun are disable

Sunflowers without the sun are lost

Sunflowers are tall and soft

Sunflowers are nothing without the sun

Sunflowers have a friend for fun

Sunflowers on a rainy day are low

Sunflowers put on a perfect show

Sunflowers play hide and seek

Sunflowers are just some freaks

Sunflowers are yellow and black

I’m sunflower , please take me back

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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I hate it, I hate feeling everything

I hate myself for saying everything

I want you to know

It’s not a show

These are my secrets to keep

I hate it when I force myself to speak

All I need is sleep

Sleep won’t be easy tonight

I dread as it will be light

I don’t want you to stay

Let me push you away

I hate everything I say

I hate it when I feel all this

Let me stay in my dark abyss

You and I are not the same

That’s a shame

Just stay away from me

Even I wouldn’t want to be with me

You won’t understand a thing

I want you to know it stings

I don’t want to feel anything

I hate it, I hate feeling things

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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Tonight we became one

You are the moon to my sun

You held me tight

It felt so right

Tonight we became one

Everything was perfect and fun

I don’t need no pills to be happy

I have you and I don’t feel crappy

Tonight we became one

Maybe we are not done

You touched my soul

And I became whole

Tonight we became one

You are the moon to my sun

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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I’m too scared to hurt you

I’m too scared to love you

I’ve been broken for so long

My moods swing like a ping pong

I’m scared to break your heart

For me you are precious art

An art that shall be handled with care

Let’s keep it real or it won’t be fair

Everything I touch turns into dust

You should stay away from me,that’s a must

I care for you too much

This isn’t love as such

It’s something deeper than that

I can’t loose you, that’s a fact

A fact I can’t change

Even though this situation is strange

I’m too scared to hurt you

I’m too scared to love you

I’m too scared to let go of you....

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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Our story is yet to be told

The truth shall unfold

Our story is yet to be seen

You don’t seem to be keen

Keen on me

Keen on “we”

Our story is yet to be a fairytale

I can’t see it become stale

My heart breaks

Is this what it takes?

Takes to become one

Or are we just done?

You lack a million things but love ain’t one

It was all games and fun

Until things became confusing

Maybe that’s when we started loosing

Loosing ourselves to life

You’d call me your wife

Yet I was left alone

Standing alone

Unbearable were my nights

Maybe this was my fight

Waiting for you to see me

Waiting for you to love me

Waiting to fight with you

Waiting to scream at you

Is this what you wanted to do?

I’m hurting

Maybe you were just flirting

Our story is yet to be told

The truth shall unfold...

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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Hi I felt to tell you that everything you are feeling will pass, as do the clouds in the sky. your thoughts are like clouds, but remember that you are the sky and not the clouds. I just wanted to tell you this, smile more and enjoy every day as if it were the last. you are light. You are marvel. Who are you? look around. What is the world? It's a miracle. live, you are alive, everything is in you. we are one

Thank you so much for your kind words and the positive vibes.

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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Trying one day at a time

It’s sour as a lime

Waiting for you day in day out

Spending my time full of doubt

Time has never been on our side

Waiting has been a rollercoaster ride

Ride we both weren’t prepared for

What am I waiting for?

For you to come

Maybe I’m just dumb

These thoughts bother me

I’m in pain you see

Maybe I’m too blind

It has been my daily grind

Blind to see the reality

I feel like a stranger in my own city

Please come soon

Let’s sit and see the moon

Let’s do this one last time

After all you are my partner in crime

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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My thoughts are all blurry

You don’t have to worry

Love for me is something unknown

My heart is not made of stone

Loving me is not easy you know

I have my insecurities which I don’t show

It’s not about you its about me

You are an amazing person you see

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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They say write what makes you happy

How can you do that when all you do is feel crappy?

Smile more often they say

For every smile I have I’ll have to pay

Life is not all black and white I’m told

You is all I want but you are so cold

Cold like a winter night

You give me the scares and fright

I love you don’t take me wrong

But first I will have to make myself strong

Strong for you , stronger for us

This should be easy but I don’t understand the fuss

Let me love you more

There is so much more in store

Let me touch your face

Let me fall with grace

Let me hug you tight

So I feel light

Let me kiss your lips

Let me play with your fingertips

Let me call your name

Things will not be the same

Let me hold your hand

Let my arms create a band

Band that will keep you forever

So you don’t leave me ever

We will have our happily ever after

Filled with love and laughter

I love you to moon and back

But love is what you lack

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bushranayeem · 3 years

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Here I am again thinking about life

What’s this hype of living a long life?

I ask

Living a Life I have no control over

Waiting for it to be soon over

My veins seem to be a bit too popped up

Inviting me to cut

Cut after cut will make me feel

What’s the big deal?

I ask

The pain which lies deep within

The memories have now creeped in

I took those pills

Thinking they’d kill

How stupid was I

To think and cry

I wanted to be saved

Yet death is all I crave

What will it mean to be saved?

I ask

Nothing that would matter I was told

Your life has already been sold

Said my head

Which has already been dead

It died with my soul

Which seems too old

Old soul they say

Make way as I sway

Swaying to the songs of death

Gives me rushes similar to meth

Make way as I dance with the death

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