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Doing my last rites is unnecessary. I never believed in the religion in the first place. I tried believing that there's more to life so it's silly to not believe that there's at least some form of higher being out there but ultimately, I'm a skeptic. I will forever remain to be so.

Because wtf? What the actual fuck am I doing? Why do I need to be here? To constantly push to do better in life and accommodate for a comfortable future? Okay sure... I'll try, but I'm still gonna get dragged and failed every step of the way? Okay, I'm human... I make mistakes and it's just something I have to deal with(not like I have choices)

One last push, but regardless of all that I've been already pushing for... if I miss the mark now I'm leaving.

#what am i even doing #fuck this #why am i still alive #let it be me #sliceoflife

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“It’s easy to take off your clothes and have sex. People do it all the time. But opening up your soul to someone, letting them into your spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes, dreams… that is being naked.”

— Rob Bell

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My mum's one of the strongest woman I know. Seeing her deal with anything in life gave me the strength to know better than to put myself through that same situation. I hope I can show her how much I appreciate it.

#thank you mum #let it be me #i love you endlessly #what am i even doing

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I don't want to be here. It's difficult to acknowledge that my presence isn't the issue of my existence but more the issues themselves that build up into my reason... my presence serves no purpose.

I can't keep up with the secrets I have to keep to protect the peace, when the peace is never protected by anyone else. I'm the cause of my own issues but an additional cause for my subordinates complexities.

I wish my lifetime could be replaced by someone that actually deserved to be here. I don't. I cannot recognize that my life is necessary. It's not.

#what am i even doing #fuck this #why am i still alive #i love you endlessly #let it be me

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It's oki big guy, things not going your way are just a step towards things getting better✨

~me being dumb

#what am i even doing #i love you endlessly #let it be me #fuck this #why am i still alive

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I feel like I've just been detached from a whole chunk of "what could have been" from my life. An infinite amount of possibilities, just taken away from me. I won't have anymore of the Lil moments I've had with Him(which I've cherished and wanted more of but that was too much to ask)

I feel like I've lost my soulmate and I'm just spiraling into a manic state of mind without Him. I can act like "it's okay" all I want but, all I truly want is Him. But it's impossible to have Him back without remembering the pain and loss of Him.

I feel like this is going to live with me forever and time will not heal this.

#what am i even doing #i love you endlessly #let it be me #fuck this #why am i still alive

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“When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.”

— Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

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⛅️🍃🪸🐚

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Focus on where you are and what you need to do

-wiseman.

#i love you endlessly #let it be me #moving on #what am i even doing

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River Birch Threads on Etsy

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“I used to dislike being sensitive. I thought it made me weak. But take away that single trait, and you take away the very essence of who I am. You take away my conscience, my ability to empathize, my intuition, my creativity, my deep appreciation for the little things, my vivid inner life, my deep awareness of others’ pain, and my passion for it all.”

— Unknown

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I'm his first gf, he's not my first but he is someone I hold very dear to me and think about my future with alot.

My negative thoughts invaded now and I'm wondering if what if maybe I'm the girl he dates before finding the one he'd marry... it's scary thinking of a future without him

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what’s it like to not be spoken to like you’re uneducated?

purely curious about this experience. I cant remember ever feeling like I’m understood when i talk to someone about something.

it’s like when youre saying a story to a group but no one’s interested so ou slowly phase out and stop talking? that but one-on-one  

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Mid overthinker rant and I realized I'm being too hard on myself and just... stopped, cried a weebit ... and reminded myself that I'm sensitive and should just go blast some music into my mind to clean out these sad thoughts...

Sometimes it's that easy when you're in the process of healing yourself.🍃

#what am i even doing #healing #i love you endlessly #try again

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I'm more likely to be your friend if you fight with me first over something stupid.

Nice people are a blessing but it's always the idiots that keep me interested 🤌

#what am i even doing

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Carrier Oils in Witchcraft!

So. I make a lot of witchy oils! It's fun and has versatility. There's a lot of room for creativity as well! But something I was curious about was if carrier oils had any properties that could affect the end results, and after a lot of research over several months it turns out there are correspondences for carrier oils!

Obviously these aren't set in stone, everyone has their own correspondences and some people might not have access to every kind of carrier oil out there, but here is a general list for your reference!

Sweet Almond Oil: Ruled by Mercury and the Element of Air. Sweet Almond Oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with prosperity, money and wisdom.

Apricot Kernel Oil: Ruled by Venus and the Element of Water. This makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with love or emotions.

Avocado Oil: Ruled by Venus and the Element of Water. This makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with love, lust or beauty.

Castor Oil: Ruled by Mars and the Element of Fire. Castor oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with protection and absorbing negativity.

Fractioned Coconut Oil: Ruled by the Moon and the Element of Water. Fractionated Coconut Oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with purification and protection.

Grapeseed Oil: Ruled by the Moon and the Element of Water. Grapeseed Oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with fertility, money, and strengthening mental abilities.

Hemp Seed Oil: Ruled by the Moon and Saturn and the Element of Water. Hemp Seed Oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with healing, love, psychic ability and meditation.

Jojoba Oil: (note: lasts the longest in terms of shelf life/freshness) Ruled by the Moon and the element of Water. Jojoba Oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with healing and love.

Olive Oil: Ruled by the Sun and the Element of Fire. Olive Oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with healing, peace, fertility and protection. In many traditions Olive Oil is an all purpose oil and can substitute any other carrier oil for blends.

Sunflower Oil: Ruled by the Sun and the Element of Fire. Sunflower Oil makes a great carrier oil for blends that deal with protection, fertility, health and wisdom.

Vegetable Oil: (note: typically the cheapest, but has a much shorter shelf life span than other oils) Could not find a ruling planet or element. Vegetable oil is oil that is extracted from various types of fruits, seeds, grains, and nuts. If you only have vegetable oil on hand you can consider it an all purpose oil like Olive Oil. Around 80% of vegetable oil is made of Soybean, said to promote psychic awareness and spirituality and is great for financial gain and abundance of any kind.

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Small things to do to feel better

Open your window and take a deep breath.

Cook yourself a comfort meal.

Do your skincare.

Do a dance workout on youtube to your favorite song.

Look at photos and videos that make you happy.

Turn off your phone for a while.

Bake cookies.

Go on a walk while listening to a podcast.

Do some stretching.

Take a nap. Tired = bad mood.

Call someone who you like.

Do a face mask.

Watch your favorite childhood movie.

Take your time. <3

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