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Bht also I feel like everyone around me r the mentally ill people. Im the only sober one at this party and it’s been like dis fkr 20 years

Mental health at an all time low guys

#I am genuinely tweaking I need to change my identity and move somewhere far away from civilization

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Mental health at an all time low guys

#It’s like Im fucking 16 again. The fuck

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Fuck I have to call my friends at 8:30 to discuss weekend plans I just finished crying into my pillow

#I do naut wanna get out of bed for dis….

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I can beat my avoidant tendencies I just have to stay away from any situation in which I might become avoidant. Problem solved

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Palestinian children plant flowers among the debris of buildings demolished by the Israeli army in 2014. Gaza City.

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I died again. But for good reason. My life is indeed going downhill. I am starting to understand why my older brother left home. My parents r genuinely sociopaths 🥰 And I have been manipulated for 20 years of my life! Skill issue ig 🤥

#At the moment I am looking for a second job. So I can get money. And get the fuck out of hereeee <3

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All I do is work but omg look at this beautiful sunrise from the train this morning

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My routine as of late:

Wake up at 5:30am, set a timer for 5 minutes, wake up at 5:35am, repeat this process until I can feel my face

Wash my face with benzoyl peroxide because I am developing adult acne in my 20s

Drink my coffee and forget to make my lunch. Take a banana and a granola bar to-go

Ride the train and make faces at the stupid idiot slow-brained people I encounter. And I avoid mirrors cus my reflection is starting to scare me now!

Get to work and pretend to be normal until 4pm

Get home eat my daily yogurt and take my medicines

Masturbate if I am not depressed. If I am depressed I read my yaoi manhwas. Mostly has been the latter recently cus my medicine has been killing my sex drive

Lay awake at night dreaming about being in love. Plan on making a good lunch tomorrow (I never do).

I talk to my dad in the morning and decide love is Not for me at the moment

#I will make this again every year to see if I become better

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I am going to watch the FNAF movie w my little brothers on Saturday and it is quite honestly tje only thing I am looking forward to this week .

#On Friday we have this work party thing 😭 I am not looking forward to it but I have to go cus everyones going…

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To Exist Is To Resist. 19th August 2014.

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Officially in my quiet era i don't have much to say about anything anymore it is what it is and life goes on

#meeeee actually.

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Love and Revolution. 

Palestinian resistance fighters in Lebanon, 1980.

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having a job is like They're trying to close you off from the cosmos

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There is still hope. Say it out loud. Palestine will be free. The Palestinian people will celebrate their culture and heritage with each other. We will love and be loved. Do not fall into the trap of despair.

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Palestinians, 1979. Thomas Billhardt,

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I think abt turning 21 in like 4 months and genuinely start to have a panic attack what have I done with my life Ive never been in love, Im boring af w no actual hobbies, have never been to a party, have never broken a law… Im the most boring girl in the world

#I feel like crying right Nkw lol #I feel like Im relapsing and idk how to stop it