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brydigdraws · 2 months

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still in love with Crowley's Eden hair v.v

(sketch drawn on a small post-it note out of boredom last summer)

#(coloured digitally)#good omens #anthony j crowley #eden crowley #my art #fan art #sketch #traditional #procreate

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brydigdraws · 2 months

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A little demon buddy I doodled in class :>

#lamenting the lack of a devil tail emoji #my art #demon #devil #doodle #mild nudity #traditional #(edited digitally)#original

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brydigdraws · 3 months

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SynthV GUMI voicebank let's gooooooo!!!

#GUMI #Megpoid #GUMI Megpoid #Megpoid GUMI #vocaloid #synthv #synth v #(let's pretend this is still a fresh release bc I drew this over new year's and just didn't get around to uploading it until now)#my art #my finished art #fan art #procreate

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brydigdraws · 6 months

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Did requests on an anonymous local app again about a year ago, this time to try out Rebelle and my new tablet

Very diverse prompts as usual

#James Hoffmann #Bojack Horseman #Aipom #Pokémon #Pokemon #my art #fan art #original #doodle #sketch #real people #Rebelle #Rebelle review: interesting program with very unique capabilities - it has its place but I find other art programs easier to use #but that may only be because I have yet to become used to it

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brydigdraws · 6 months

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"Finally."

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brydigdraws · 8 months

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What did I ever do to you that you should treat me this way?

Is it really such a crime for an angel to speak his mind?

In time, I’ll try to shed some light...

— Almost Human - Aurelio Voltaire

#the song is literally about the Devil I recommend listening to the full thing for some Crowley Feels™#good omens #anthony j crowley #my art #my finished art #painting #procreate #Aurelio Voltaire #I've been working on and off on this since fucking 2019 it is DONE. FINISHED.

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brydigdraws · 8 months

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Wanted to make a coral reef-inspired mermaid 🪸

#you can go a lot further with this idea but I was mostly dicking around tbh #my art #my finished art #original #mermaid #merman #merperson #procreate #fish in the background are from an edited CC0 photo #also the new post editor has finally reached me and I think I'll have to change my blog theme to make images look good #if anyone makes a legacy post editor script let me know #can't even preview posts anymore I hate it here

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brydigdraws · 9 months

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A slightly edited version of the 2-page spread I did for @wiggleonzine vol 2!

Viking!Aziraphale encountering Jörmungandr!Crowley

#good omens #Aziraphale #Anthony J Crowley #ineffable husbands #Good Omens AU #my art #my finished art #fan art #zine #fanzine #Get a Wiggle On #procreate #also hi s2 girlies how the FUCK are we doing!!!!!!!

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brydigdraws · 11 months

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So these are long overdue lmao

I didn’t quite realise how 2021 was The Year of Crowley (2020 was The Year of Aziraphale) and 2022 was The Year of Izzy until I put these summaries together

I didn’t manage to account for every month these past two years, and 2022 is looking particularly sketchy (quite literally). This is because Shit Went Down :) I’m going to summarise it below for my own benefit▼

Personal/philosophical ramble under cut

In 2021 I had a lot going on, which I think explains the lack of art in June and August (memory’s fuzzy), and why I never posted some of the art in the summary here on tumblr (miiight post Nov and Dec soon-ish). In 2022 things initially screeched to a halt and I had the worst art crisis (and personal crisis tbh) I’ve ever had. Basically I had a really hard time drawing anything without it feeling completely soulless and of worse quality than my actual skill level, which heavily impacted my motivation to draw (sometimes my ofmd obsession came out on top lmao, but that fanart still felt like it was lacking something essential 99% of the time). I drew less, and felt worse for drawing less, which made me draw even less, repeat ad infinitum. It wasn’t until solidly into Autumn that I realised the root of the problem: I had tied the label “artist” so closely to my identity that it had effectively become my identity. And since it was my identity, I felt I had to become a professional artist or be miserable, and in order to become a professional artist I felt I had to constantly focus on honing my skills and get better, nitpick everything in every drawing and strive for impossible perfection, and “draw every day” as all the professional artists advice you to do (I have never managed to draw every day, and my failure to do so made me feel like I was lagging behind). Drawing had slowly but steadily become some insane rat race to me and eventually it ruined my art because I couldn’t appreciate where I was at. Actually finishing a piece of art felt like an incredibly arduous task with little reward (which is why I only really “finished” two pieces last year). I had drained myself of the inherent joy of creating. But realising this didn’t solve the problem, not on its own, because if the fact was “artist is my whole identity” the question then became “If I don’t create art, am I anything at all?”, and the answer for some time was “No.”

I have since found joy and genuine excitement in other types of creating (not that I hadn’t before, but never above a hobbyist level) with potential career opportunities that won’t make my daily life “miserable” (fun fact about me: my biggest fears are the unknown and having my soul ground down by the tireless gears of capitalism). This has helped me stress less about “becoming a professional artist” (something I’m still certain I’d enjoy, despite it all) and find some identity outside of art, but that perfectionist/improvement mindset in relation to my art didn’t start to leave me until a few days before New Year’s. That’s when I was suddenly inspired to make the Ed/Izzy sketch representing Dec ‘22 in the summary above. I had effectively given up on my art at that point, but my mental image was so strong I had to commit it to (digital) paper, no matter if it turned out like shit or not (which, in retrospect, is probably the most visceral motivation an artist can have for practicing their craft). Having no expectations on myself, and with the single-minded drive to capture the ~vibes~ and nothing more, I found the act of drawing fun and near effortless for the first time in fucking years. That’s when it clicked. You don’t have to try and make every aspect of a drawing perfect, and not every drawing needs to be properly rendered; just focus on the one or few most important things you need to be able to convey what it is you want to convey (in this case it was the overall poses and facial expressions). The rest may not be perfect, but it wouldn’t have been even if you tried to make it so, because perfection is fucking unattainable (as much as my chronically perfectionist ass wishes it wasn’t). Trying to attain it is a fool’s errand that’ll slowly eat you up, and your audience will most probably not even notice or care about the difference.

Audiences, especially online audiences, are arguably their own potential source of artist brainrot (and not the fun kind), and I’m of the firm opinion that art can definitely be made for no one’s eyes other than the artist’s own (in opposition to the mindset that the purpose of all art is for it to be shared with external parties) - my own art from years ago being an example of this. But I have found sharing my art with others to be such an inherent joy to me that I don’t think I’ll ever fully stop doing it, and will continue to try my best not to fall into the mental pitfalls that can come with it.

I don’t think my relationship to my own art is fully mended (and I’ve likely failed to see some of the cracks), but it’s definitely better now than it has been in a long, long while.

in short, thanks to edizzy’s dysfunctional marriage for helping me not give up on art I guess

#template by DustBunnyThumper on dA #my art #summary of art #fan art #original #suggestive #in regards to the contents of the read more: this does NOT mean art uploads will be more frequent; I am a spotty bitch and that's chronic

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brydigdraws · 11 months

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