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bodhilaurent · 2 years

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You got so much sense, but

never make much sense

Tired of pretending you do

All of your words,

so well put together, but

Your mood changes like the weather

Was so caught up in loving you,

I forgot

To love myself

by God, I’m

Gonna give myself

all the love I gave you

Tenderness and patience too

‘Cause I mean more to me

than you ever will

-Bodhi Laurent

29 November 2021

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bodhilaurent · 2 years

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Love does not always beget love

A vile truth but true nonetheless

And love met with infatuation

Is love wasted

-Bodhi Laurent

26 November 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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I gave my final notice, I left you with the sparkling jewels

I ran towards the Pacific Ocean, to a paradise fit for fools

I ended up in a town I’ve never heard of,

Met the locals and fell in love

With the hazy summers that never soaked me up

I danced ‘til I was dizzy, laughed until I ached

Drank until I made a big mistake

I felt so free

In the paradise fit for fools by the sea

-Bodhi Laurent

The Paradise Fit for Fools by The Sea

24 September 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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Dreamin’ bad dreams, seein’ bad things

Killin’ myself to get to you

Goin’ off far, takin’ it all too far

Riddin’ myself of all to do with you

Singin’ those blues, gettin’ the right pair of shoes

To walk away from you one more time

Got my pen, my record player’s still spinnin’

Careful not to leave anything behind

‘Cause I need you to know what’s goin’ on

Baby, I’m gone

Got my pad, the words to our song

Still close to my heart but the door’s closer

‘Cause I need you to know what’s goin’ on

Baby, I’m gone

And you’ll never find me

‘Cause I crossed the Mississippi, headed West

‘Til I met the coast of a small California town you’ve never heard of

Nobody knows me here, and I feel free

It’s a dream, no more nightmares for me

Dreamin’ good dreams, seein’ good things

Killin’ who I was with you

Parked the car, drove so far

Rid myself of all to do with you

Singin’ jazz, gettin’ my joggin’ shoes

To walk towards the sun in the sky

Got my pen, my record player, I’m grinnin’

Careful not to leave any prayers behind

‘Cause I need you to know what’s goin’ on

Baby, I’m gone

And you can find me

If you cross the Mississippi, head East

‘Til you see the grittiest city you’ve ever seen

Nobody knows me here, and I feel alone

It’s a nightmare, no more dreams for me

Baby, I’m home

-Bodhi Laurent

Baby, I’m home

24 September 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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What whistle do I use to call you home?

How long have you been all on your own?

Will you stay the course, or will you roam?

Never knew you were alone.

Never knew.

If I could escape, where do you think I'd go?

Whenever I escape, where do you think I go?

Maybe to a world not in flames.

But then again, fire is all I know.

Fire is all I know.

It's just what feels right.

Kinda need somethin' to yearn.

Feelin' like I'll ignite.

Flames in me startin' to burn.

So hot that they turn blue.

Kinda like me when I lost you.

Tears fallin' down but head in the sky.

This is what it feels like to die.

This is what it feels like

To die.

-Bodhi Laurent

This Is What It Feels Like To Die

23 July 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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A broken man on the edge of sanity, who desired nothing but the ocean, created a wind of his own to get there;

he stood in the waves that brought his ancestors to shore and finally understood the power of self determination.

They tried to extinguish the fire in his soul as they did to his forefathers several generations before.

But their fire was fueled by nonperishable love.

-Bodhi Laurent

16 July 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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Beautiful boys come from beautiful places

Am I not beautiful 'cause my town is full of trash?

Then, burn it to the ground and feed me to the flames

-Bodhi Laurent

11 June 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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Love is honeydew melon.

Something sweeter than cane,

Yet repulsive on my tongue.

Still, I crave it in the summer months.

-Bodhi Laurent

Honeydew

18 April 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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Stark mad as hell-

Aren't you?

Don't you feel like raising hell?

I've got this fever

This raging fever

That won't dissipate

I've got this fever,

This awful fever

That's hot right

out of the gate

What vexes me

Is on par with evil

And it caresses me

'Til I'm weak and feeble

Can hear the storm rollin' in

Stark mad 'cause the hail's hittin' my window

This fever's white hot!

Stick around to tell the tale

In case my poor heart stops. . .

-Bodhi Laurent

White Hot Fever

31 March 2021

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bodhilaurent · 3 years

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I was born naked and alone

Like all humans without a twin.

I filled an entire womb;

Catered to by a woman's body.

I was the center of someone's universe

And I remember none of it.

-Bodhi Laurent

28 December 2020

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bodhilaurent · 4 years

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Nobody knows how to hold a conversation

All they wanna do is take off their clothes

Instead of touching me,

They just wanna touch me (booo!)

So I don't hold back, I take control

I am just a boy with good intentions

But I feel like the world has turned me out

So I take off my clothes and fuck like it's my mission

Then I show him the way out

I learned to be reciprocal

This ain't a social call

After all, we're here to fuck

Not fall in love

I'm done with this shit

-Bodhi Laurent

16 October 2020

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bodhilaurent · 4 years

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I’m alive

But do not lie

When I say

I am dead

On the inside;

Just look

Into my eyes

And you’ll see

That I’m gone.

-Bodhi Laurent

29 September 2020

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bodhilaurent · 4 years

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In my mind, I believed that we could mend each other’s souls. I thought that we could love past our trauma and overcome anything. I thought I could love you past your trauma and help you overcome anything. You were like shattered porcelain, I saw the cracks. I still pieced you together like a jigsaw puzzle. I didn’t realize that I was missing the glue that held you in place. Every time the earth shook, you fell apart. Your tears became mine, but I loved you, so, I didn’t mind. You expected me to run because you were afraid—afraid of being more than I could handle. I didn’t run. I planted my feet firmly into the ground and weathered the tide. You were sinking, and I was fine with sinking too.

-Bodhi Laurent

Written 12 September 2020

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bodhilaurent · 4 years

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Sleep deprivation, here;

Little relief, I fear.

Turn the volume up

On the TV set-

White noise is all I hear.

White noise is all I hear;

Can’t make out what they’re sayin’.

White noise is all I hear;

Can’t tell if they’re sinnin’ or prayin’.

Suicide by hanging here;

Cry at the sun as she rises

From the depths of my despair

Don’t draw the shades-

Ain’t no sunlight welcomed here.

White noise is all I hear;

Can’t make out what they’re sayin’.

White noise is all I hear;

Can’t tell if they’re sinnin’ or prayin’.

Am I sinnin’ or prayin’?

-Bodhi Laurent

Written 10 September 2020

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bodhilaurent · 4 years

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The Final Frame

Beautiful September.

‘Cept I done lost my baby.

He went and found a new man

And his man is green like the trees.

September, glad to see ya.

‘Cept I done lost my baby

To newer, better, shinier things;

To a man with a dick like gold.

Glad to feel the breeze of September.

‘Cept my blood is boilin’

‘Cause I done lost my baby

To a man who never folds.

September, the final frame.

Glad to see the end is near.

‘Cept I done lost my baby

To the man he loves so dear.

September, September.

Ain’t it queer

How you arrive like heaven

‘Cept the devil is near.

Already September,

Glad the end is here.

‘Cept I done lost my baby

To a man without fear.

Glad to feel the breeze of September,

A reminder that Autumn is near.

‘Cept I done lost my baby

And the cold won’t keep him here.

-Bodhi Laurent

Written 1 September 2020

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bodhilaurent · 4 years

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Icarus

I said, "When I sort it out,

I'll tell you what it's all about."

But I think all you heard

Was a poet lost for words.

You say I'm changing like the seasons,

Cold when you could use some sun.

If I were like the seagulls-

I'd leave everyone.

But I know I'd return,

I would crash and burn

With the scars of torched wings on my back.

He tried to tell me that

Wings made of wax

Melt in the sun.

But I never listen to anyone...

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bodhilaurent · 4 years

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dusk to dawn.

they circle the sky ‘round

to and fro gathering little things

of no importance to me

twigs and moss along the riverbank. . .

worms burrowing in mud akin to clay. . .

peace being the breeze underneath

their soaring wings. . .

ethereal screens of blue surrounding them. . .

warmth of being that much closer to the sun. . .

perched on some willow as dusk nears

singing the world to sleep

lullaby

sweet lullaby. . .

and calm is the earth veiled in black until

alas the first ray of sunlight penetrates the west

morning cry is now the name of their song

they rush like a stream being blown by giants

into the air above fields of green. . .

-Bodhi Laurent

5 March 2020

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