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// I am putting this blog on indefinite hiatus and moving roi to my multi muse for now. With my mental health and irl responsibilities, I do not have the time/energy to run multiple blogs. My muse for xiv in general is low due to content draught anyway. But Roi will be there. If you want to move threads or ships/dynamics, feel free to dm me at @ruiination

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Do you have any headcanons or thoughts about your muse's relationship with Zero?

So Roi really liked Zero. As fellow edgelord goths, they had a lot in common. Zero's mindset was very similar to Roi's in ARR and so he could really empathize with her. Where Roi was a softy of the inside, he needed reassurance to let that part of him come out due to the years of trauma. He saw that Zero wasn't entirely bad. And even if she was, he didn't really care that much as long as she wasn't hurting anyone. All in all, he could really relate to her and genuinely cared about her a lot. They ruined so many people with the two of them crafting the spiciest curry known to man since Roi also LOVES spicy food. They were such menaces together. I wish we got more time with her because her and Roi had serious bestie potential.

(@thescions)

#⌈ ♞ ⌉ about. || ˟ –––– there is no weight that can bury us beneath the ghosts of all my guilt #⌈ ♞ ⌉ answers. || ˟ –––– I told you I’d spill my guts; I left you to clean it up #zero tbt #thescions #tyyy

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WOL Questions! Who was your WOL before meeting the Scions? Are there any relationships/friends maintained outside of the Scions throughout the story?

Sooo... Before meeting the scions, Roi was a VERY jaded and angry person. He didn't believe in good people anymore. He only wanted power so that way no one could ever hurt him again. He wanted to learn black magic solely to get as strong as possible. When the Scions approached him, he doubted them and planned on just joining for a more steady source of income.

Now the issue with Roi is, that no matter how negative and hateful he is, there is ALWAYS a part of him that deeply cares for others. And he tried to keep his distance from everyone to avoid getting attached because everyone he has ever known has basically died due to the empire in ala mhigo or poverty. Roi was exposed to war and violence so early that it really damaged him.

Roi had NO ONE prior to meeting the scions because his parents and his uncle died in ala mhigo and his aunt died in a refugee camp in thanalan when he lived there. But I can say that he does have a lot of friends outside of the scions after ARR. His first friends really were the beastmen in the black mage questline. Who, despite giving up black magic, he is still in contact with. He is also incredibly close with Sid and Rielle from the dark knight quests. The people in the Fortemps family are like family to him. Everyone that he met that was kind to him is someone he considers a friend. Roi gets attached to people very quickly. Despite his self hatred and difficult personality at times, he has a lot of friends outside of the scions. There are a handful of people that he doesn't like (even characters that I do like) that are still alive in endwalker. But pretty much everyone that helped in the msq is a friend to him to some degree outside of those specific people.

But yeah, if Roi hadn't met the scions, he probably would have died or worse because he was going down a bad path.

( @thescions )

#⌈ ♞ ⌉ answers. || ˟ –––– I told you I’d spill my guts; I left you to clean it up #⌈ ♞ ⌉ about. || ˟ –––– there is no weight that can bury us beneath the ghosts of all my guilt #thescions #thanks for this!!!

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puts this in my bio

#It's him #⌈ ♞ ⌉ study. || ˟ –––– no blood for you will ever be enough #⌈ ♞ ⌉ queue. || ˟ –––– I think we were cursed from the start.

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#⌈ ♞ ⌉ aes. || ˟ –––– i drove through countries like a marching funeral

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// tbh... at this point i am highly considering moving roi to my multi solely to like have it all in one place. but i do like him having his own space...

#⌈ ♞ ⌉ ooc. || ˟ –––– it’s topaz

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// LOOK AT HIM

#⌈ ♞ ⌉ visage. || ˟ –––– In this cold reality I made this selfish war machine

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// sorry guys i am having brainrot for dbd and aw2 rn mostly been on my multi @ruiination

#⌈ ♞ ⌉ ooc. || ˟ –––– it’s topaz #hehe maybe soon i will be able to be consistent and not disappointing but not today

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if ur in a tough situation and don't know what to do immediately escalate to violence. follow me for more life advice ❤️

#⌈ ♞ ⌉ study. || ˟ –––– no blood for you will ever be enough

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// I'm alive. Just severely depressed. Sorry.

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⸻ ⚔ He had never asked to be a part of the conflict. He would have been happy to grow old in that remote village. To allow his mother and uncle and his neighbors to live out their lives. But by his arrogant actions, they all died. All because he thought he could stand up to the empire. A foolish child. That child died when his village burned and his mother was killed. He died again watching the resistance carry in the dead and injured. When his uncle was killed. Every day in the prison and the lab. He wished so badly that he would have died when the village burned. Or perhaps before. To die blissfully unaware of the true scope of horror the world had in store for him.

"I'm supposed to just believe that...?" Roi did not know if this woman hated the empire as much as he did. Were he not so broken down, if the situation was swapped, he would kill her simply for wearing their colors. But perhaps she was not as vile of a person as he was. As for a weapon, he was not given one aside from a dagger. He was mainly used for information gathering or other things. His body had been abused for a long time. He would not last in a fight.

"You can't beat them..." He almost says it to remind himself. Why he can't throw himself at her feet and beg for her to save him. It would just lead to things being worse. Just like on that day his world went up in flames. "If I gave myself up... Either you people would torture me or... or they will when they take me back..." He had heard the Eorzean forces were brutal, but he did not know how much truth there was.

There is a sudden thought to pull out his dagger and drive it into his own chest. The urge is strong enough to make his scarred hands shake. He has to survive.... If he died... what did his entire family die for? But Gods... He wanted it to be over.

"No matter what you do... you can't stop them. The empire is... unstoppable."

@brightblessed sent : ❛ are you here to kill me? ❜ from non-wol (garlean conscript) Roi. You can dm me with questions but hiiii

conflicts were not kind. even in victory, no one truly came out any better ; losses would be losses, regardless of the side, and she had seen many of them in such a short span of time. if words could easily assuage the fires of strife and conflict, chidori would have preferred that .. but the reality was much more grim, and she knew her place as not only scion, but eorzea's champion. hydaelyn's champion. there was no place for anything other than realism here. she would do what she could to lessen the blow, but .. she knew that it wouldn't always work.

" if you show no hostility toward me .. then i will have no need to defend myself. " it was the kindest way to put it -- that should he decide to bear arms against her, she would only respond in kind. if it was between her own head and another's, she was determined to come out surviving. however, her other option .. should he even think of reaching for a weapon, was to simply disarm him or attempt to render him unconscious. what she lacked in brute strength she made up for in speed and perception.

" if you lay down your arms .. you could come with me .. you'll be safer. " she stated. regardless, her hands still rest at her hips, fingertips just barely tracing the handles of her daggers. her eyes flit between his hands and his expression, trying to gather any reading that she could. any signs that she should be more wary than she already happened to be.

#⌈ ♞ ⌉ ic. || ˟ –––– crawling in the dark #⌈ ♞ ⌉ alt i.⁽ᵇ⁾ || ˟ –––– lightless ⁽ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵒʸ ʷᶤᵗʰ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇʳᵒᵏᵉᶰ ʰᵃˡᵒ ⁾ #/// suicidal thoughts #/// death mention #/// abuse mention #subtleblade

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// at this point I might actually have to remake because my tags are broken

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LOVE WINS IN ALOALO

#/// 6.5 spoilers #⌈ ♞ ⌉ ooc. || ˟ –––– it’s topaz

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@cagedfirebird (x):

An abandoned house full of injured Bearers, it was an odd thing that Cid had sent her to investigate. There was little wrong with the fact that there was another working to free the Bearers of Rosaria from the insult known as the Black Shields that had been crafted specifically by her mother to rub salt into the wounds of the former Duchy. But it was likely the man lacked resources, lacked the ability to offer them care-- and that was what she had come to offer those he had rescued. Tarja would happily see to their ails, and they would have no issues accepting their savior into their ranks or at least offering him coin for his unintentional help. Sword hung from her hand, another beasts blood fresh upon the steel of her blade. The path would need to be clear, it was unknown how injured the Bearers were, or if they were even capable of walking still. She hated how it had come to this, were they not men and women just as the rest of them? Clive had known her mother was never fond of the Bearers or her father's treatment of them, but this was far too extreme. "Whoa, whoa. I don't mean any of you harm, my apologies. No, I would have their blood upon my blade for making a mockery of the Shields and their service to the Ducal throne. I'm one of them too." Strands of ebony were moved off of her cheek, revealing the brand still upon her skin. "I'm not going to hurt anyone. I'm.. with the Outlaw, we wanted to know if you wished for us to ensure they get proper medical attention." Her own blade was sheathed upon her back, not wanting to look as if she would suddenly make a strike at the man. She wished to ally with him if possible, not cause a disturbance that would surely draw unwanted attention.

⸻ ✦Yellow eyes narrowed at the woman. It mattered little if she was a Bearer. He knew firsthand how many would turn on each other for their masters. It was not their fault. Survival often depended on being unwilling to turn a blind eye to disobedience. And while Roi had only JUST escaped from the Empire recently, he could remember it well. He likely would never have had the strength to leave his unit had they not all died aside from him. Even then, there had been a part of him that said it best to report in. He hated that part of him. The part that behaved like a loyal dog.

"Is that supposed to mean shit to me?" Roi trusted no one. He didn't even trust those hidden within. This was all just petty defiance. A search for redemption he would never find. An excuse to hurt people he thought deserved it. There were no heroic intentions here. Even if it could be seen as such. He was far too rotten for that.

"The outlaw...?" Roi had heard whispers of him. People asking if he worked for him. He didn't believe anyone would go out of their way for Bearers. Not without an ulterior motive. Still, he was hurt and exhausted. But he had to put on a brave face. His own mark was hidden, he could try to pretend to not be branded.

"This outlaw bastard... Am I supposed to trust someone out there would help Bearers? Or does he mean to use us--- them for his own ends?" Well, so much for pretending. He can only hope his misstep goes unnoticed.

#cagedfirebird #⌈ ♞ ⌉ ic. || ˟ –––– crawling in the dark #⌈ ♞ ⌉ xvi. || ˟ –––– i’m the one that makes my final call #/// ffxvi

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// Would anyone be down for me to send them asks so I can turn your lovely answers into threads so I can write but not use my brain. I have like 2 things I owe.

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Send “your heart is racing.” for my muse’s response.

#Tbt

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// any of yall have super specific pet peeves when it comes to content of a specific character that you like physically wince when you see it???

#not to be dramatic but that is literally how i feel when i see wh/it/e shtola art #there are other things but yea i see this on twitter #⌈ ♞ ⌉ ooc. || ˟ –––– it’s topaz