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the spotify canvas for i can do it with a broken heart just being clips from the eras tour movie…..i’m ill

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I don't know, maybe I'm in the minority, but I'm loving TTPD. People are saying it's too slow and that every song sounds the same, but honestly, I was expecting it to be slow? Based on the album title, I expected it to be slower songs that were lyric heavy instead of uptempo pop beats like Shake it off, LWYMMD, 22, just to name a few.

This was an album taylor wrote for herself as a way to heal and step into a new chapter of her life. It's been a little over 12 hours since I first listened, and I have several favorite songs and have been enjoying diving into the lyrics.

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and not everyone is going to like every album she puts out, but for me I'm enjoying it and am glad to have people who I can share my enthusiasm with and discuss it with.

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This is not a pretty album. it's not what people thought they wanted to hear, it's not what anyone predicted. I'm not sure it's supposed to be for anyone but herself in a way and I absolutely love that.

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Just because an album and/or song is long, that does not mean it's "unedited." I find it very lazy that people are falling back on editing as a critique for this album, because the core album is extremely coherent and cohesive and every lyric and sound feels like it adds value. And even on the "double" album, each of the 31 songs individually is an incredible piece of art. So, if someone is able to make 31 incredible songs and it helps them illustrate the story of an unstable part of their life, why can't that be part of the artistic statement?

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we have exhausted the jack hate conversations. they are best friends and they make great music together. if you’re bored of it, there are endless other musicians you can listen to instead of taylor. you can stick to her other songs no problem. no one is holding the gun to your head. stop blaming jack when taylor is making the music she wants to make. if she didn’t want this style as her sound she wouldn’t work with him. and beyond that taylor takes an active involvement in the creative process so you’re kidding yourself if you think she doesn’t have a distinct vision for most of these songs going into a recording session and they would sound completely different and unrecognizable under a different producer

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we really went from “clearing the air, i breathed in the smoke” in daylight to “six weeks of breathing clean air, i still miss the smoke” in the black dog

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I am once again asking Swifties to understand that Taylor Swift songs and albums are not "about" anyone other than Taylor Swift and how she is thinking or feeling or reacting to any particular stimuli in her life. And that is more true than ever with this album.

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Realizing that Taylor wrote and rewrote her meeting and falling in love with Joe over and over on each album because she was desperately clinging to the hope that the magic and golden love would come back, but over the years it never did.

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I think Matty Healy is awful but I’m still proud of Taylor putting “but daddy I love him” on the record.

There are songs on the album about her realising he love bombed her and manipulated her. Realising she fell for all of it, she was never going to fix him, and he was never going to be her saviour. She is scathing towards him, but also towards herself for falling for it. She could have left it at that and maybe copped less criticism. Instead she acknowledges the backlash and the defiance she felt in that moment.

It makes me feel the same way her putting Ours on Speak Now does. Grateful that she is open to sharing her stories even when the muse isn’t deserving of the words she wrote, even when releasing it fans the fires of the “I told you so” crowd.

And much like Ours is not a defence of Mayer, BDILH is not an acquittal of Healy. The phrasing she uses is not “he’s a good man they just don’t know him like I do”, it’s “I’m not coming to my senses” “I’d rather burn my whole life down”. The message of the song is not her trying to convince you he’s a good person (he’s not), it’s about a woman stumbling through a crisis and her desperate need to be able to make her own decisions, and that includes her own mistakes - which she seems to be acknowledging Matty was.

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what's so clever about Clara Bow is that when she references her own name at the end, she's not talking about the present but the future, quoting the inevitable way people are going to one day talk about her, imagining it will only be in regards to the woma(e)n who surpass her. because there will be someone who surpasses her, eventually. that's the cycle of fame, isn't it? we're simultaneously captivated by the alluring trick of the past while looking for the next big thing. we compare current stars to the lights that shined before them, "you look like taylor swift." but we're also constantly waiting for someone new and greater to take the crown and captivate us anew, "you've got edge she never did." And half the song is about acknowledging that being revered is hell on earth for the people who are in it, because you're always trapped between what came before and what will come after. you're only safe insofar as you remain shiny. But the real beauty of the song is that it never succumbs to this dichotomy, but embraces it. It's Taylor acknowledging she wouldn't be who she is were it not for the women who came before her, who shared the same dreams, and recognizing her place in the chain of the women who will come after. The future's bright, dazzling.

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she really said ‘and while we’re at it, fuck kim kardashian too’

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The thing that is striking me the most about this album is just how messy and human it is. She’s not holding anything back or trying to appear one way or another. She’s just letting it all out regardless of what anyone might say. She found that trying to be polished and keep all the ugly, imperfect, human stuff in to be stifling and just said fuck it I need to do this for me. This album was an exorcism for her.

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thinking about “and i’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free” and “give me back my girlhood, it was mine first” is actually making me feel sick to my stomach

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do you ever think about how tommy knows who buck is well before he meets him. and i don't even mean in, like, a "friend-of-a-friend" way. i mean, it is canon that the 118 is practically famous in the LAFD for everything they go through, and so. he knows who buck is. he doesn't put all the pieces together until they're post-sex one day and he's drawing little patterns on buck's back with his finger and buck talks about almost losing eddie. and tommy's like oh, the well. he told me about that. and buck shakes his head, like, no, no, i mean the shooting. i was standing right in front of him when it happened. and tommy sits the fuck up because. like. no. no. like he'd heard about it, of course; he had to wear the same bulletproof vests everyone else in his social circle did but he's like "that was you?" and coincidentally, this is also when buck learns that there is grainy footage of the shooting, that the worst moment of his life has been documented and viewed by people, but anyway buck winces and is just like. um. yeah? and that just kicks tommy in the chest, because like. it's just weird isn't it? how many times these two people that he knows and cares about so much now almost died so many times before, and for all that he was aware of it tangentially, he wasn't actually aware of it and what that would mean for/to him in the future. he was almost robbed of the opportunity to know both of them and he didn't even realize it.

i just think that's crazy to think about.

also. tommy did not flinch when buck said that the helicopter ride is the most fun thing that's happened to him since getting struck by lightning which makes me think he's also heard that story. and i'm just like. and you chose to date a walking danger magnet? as in no one is holding a gun to your head and making you? staggering. congratulations tommy, buck must be made of stardust and gold. anyways. much to contemplate.

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“how can you ship bucktommy what about buddie????” tommy is the most compelling love interest buck has had in 6 years. he has more personality than the last 3 combined and lou can actually act. i’m absolutely gonna enjoy him while he’s here, i have enough love in my heart for all 3 of those boys in any and all combinations. skill issue if you don’t

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shoutout to that guy on reddit who thought he was homophobic but was just in love with his roommate, you have done so much for buddie fandom and you don’t even know